Are you obsessed with death?

[theoneandnone]

i think about it all the time like why deal with so much shit day to day when you can just not deal with it lol. But death isn’t a guarantee could be another dream..could be purgatory or some kind of hell. I am fascinated with death i have experienced with it to see if i could get some peaks to the other side like self harm etc hanging beating my head in knocking myself out lol nothing yet though. (DO NOT BAN ME I AM SAFE I HAVE DONE THIS ON MY OWN ACCORD). Have you ever had a NDE???

[Princess Arabia]

This shouldn't even be in the mental illness section. Asking about death is not a mental illness, thinking one is alive is. We're all dis-eased and restless. This is death.

Edited September 27 by Princess Arabia

[theoneandnone]

1 hour ago, Princess Arabia said:

This shouldn't even be in the mental illness section. Asking about death is not a mental illness, thinking one is alive is. We're all dis-eased and restless. This is death.

I mean self harm is mental illness and I got a chart full of issues lulzzzz

[Xonas Pitfall]

Death? Not so much, no.

Gradually losing my cognitive abilities, chronic health problems, the strength of my body, the vitality of youth, the joy of living, the brightness of hope, the clarity of thought, the vibrancy of passion, the warmth of connection, loss of loved ones, the slow erosion of relationships, the gradual fading of memories, the heavy silence in my mind, the looming specter of decay, the helplessness in watching others fade, possible ageism around me, dismissiveness of my worth, the alienation from society, loss of excitement, the hollow void inside, anhedonia, the numbness of feeling, the cold emptiness that replaces joy, emotional exhaustion, growing apathy, anxiety about the future, the sorrow of fading dreams, the weight of regrets, the fragmentation of identity, the erasure of purpose...? Yes!

Edited September 27 by Xonas Pitfall

[Natasha Tori Maru]

3 hours ago, Xonas Pitfall said:

Death? Not so much, no.

Gradually losing my cognitive abilities, chronic health problems, the strength of my body, the vitality of youth, the joy of living, the brightness of hope, the clarity of thought, the vibrancy of passion, the warmth of connection, loss of loved ones, the slow erosion of relationships, the gradual fading of memories, the heavy silence in my mind, the looming specter of decay, the helplessness in watching others fade, possible ageism around me, dismissiveness of my worth, the alienation from society, loss of excitement, the hollow void inside, anhedonia, the numbness of feeling, the cold emptiness that replaces joy, emotional exhaustion, growing apathy, anxiety about the future, the sorrow of fading dreams, the weight of regrets, the fragmentation of identity, the erasure of purpose...? Yes!

You could look at all of the above... as mini 'deaths', no? If we take death to mean - end.

Because I feel the same as you - only I consider all of that death  But! I do not obsess about it. I am committed to its inevitability. It WILL happen to me. Knowing this dismisses a lot of the thoughts around it.

If we are talking about just the end of the subject-object experience permanently? No obsession for me

[Hojo]

I was obsessed with death before my awakening. I probably had 300 full blown panic attacks from fear of death. I had 2 mental breakdowns and then one day I had my final panic attack and saw God.

Panic attack from death is you going higher conciousness and freaking out. Its like being so intelligent you know the way out but can't sit still cause you don't know what is happening.

Edited September 27 by Hojo

[Xonas Pitfall]

On 9/27/2025 at 11:17 AM, Natasha Tori Maru said:

You could look at all of the above... as mini 'deaths', no? If we take death to mean - end.

Awesome point, yes! 

[LastThursday]

In amongst the detritus of death there is new life.

[Yimpa]

Being in relationships that suffocate is death to me. 

So I kill those relationships, so to speak. 

[Aaron p]

I'm honestly skeptical about death. I mean, whatever you imagine it to be is automatically not what it is because, if you pay close attention in the moment of imagining what death is like, you will find that what that literally exists as is your imagination. Every idea, every notion, exists in perceptual field as imagination. The book, Materialism Is Baloney - by Bernardo Kastrup, goes into the science of how people tend to have an increase of subjective, internal experiences (often epic OBE's) when there is a reduction in neural activity in certain brain regions and psychedelics have been shown to decrease neural activity, yet massive increase experiential occurrences. This is basis of the "filter theory of mind" ... The notion that the brain serves as a restrictive force on and otherwise infinitely boundless conscious field, like a tap restricting the unlimited flow of water, or a radio dial tuning out other frequencies to allow for a coherent, singular auditory output. 

This, among other pieces of evidence suggests that death literally doesn't exist. Not the person, the god, which is of course what we are really. Your immortal

[Princess Arabia]

3 hours ago, Aaron p said:

This, among other pieces of evidence suggests that death literally doesn't exist.

Life doesn't exists either. Nothing is polarized; meaning dead or alive. 

Even if what i'm saying doesn't compute, your statement suggests life doesn't either because if there's life there must be death.