I did something really embarassing, how do i forget it?

[Never_give_up]

Today I met a a teacher that I had 13 years ago and I overshared some mental issues i have... what i was thinking? Now I feel embarassed every time I think of it. 

Not only that , what if he shares it with other people? I can't forgive myself for brining unnesacary shame to me.

How do I erase it from my memory?

[trenton]

I don't think you did anything wrong even if it wasn't well received. You are somebody who needs help and sometimes it is coming out even if others might not want to hear it. You may be reacting to internalized shame from trauma itself. Although logic cannot overcome mental health problems, I hope that you can one day reach security in yourself to a point that you don't need to hide things from yourself as well the teachers. You were likely looking for some kind of connection or the hopes of relating to someone and finding compassion that you may desperately need.

In my experience, I have often been deeply embarrassed by so much as an unpleasant thought. You likely do not deserve to carry this level of shame and it may be disproportionate to the situation. That said, I don't know how to take the shame away through words alone. You may have been conditioned over several years to see yourself in this way and it now feels like reality.

I never really had any luck trying to erase memories. I ended up doing the opposite and creating an identity based around traumatic events that would always come back into my mind. What do you think this interaction you had says about you? Do you think it reveals something like your stupidity or the fact that you are weak or too easily hurt? What exactly is embarrassing about this and what is your psyche telling you about yourself because of this embarrassment? I don't think these things of you, but it might help to articulate what exactly your psyche is trying to say about you and how it is characterizing you. Bear in mind that the mind's evaluation of itself is often wrong even if it feels natural to think this way and completely instinctual.

What ever it takes, I hope you will not have to live your life with such shame.

[theleelajoker]

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I don't think you did anything wrong even if it wasn't well received. You are somebody who needs help and sometimes it is coming out even if others might not want to hear it. You may be reacting to internalized shame from trauma itself. Although logic cannot overcome mental health problems, I hope that you can one day reach security in yourself to a point that you don't need to hide things from yourself as well the teachers. You were likely looking for some kind of connection or the hopes of relating to someone and finding compassion that you may desperately need

+1 well said IMO

[Raze]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qsyP80BydV4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVqANXVTLN4

http://happinessbeyondthought.blogspot.com/2012/05/surrendering-i-letting-go-of-suffering.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MU1Rp184IT4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44LQLXt476o

 

[Yimpa]

Integrating acceptance and self-compassion is key. 

This shame in being mentally ill is eating you alive. You wouldn't blame a blind person for not being able to see, or a person without legs for not being able to walk.

[Schizophonia]

it's nothing.

For me, something embarrassing is like pooping on yourself.

[theleelajoker]

3 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

it's nothing.

For me, something embarrassing is like pooping on yourself.

French are the international standards for measuring the degree of embarrassment. They never feel embarrassed and this is why they are so popular around the world. 

 

 

( I am joking I agree that it's not a big thing ) 

Edited 2 hours ago by theleelajoker