Awakening as a treatment for schizophrenia

[Verdesbird]

Tell me more about

How i supose to "awake"

PM me about it

Once ive tried it i find so difficult to stay awake that i abbandon the process 

[nufan]

just wait and intergal will pop up to help you

[nufan]

i asked chatgpt to analyze this topic so far..

https://chatgpt.com/share/69ea1c1e-04e4-8327-baac-fd3b3e8465c0

i ll say one thing...   fuck off chatgpt... 

i am TOTALLY FREE NOW

WOW... 

OH MY GOD!

 

 

 

and after celebrating for 24 hours... big questions arise..

why everything is so predetermined? inside out

why i don't have free will?

why the future is fixed?

why i wake up?

why me?

can someone spoil this shit? ready to listen...

 

my view ,is that all shows have a happy ending! as simple as that!

 

wow... all its left now is just silence and peace!

wow... 

 

 

Edited April 24 by nufan

[LordFall]

Sounds like you need to meditate some more. Awakening is not enough to sustain an elevated state of consciousness without tripping out and losing perspective i.e. falling into psychosis. Happened to me a few times.

I had some similar insights to you about kind of being dead already but God wanting to play a game and unfold a story. The more I live out my life the more it aligns and the less I suffer and fall into a good version of my story. I hope you find the same. Suffering comes from misunderstanding materialism. 

[nufan]

thanks @LordFall for your post... (thinks are not as quite as you describe .. maybe a'll come on to that in a later post)

 

 

i dont know how i turned into  being the main character of  trueman show or something like Inception!!!

but ... its real!!! wow..

who are u all? my projections? in my dream? in "my" show?

should this make me suffer more or what?

wow... so ... its all fake...

just now starting to truly realize..(having a  higher state of consciousness)

wow.. 

wow

i guess it will take me a few more days to do what i have to do ... maybe more...

wow

 

on second thought ... i am just in the hands of god... what could go wrong?!

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sorry guys... now i know how naive i am ... better go mute

wow! omg

 

Edited April 29 by nufan

[nufan]

i know this may sound way extreme...

i think i have to take full responsibility for the wold i have created!

just starting to grasp this!

i am speechless

its way extreme ...  but its true!

its everywhere! 

and its fake! and you know it! 

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what i posted before this... was -bad-ego driven(but still true)...trying to control things (sorry)

 

i am inside a dreamcatcher (whats left of me)

 

Edited May 4 by nufan

[nufan]

one last thing i would like to say..

i lost connection with my brain! (feels like)

i think i have alot to say.. but i cant say for sure what is true anymore. 

btw its funny how to say, Einstein is so wrong! (witnessing telekinesis is something) (maybe the correct thing to say is.. there was no Einstein in the first place!) wow

i really couldn't solve my problems in the same way i created them - (neither Einstein himself could- spend his all life trying)

(i got a taste of what going meta feels- is a very good step forward- should explore more)

anyway .. sorry to those who feel offended.. like Leo and UnbornTao and chatgpt

things for me will turn very wow from now on

fully healed .. for sure!.... not sure!.... i guess so

i am deeply worried that i don't have free will(even thoughts*)(basically Nothing at all) and things role out like a fake interactive movie. 

*witnessing my thoughts synchronize with some events on tv ... is something

 talking to my mother on phone and make her glitch at will

(also made the tv news presenter glitch.. i played something funny in my mind .. and she flash smiled .. replayed the footage.. the smile was there, its still in the archive) (after 2 hours .. someone through an egg my door).. looks like im not alone after all) - this happened 3 years ago

....... i know that the point is not to be superman..... all my "powers" are "gone".... just grounding now

anyway

at least i feel no stress! looks like heading to nothingness is wise

thanks.. 

and one last thing to lordfall... one time got the chance to meditate (20years ago, when i first took antipsychotics and antidepressants).. what happened? ... big shift.. felt free of illness ..and free of acrophobia... and a need to jump from the 3rd floor balcony... luckily i didn't recognize those feeling as "mine").. after 10 minutes ..back to false self)

so many things.. lost for so many years...wow

no psychedelics involved - viewer discretion in advised

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. i guess my existential awakening is compete... i ll move to spiritual soon ... because i can ( should lose the I first)

it looks ... anyone who have something to say ...anytime.. and anyplace... have not realized how stupid it is and how fool make themselves(me included)... 

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goodby psychiatrists all over the world... you are full of shit

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. the next episode should be a true mystery! ... better stay grounded with all my "will"

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one thing i asked god 4 years ago... to replay all my shity life in 2-3 seconds in my mind... showed that is possible! (this was one of many things that eventually burned)... i don't think i am ready yet though... i have to be REALY grounded i guess, or somehow i don't know yet

maybe i should consider the use of psychedelics, when i feel is the right time - maybe not - 

where is everything heading anyway? 

better be grounded as a turtle , or sky rocket? good question! (should i bite the apple?)  omg what a drama!

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. is EVERYTHING an after death experience? , looks way too unreal!... i should define real fist!

if you are still with me ... you should blame youtube for popping Leos videos one year ago in me!

- or blame those who clicked like and subscribe         (- great timing btw-)

Edited 2 hours ago by nufan

[nufan]

wait and see what the smartest person alive says...

 

am i to blame for this?

i guess you should watch this for your entertainment... only

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looks he is urgent need to make fool of himself , in a smart way, gain big audience, 

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for fools that have something to say..is one thing.. for smart .. is another (its the same whichever way to look it)

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why am i here?

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.looks like i have no place at all

 

Edited 24 minutes ago by nufan