I struggle being happy

[hyruga]

 

[Ulax]

@Asia P I'd give the Work by Byron Katie a go. Its a unique yet simple healing technique where  you ask questions to yourself about certain beliefs you have. Its very different to other popular belief focused techniques too.

It can work where other techniques haven't in my experience. I have serious emotional difficulties myself.

If you go google 'Byron Katie The Work' there is lots of info/ instruction on the website. 

Here is an article I found that gives an introduction to the process

https://thework.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/instr_en_18jul2019_ltr.pdf

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If finances allow, I'd also recommend seeking out a mental health professional.

All the best to you

Edited April 5 by Ulax

[Julian gabriel]

@Asia P I have the same problem I’m dealing with, I’ve been told that it comes from not eating enough meat sometimes so I might eat more meat probably 

[No1Here2c]

Just now, Julian gabriel said:

@Asia P I have the same problem I’m dealing with, I’ve been told that it comes from not eating enough meat sometimes so I might eat more meat probably 

Yeah meat is the issue.

Bag of.

Which we are in constant identification with.

[hyruga]

 

[Julian gabriel]

@No1Here2c @No1Here2c in identification with the meat? 

How does identifying with it relate to the iron in the blood thing? 

[Julian gabriel]

On 4/1/2026 at 0:58 PM, Asia P said:

@Leo Gura

Actually my blood has really low iron. I'll fix this issue and see if i get better. U were right

@Asia P how will u fix the issue?

[Julian gabriel]

 

[Julian gabriel]

On 3/7/2026 at 5:12 AM, Cred said:

This is in interesting observation. I have never considered that this myth of the three-day meditation could be an allegory of mania.

This is extremely dangerous advice. It makes a massive difference, if you have a good life with support and people who love you unconditionally, and you want to know the truth about the universe like Yogananda or if your life is shit, the people in your life are toxic, and you want to know the truth about your suffering.

If you are depressed, there is likely some giant elephant in the room that you need to become aware of. This metaphor has way more depth than you think. Let's break down its symbolism.

The Miracle of Symbiosis

Life is symbiosis which is the space that is created by the dance (the couple dance symbolizes the harmony between the hug and the handshake) between love (unity, symbolized by the hug) and partnership (creating space, symbolized by the handshake). 

Symbiosis is a fundamental law of nature and of life. You can be in a symbiotic relationship with any entity. It can also be a career, an identity, an ideology, a pet, a hobby for example. A large part of this space that is your life is created in a dance with the people who are closest to you like your parents.

The Elephant

So what is the Elephant?

let's say, one of these people closest to you are mainly in this dance with you to exploit you and feed their void which is their self-hatred, you have an elephant in your room which is suffocating you. This metaphor does, again, not just apply to personal relationships.

Living in a space for a long time makes you blind to what is really going on in it since you are so used to it. This is the reason why there can be something as massive as an elephant that you have not noticed yet. This blindness (blindfold in the metaphor) is a necessity for peace. The blindfold is trust. If you didn't have it, you would be paranoid.

Being depressed in this metaphor means being forced to exist in this space with lowered ability to leave with distraction.

What you can do about the Elephant

So you are lying in your bed with a blindfold on with an elephant that you are not aware of sharing this room with you. If you are in this situation you have three options:

1. Distract yourself anyway which would be symbolized by staying in bed.
2. Stop distracting and start mind wandering in a healthy way while taking care of your needs and nurturing your body, which would be symbolized by standing up and start the process of touching the elephant and slowly start to identify it over the course of weeks.
3. Entering obsessive thought spirals, obsessive meditation, use of psychedelics while not nurturing your body would be symbolized by standing up, ripping off your blindfold and then FREAKING THE FUCK OUT BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THERE HAS BEEN AN ELEPHANT THE WHOLE TIME?????????????

If you become aware of this elephant in a sudden, violent way, you have a massive problem. Remember, since you bypassed option 2 and you therefore have not investigated the elephant prior, you see it, but you don't know what it is and where it came from. 

Schizophrenia explained

If you have the disposition for schizophrenia and you engage in option 3, what your body will now do is violently (often literally violently) end all partnerships with all entities you were in partnership with. The mechanisms that drive this process are hallucination, paranoia, mania, etc. 

Going back to the partnership metaphor, when you are in a handshake (partnership) with somebody, the contact of your palms is making the space stable, but it also makes you vulnerable. Pushing away somebody you are in a partnership with is the best thing you can do if they infect you with their self-hatred. What you need to know though is that there exists no life outside symbiosis, therefore there exists no life outside of partnership. What this means is that when you push someone away, the space between you two becomes unstable and therefore turns into void/abyss. 

This is why people enjoy things like cosmic horror even though it is scary. If you get desensitized to the void, you will gain massive amounts of independence.

Just because you end one relationship does not mean your whole life is a void since you still have your other relationships. So if you commit to option 2 and do what's necessary, you will face existential void, but it will be good on the long run.

If, however, you decide to do option 3, and you become so paranoid that you self-isolate completely, your whole life will be nothing but void. You will get rid of the problem like this, but the abyss is the price of your body pressing the nuclear button.

A nuclear bomb is actually a good metaphor for schizophrenic psychosis. The event of the psychosis is the bomb detonating that is destroying everything with substance in your life. This will allow you to start from scratch and build something different, but there will be a fallout. If you suffer a psychosis, you will become radically aware, but it can leave lasting damage to your brain.

@Asia P They’re right I was getting you into trouble with this, because you weren’t asking to delve deeper into the self as much as you were asking for help to feel better. Be brave, not that I am. 

You are the elephant in my dungeon. 
We don’t trust us

i was mr.nobody at the airport in nyc. wondering wether to go to you or stay with my dad, then I picked up some weed from the ground and lit it and I decided to stay with him simply out of how I felt in the moment. 

when we did honesty porn i felt like we weren’t communicating well then I smoked weed and felt more connected to you, explaining how I was planning to bring a bag which I had got 4 u 2 u.

then you said it felt like dmt and that I was killing you I remember seeing my face smile an evil grin and yours too as you begged me to let you go and never contact you again I struggled to give you the “goodbye” that you needed I needed to ask my father to help me say goodbye. 

You said weed is my happiness button, you are right, and you may be the one I infected with my self hatred and infinite blue sadness, perhaps your love for the ocean will save you somehow through dmt in your beautiful third eye as my love for the woods saves me through Mary Jane from feeling too lonley to survive.