I don't remember when I truly was happy

[Elton]

Is it so simple that your not happy because your don't want to be happy? 

I acknowledge this issue and look at it the way it is... 

Why am I not happy ? 

Oh ya I just remembered the time I started PD.

Seeking for things on the outside but why I'm not happy is because of something that inside.

How do I find this shit ? 

Focusing on the present moment and realising that every thing else is noise ? 

Or accepting that it's ok to not be happy 99 percent of the time ?

Let's try focusing on present and I'll come back tomorrow.