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@Leo Gura Personally for my experiences I think they are beings themselves. The personal interactions I've had over the past year seems like that. I'm sure there are many types though. I'm mainly referring to orbs/beams of light (same). But I have also seen other "physical" looking objects too, like black triangular crafts. I also think these "light beings", can morph into more physical forms of stuff. I've seen like a unison looking object similar to a flock of birds, but they were not birds. Also the other day as I was standing outside looking up, a bird like creature flew directly at me, then as soon as it was directly above me (not high up, in my vicinity in the pool patio as they always are) it turns around instantaneously and flew back in the other direction. I didn't see any flapping wings and it was dark. Like the feeling i got was a being flying up to me saying hi and turning around. I've had random splashes happen in the pool right in front of me, with nothing visible there. SO many different experiences I couldn't list them all. The feelings point to a lot. And once you have the experiences of light beams fly directly square parallel in line with your face right above you, dozens of times, all signs point to beings themselves. I have no videos and zero documentation other than my words. But I would never ever make something like this up. I have zero care to prove anything to anyone. The experience of the dream is already fantastical. What I find more strange is humans ability to rationalize away from it, like they aren't already living in alice in wonderland. lol.

I don't really talk about it too much, but I am friends with "UFO's" in the form of orbs/beams of light,etc. (I've seen them take many forms and do super cool things, way too many to list). They come by nearly every night when I go outside and interact with me. I know its personal too obviously, just based off the experiences I've had and the continuity of them. It is super fucking cool. It's fantastical when a light beam fly's right above your head. On over 100 different occasions. lol. Just goin fast! It's exhilarating to say the least. Thats just one of the many things they can do. The contact has been a near nightly ritual for the last year for me. I wish I knew more about them, like where/when/why/how. But not knowing is just better.

@Leo Gura Beautiful blog post (Why people believe in God 10/5/26) just wanted to say that was an excellent quick read, thanks

You become fully conscious of this and embody it: Reality only ever appears inside the boundaries of your own awareness. If something never enters your experience, it simply doesn’t exist in your localized pocket of reality. That’s true here, in dreams, in other dimensions, in memories, in imagination — anywhere and anytime. Infinity contains everything, but each “you” only ever encounters a tiny, unique thread of it. Every experience you’ve had, and every experience you haven’t, is part of that infinite field. From nightly excursions in strange dream realms to ghosts, orbs, beams of light, or the simple act of walking outside — it’s all one seamless appearance happening inside the same source. And the beings you think you meet “out there”? They’re experiencing their own pockets too. Every human, every animal, every object, every situation, every speck of dust is its own localized perspective of infinity. But when something enters your awareness — a person, a memory, a mailbox, a planet, a unicorn in thought — you create that appearance. If you weren’t aware of it, it wouldn’t exist in your reality at all. A deaf and blind person doesn’t live in the same reality you do. A devout religious person doesn’t either. No two beings experience the same world, because there is no shared world — only individualized pockets of experience. Human beings constantly point at things and say, “Look at this in my reality,” without realizing the finger doing the pointing is just infinity pointing at itself. Survival creates a massive self‑deception: a continuous justification of identity, beliefs, and narratives to maintain the illusion of continuity. When something threatens that illusion, the psyche fires off defenses to protect its pocket. People aren’t defending truth — they’re defending their own hallucinated structure. Everything you interact with is yourself, because you’re the one generating the appearance. The people you admire or despise are creations inside your pocket. Religion is a creation. Your personal story is a creation. Even the idea that you were “born” is part of the hallucination. Humans take for granted how much mind constructs reality. They repeat a story — “I was born here, I’m human, I believe these things, I’ve lived this life” — without realizing that every part of that story is imagined. When you strip away human rationalism, beliefs, identity, survival, and all the mental scaffolding, everything collapses back into a singularity — a paradoxical everything/nothing that splits itself into infinite perspectives. You are that singularity, experiencing one localized thread of itself. But even the idea of “threads,” “perspectives,” or “pockets” is still part of the hallucination. Infinity doesn’t actually divide itself. Division is something the human mind invents to make sense of what cannot be grasped. Survival doesn’t just distort reality — it invents time, identity, causality, and continuity. Without survival, there is no past or future, no “me,” no “my life,” no “my reality.” Dreams and waking life aren’t two different states; they’re the same mechanism wearing different costumes. You never experience a “world.” You only experience appearances — sensations, images, thoughts — and then the mind stitches a story called “world” over them. Science, religion, rationality, and language are all tools created inside the hallucination. They can’t reveal what’s outside of it. They can only reinforce the structure. Even asking for “proof” is a defense mechanism of the survival system, because proof is just another human invention used to stabilize the illusion. The deepest layer is when the observer collapses. As long as you say “I created this,” there is still a duality — a creator and a creation. But the “I” is part of the hallucination too. When the observer dissolves, there is no center, no boundary, no identity, no subject, no object, no creation, no infinity, no mind, no world. There is only appearance, and even “appearance” is too much. It’s not everything. It’s not nothing. It’s simply what is, without anyone there to name it. This is why humans clash, congregate, form groups, create ideologies, and fall into corruption. Survival pushes them into separation, and separation pushes them into fear. The further someone is from recognizing the nature of their own pocket, the more they cling to identity and defend it, often unconsciously harming others in the process. Devilry is just survival wearing a mask. Life is a dream — not metaphorically, but literally. And every “thing” is dreaming itself. When you understand that deeply, you stop trying to understand “out there” and start seeing what you’ve been doing this entire time: hallucinating reality, endlessly, creatively, infinitely. And when all of that is seen clearly, it becomes just another thread of infinity — one more appearance inside the vastness of what you are. This is where the entire structure of human identity starts to shake. Because if others are imagined, then separation collapses. If separation collapses, then the self collapses. And if the self collapses, the world collapses with it. The human mind is built on the assumption that “I exist as a separate, continuous entity.” When that assumption dissolves, everything dissolves — not metaphorically, but literally. The mind isn’t afraid of infinity. It’s afraid of losing the illusion of being someone "inside" it. People cling to others because others make the self feel real. They cling to relationships, arguments, ideologies, communities, enemies, heroes — because all of these reinforce the sense of “me.” If others are imagined, then the self is imagined. And if the self is imagined, then the entire world is a dream. That’s the part survival cannot tolerate. It’s not the metaphysics that scares people. It’s the ego death implied by it. This is why people demand proof. Proof is a defense mechanism — a way for the mind to stabilize the illusion. Proof is just another invention inside the hallucination, used to protect the hallucinated self. The question “Where’s the evidence?” is the psyche screaming, “Don’t take my world away from me.” But the world was never there to begin with. It was only ever appearance, arising inside the same source that imagines the one asking the question. But when the observer collapses, there is no creator and no creation. No self and no other. No world and no mind. No infinity and no nothingness. Just the raw, centerless fact of appearance — without anyone there to witness it. This is the part that hits hardest: you are not inside reality. Reality is appearing as you. You are not navigating a world. The world is arising as a story inside you. You are not interacting with others. Others are expressions of the same source, appearing within your pocket. And that source is just the ungraspable fact of existence itself, dreaming itself as everything. What you may call "God". Once this is seen, even for a moment, the entire human drama becomes transparent. The conflicts, the beliefs, the identities, the fears, the corruption — all of it is survival acting out its hallucinated role. All of it is infinity pretending to be separate, pretending to be threatened, pretending to be lost. And all of it is coming from the same seamless field that has no beginning, no end, and no center. Life is a dream, and every “thing” is dreaming itself. The self is a character. Others are characters. The world is the stage. And the dreamer is not the character you call “me.” It’s the same singularity expressing itself as infinite perspectives, each convinced it is alone, each convinced it is real, each convinced it is separate — until the moment it sees through itself.

- The 1980's "Satanic Panic" - Heavens Gate cult - Chinese foot binding trend/tradition for women to be sought after to get married - All the tribal conformities in South America and Africa, etc. - Luxury brand pedestalization - Supercar pedestalization on social media influencers profiles. (using supercars to get views) - Goth, punk, prep - Make shift holidays or "themed months". Actually all holidays. - Black Friday lunacy in Walmart, Best Buy and other stores

Sit in your room on your bed or a chair and stare at the wall or a object for a long time until you see everything start breathing, and you can start to un-mesh the rigidness of the hallucination and you see how fluid everything is, vibrating in "your" mind. And you see how you (God) is creating and imagining it all. The solidness of everything starts to untangle and you see "mind" constructing it. And apply that to everything you have and have not experienced or ever been aware of in human form, including everything in all different planes as well. But it's all one thing doing/constructing it all. All of infinity coming out of that same "place" "mind". Of course this exercise is way more powerful if you take a psychedelic since they naturally untangle and modify the hallucination. But you can still do it without just requires more focus on the present. Both together is radical. So you do this and then you also see that you, the human form sitting there is the same thing. That's when you start unraveling yourself and moving beyond being human. And then you see the hallucination intensely and how "you" are imagining it all. I also want to point out that you can do this, but it's so easy to naturally revert back into your full human mode. Keep that same awareness intact as much as you can regularly. When your ego's story starts reigning control again, just realize what is happening and you can always be a step ahead of that. Like, "being on top of your human form" so to speak It's so cool because everywhere you go and everything you do, you see it in a different light. Like when you go outside for example, you see how all of that is "mind". All of your surroundings. Funny too when you realize that a situation or experience that you had (or any thing had) of some kind, any kind, is mind hallucinating that story/experience. Like the visceral of it. Visceral situation/experience being imagined. Kind of hard to explain in words because language can only go so far before you can't find the words to explain. You know when you're in the right state. Another great exercise on top is to go through different memories and being able to see all of those as the same thing. The hallucination is so powerfully intact, it's insane.

I recently had an awakening on the scope of infinity. This is sort of how it played out in my mind. Pretend you are a bird flying about looking down. You see all the humans in their caves (homes). Each human has a story, a different place they were born, different environments, different situations, different conformities, different minds, different lives, going different places, experiencing their own local viewpoint, totally completely individual like never before. Each human is so unique in their own way. Even a human that conforms to a group of some kind is still very uniquely them in their own individual ways. Now take that same concept for humans, and now apply it to every single species on the planet. Every cat, every dog, every animal, every insect. They too, have their own upbringings, experiences. Like a house cat versus a street cat for example. All those different types of lives. Every animal ever. Every human ever. Completely local and unique. Now take that same concept and apply it to inanimate objects. Each comes from a different place, ends up in a different place. Each house is unique. Apartment 12 is not apartment 13. Each country, every civilization is unique. Each block on the pyramids is not the other block. One may have crack formations that none of the others do. Every tree. Every leaf. Every scratch on a plank of wood. Every rock. Every note played on a guitar. Never the same. You get the point. Totally unique viewpoint/creation. Now we go another layer further. Lets say someone takes a drug. Their mind takes them somewhere that no one else has experienced in the same way. Perhaps not even a drug but just a nightly dream in some other dimension. Completely unique perspective and experience. Now apply the same layering to every star, every planet, every alien, every light being, every speck of dust, every creature in some dimension somewhere. Every thought of a flying purple elephant. And all the experiences that each of these forms of consciousness are experiencing. Just new, new, new, new, new, uniqueness. Creations, perspectives, all being imagined out of the woodwork by source. Now apply to every single one of these figments of the past, present, and future. The perspective of "timelines" and viewpoints of experience in those timelines. All of it. Even though time itself is imaginary, think of the things in each of those time periods and the same infinity spirals. Now apply it to all the things a human being cannot conceive of. Infinity creates infinite threads on an infinite tapestry, each thread being a completely new perspective. And this goes on for infinity and came from infinity. It's truly mind bending. I want to point out while all of this might sound obvious, the big part of this insight was in feeling it and truly being in touch with that everlasting spout of creation, imagining all of these things into perspective forever. And on top of that (cherry on top), "perspective" itself being your local reality viewpoint. Every "thing" experiences a different reality. Contemplate that. Then of course, it all collapses back into one. Infinite parts and oneness. Together as an infinite paradox. Once you realize all of this and truly "know" it, you see how most humans are completely and utterly insane. Slaves to their own perspective hallucinations.

To add to that, the people running the show are typically the ones you never know about.

Usually, you can't. Unless you're like the King or Queen somewhere in some time and own the law. But even they deal with crap. Also the more powerful someone is doesn't mean they are untouchable they still have hens pecking at their back everywhere they go and everything they say. The bigger you get and the more people know who you are the more polarizing you become with more haters. Lets just take an example randomly of Tate, he became one of the most famous people on the planet, and now he's locked away. But we all know that he did some very shady shit.

@Monster Energy Every streak I've ever been on (even if it's like 3-5 days (not necessarily a streak)) I'll have women legit staring at me wherever I go and you can "feel" the looks on you. It's so strange. Like you can literally feel their desire.

Remember, Tates the type of guy to say "tears rolled down my face but I did not cry." He's just so tough. Just like all the chumps doing pushups outside the jail he's at, bowing to their savior.

i think traveling is important. But mainly for seeing different forms of consciousness (like cities) across the globe. and also, how your mind interacts with different locations. Consciousness in general loves to create and explore. New places, new people, new experiences. New lifestyles. New lives. But no matter where you go, you're still sitting in the same spot for eternity.... its still cool to experience nonetheless

yeah i'd say happiness is primarily a choice. but a lot of it can stem from not having your ego's need fulfilled. like freedom/money/sex/goals. It's not that those things make you directly happy, but lacking them can cause unhappiness and frustration for your survival/life needs. I also think you need something to work on or towards or to cultivate certain experiences that bring you a sense of fulfilment. Whether thats a lifestyle change, traveling/experiencing new things, working on a goal/skill, could be anything really. But most of all humans are trying to work on money/sex/freedom/social/lifestyle. If you don't have any of those handled, your ego can keep bringing it up and be thinking too much about them. But once they are handled you realize they don't actually bring happiness themselves, they just make your lifestyle/survival better. Thats why happiness is still a choice, kind of like a letting go. but its very difficult to let go if survival isn't handled and you don't have anything to work towards or experience. Being a human requires an ego, and egos need satiation at some point. At least for the vast majority of people...

The Holy Pineapple conformity - In 17th century Europe when wealthy elites who couldn't quite afford to buy outright, but used to rent rarely imported pineapples for the evening. Not to eat but to carry under their arm as a showcase or a centerpiece for the dining table at parties. They hired armed bodyguards to walk with them down the street to protect the pineapple. Luxury fruit brokers charged an hourly rate for the rental. Some people would hurriedly get the pineapple and take it to the theatre or a cafe for everyone to see and then quickly get it back to not get charged for the 2nd hour. High status women who could not get one would wear pineapple shaped earrings and jewelry. King Charles II actually commissioned a painting of him receiving a pineapple to look like a holy object.