Experiences with Kundalini awakening?

[theleelajoker]

I did a shaktipat in 2019 ater a friend recommend to try it.  After this, nothing really happening for many years. Until my last 10 day vipassana retreat. Kept my spine and neck straight, let go of ego as much as possible and I felt how my spine corrected itsself through countless little twiches, erecting itself, sometimes really powerfully stretching my whole body.

On the mental side...let's say it the 10 days were veeeery intense. Sometimes I felt like a dream like state, I clearly connected to parts of me and the reality around me that I did not even know existed. Many other things happened during and directly after the reatreat that made me feel incredibly connected to this world but also scared the shit out of me. At one point, I felt that if I completely let go "I" will "die" during meditation (I panicked and stopped). Took me two weeks to more or less process the 10 day retreat. Did not think much about Kundalini until some days ago.

Out of nothing, two old students of mine, both women, contacted me. We chatted a bit and I told them about my retreat. They pointed me to Kundalini. Again did not think about it much until today. Today I checked the typical  "symptoms" of Kundalini awakening like twitching, heat, sudden laughing or crying, emotional instability. I experience all of that. Moreover, I found out that Kundalini is seeing as female energy.

Especially the last part makes sense for me because I notice that my interactions with my girlfriend become very...let's say different. It feels like there is much more going on in our interactions then just "normal relationship stuff". It feels like I can sometimes pick up traces of archetypal energies, primordial female and male expressions and even tap a little bit into some insights that feel very much like the collective unsonscious described by C. Jung. Can't do it on purpose but I perceive "information" that is far beyond what I am typically aware of.  As I was reseraching Kundalini, I remembered that my gf has a snake tattoo similiar to kundalini images. It's so cliche symbolic you almost have to laugh out loud

So my questions:

• Anyone willing to share his/her experiences?
• So if the kundalini is female energy - what is my "male" energy counterpart within the body? How to balance the Kundalini energy? Necessary at all to balance?
• How is the kundalini awakening for women vs. for men?
• Other hints and advice?

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Maybe I am getting delusional, but the "external" relationship stuff with my gf seems to represent 1:1 my inner struggle to deal with this awakening energy. With struggle I mean that it's not easy to "just let the kundalini engery flow". It's shedding many layers of ego, uncovering deep emotional charges etc. One random time I almost had to throw up in the shower because the inner cleansing process got so intense. Same way, my gf seems to struggle with some of my recent behaviour and vice versa. She wants some stuff but has difficulties to let go, and the same goes for me. Right now we try hard to align out interests while both dealing with waves of resistance and fear.

What I am doing with Kundalini is trying to find a balance of "OK I just let go and let the energy come, surrender etc" , being equanimous. Same as with women, I know there is no way I can "control" the energy or make it do something it does not want to do. On the other hand, I don't feel like "just surrender and let it happen" is the only right strategy. I have the impression that I can somehow  "use" the kundalini energy, or better that I can "cooperate" with this energy to create mutual benefit for me (my character, avatar, human shell, whatever) and this primordial energy itelf.  During meditation, I do this by synchronzing my breath with the kundalini energy waves in my body.

Maybe this is what Yoga (unity) is about? Aligment and unity between the primordial energy and our character? And the external phenomena such as the interactions with my gf are just symbolic for our inner processes?

Happy for every constructive input!

Edited Monday at 08:57 PM by theleelajoker

[Hojo]

I think men and women give it to eachother via sex. The man has a void the woman has a womb for the void the man gives the woman his void empties his cup and then can kundalini himself like a recharge. The void the man gives to the woman leaves a hole in him he cant get back and when he reaches total annihilation God awaken him. If you have very passionate sex with the same person thousands of times you are both creating something you are both reaching for eachother something thats not there and you both get it but you both wont like it. Like Leo say in his video the man uses his penis to reach God inside the woman and the woman does the same and if you do it over and over and over its like a special ritual.

Edited Tuesday at 12:47 AM by Hojo

[theleelajoker]

@Hojo

First sentence I get and agree.

The rest is a bit murky. Ok, void, creation, completing polar energies, creating life... I don't get what this means in practical terms except "have passionate and loving sex together" 

 

Edited Tuesday at 08:07 PM by theleelajoker

[Hojo]

@theleelajoker You gotta go animal and loving. Whatever passionate means that is phony, primal seduction is passion.

[Sugarcoat]

I had a period in my teenage years where I had a TONNNN of sleep paralysis episodes, and feeling energy rise through my back and strong vibrations. It also happened once I talked to someone and opened up to someone and felt energy rising up through my face and releasing. I’ve also felt energies while doing positive visualizations of myself. I think it all connects to kundalini. It’s a process of dissolving the ego, but it’s very slow. It’s releasing tension in the system, blockages too, all that connects to the dense ego, the structure of the psyche. It feels like release of tension, can feel really good. I did meditation but didn’t find correlation to it, but if you do then it’s worth continuing. Maybe I just didn’t do enough of it. I’m lowkey impressed by people who do these retreats, like must be so boring to meditate for so long 

Edited Tuesday at 08:52 PM by Sugarcoat

[Davino]

I like this channel to work with Kundalini:

Yes, it's good to ground yourself. Hug lots of trees, be outside without a roof in your head, wear rudrakshas, walk barefoot, do sport, have sex, get a nice massage or physiotherapy etc.

Avoid psychedelics, specially LSD, till your energy is stable.

On 12/5/2025 at 10:47 PM, theleelajoker said:

the "external" relationship stuff with my gf seems to represent 1:1 my inner struggle to deal with this awakening energy.

The partner we search is what most aligns with our inner woman. She can help you intuitively, particularly in sex, maybe talk with her and explore.

[theleelajoker]

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

I had a period in my teenage years where I had a TONNNN of sleep paralysis episodes, and feeling energy rise through my back and strong vibrations. It also happened once I talked to someone and opened up to someone and felt energy rising up through my face and releasing. I’ve also felt energies while doing positive visualizations of myself. I think it all connects to kundalini. It’s a process of dissolving the ego, but it’s very slow. It’s releasing tension in the system, blockages too, all that connects to the dense ego, the structure of the psyche. It feels like release of tension, can feel really good. I did meditation but didn’t find correlation to it, but if you do then it’s worth continuing. Maybe I just didn’t do enough of it. I’m lowkey impressed by people who do these retreats, like must be so boring to meditate for so long 

Thx for sharing. The tension release I feel too, it's really great. And I can feel the correlation between psyche,body,  tensions and letting go. It's all one big puzzle.

There are many ways to meditate. Watching breath or just sitting, doing nothing I can really feel how energies start to move. Body scan is currently a bit much but was highly effective during retreat. But everybody is different.

My first two retreats had some boring phases. But during the last one so much came up, so much happening that boring is the last word I would use to describe it 😅 

[theleelajoker]

29 minutes ago, Davino said:

I like this channel to work with Kundalini:

Yes, it's good to ground yourself. Hug lots of trees, be outside without a roof in your head, wear rudrakshas, walk barefoot, do sport, have sex, get a nice massage or physiotherapy etc.

Avoid psychedelics, specially LSD, till your energy is stable.

The partner we search is what most aligns with our inner woman. She can help you intuitively, particularly in sex, maybe talk with her and explore.

Good advice.

Was thinking about doing a bit of LSD but postponed it until I am stable again. 

Groundings also makes sense, I was feeling very dream like and that's not vey functional for everyday life and work.

Love the sentence "partner we search most aligns with our inner woman". My gf does help intuitively, even if I sometimes have resistance. Must be the mirror experience for her. Quite interesting dynamic and I am very curious to explore this further. 

You say she can help particularly re Sex. I have ideas why you say that, but can you clarify pls?

[Jodistrict]

Here is a link to a Kundalini support group.

https://www.brentspirit.com/afterdark

[Davino]

13 hours ago, theleelajoker said:

You say she can help particularly re Sex. I have ideas why you say that, but can you clarify pls?

Mostly sex is orgasm oriented or pleasure oriented. Shift that to energy exploration, don't over explain this to her just lead her into the experience.

Okay so as a man when you're fucking you feel that there are some positions and moments where energy feels to be flowing more than in others. It's just intuitive. Normally it's the man which is opening and penetrating the woman, ever more, like a rose blossoming. This time you could try something different. 

Start as always, get into the zone, open her, make her feel very nice, premassage, etc. , start with penetration and when you feel you're in control (sometimes in the beginning it feels like you may come soon but there's a tipping point when you get into the state and feel more in control) when that happens tell her to lead more and to feel you. She can be more active and you more passive. It's better to work in a 5 intensity, enough to feel good but not to get over excited. In this cases we search for long duration sex. When you feel like turning the tables go ahead and be more active for a while and explore her even deeper with your energy, feel like she's a Rubik's cube that you have to energetically crack open. Finally calm yourself and get into this position, it's important to be comfortable and open in it, not necessary to be in padmasana just be like you feel in that moment.

Tell her to move and to work your d*ck, work it baby, work it. I like to say you're sitting in your throne, whatever you feel like. Okay now this is important, when you feel like you're gonna come, tell her that you're close, when the wave of energy tells you to move in momentum join her in this work. When you're gonna explote, feel like you are shooting your energy from all inside you into her throughout her spine to her head, shoot!!!, convulse, moan, really lose yourself absolutely in that moment, with practice you will shoot through her so intensely that it will breakthrough her head and fill all the room like a blissful rain.

This is one method to move energy through your body and her body and finally release it. She will purify and take some of it to stabilise your system, like a magnetic pole. This is like a blueprint, kundalini will guide you through the experience, do what feels right in the moment.

 

Edited Wednesday at 12:04 PM by Davino

[theleelajoker]

@Davino Thx for clarification. You do the throne thing, I tell I'm her stallion and she can ride it any way she wants   (she was doing a lot of horse riding when she was younger)

And it's quite interesting, I think subconsiuosly we kind of have been exploring and doing this kind of stuff you describe. For me, it's finding a vibe, rhytm, position where the woman is literally opening up and fully inviting, welcoming you. I can feel it in her moaning, her breath, her (decrasing) body tension and of course I can feel it around my dick. The whole energy exploraton thing works best when be both smoked some weed I think we tend to be less in our head more in our body then. 

Re the energy exchange, I was sometimes thinking that it's a healthy way to express some of my male agression/activity in a gentle and controlled way while the woman literally receives the kinetic energy of the penetration and finally the male orgasm.

@Schizophonia:  Nothing cringe for me at all

[Davino]

57 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Aren't you afraid of being cringe?

Sorry if the question is a bit strange, it's probably just part of me still being a bit neurotic about the subject.

Yes, def that possibility was in the back of my mind. I just wanted to be free from taboos and answer his question directly.

Sex is divine and it has important energetic and spiritual implications.

[Davino]

@theleelajoker Yes, horse riding is the best. She has to connect with your energy, your kundalini, and then it will flow through her, get expressed and released. I think this part you have it good. So keep working on it while bringing more consciousness and energy to the orgasm (it has to be wild). Transmit your kundalini to her, literally empty yourself out.

This is good as long as you have an escess of kundalini energy, when you drop back to normal energy it's better not to abuse the shooting energy because some males report lack of life-power afterwards. Which in a way makes sense as the energy has left. So it's all about balance at the end. 

Another thing that can work is to absorb her orgasms, in the same way she absorbs yours, when she peaks, you should suck it in energetically speaking, that will sooth your energy as well. So you kinda have to share the energies with each other and it will balance itself out.

 

[inFlow]

On 5/12/2025 at 11:47 PM, theleelajoker said:

Kundalini is seeing as female energy

It's like a mother that takes your hand and takes you to God (father)

On 5/12/2025 at 11:47 PM, theleelajoker said:

similiar to kundalini images.

Kundalini surges through one of two nadis, Ida or Pingala, google it and see they are in a coiled form, thus it feels like a "snake" going up through the spine.

On 5/12/2025 at 11:47 PM, theleelajoker said:

• Anyone willing to share his/her experiences?

It's all the same for everyone, emotional imbalance, surges of tears and laugh, random chakra vibrations etc. Just keep doing what you are doing. My suggestion would be to do a pranayama practice to build up pranic capacity. You will not contain this energy if your body/system is weak. Kundalini is very very powerful. It probably wont wake up at full force, but it's hell'a better to be prepared. I joined a group of spiritual folks that come in every few weeks, we talk and do group meditations, and I noticed that new people who come cannot stay still in our group, their body shakes and moves because they aren't strong enough to stay with that strong field of energy that we carry there.

On 5/12/2025 at 11:47 PM, theleelajoker said:

One random time I almost had to throw up in the shower because the inner cleansing process got so intense.

I've had similar experiences. This is just energy purging blocks out when chakras are opening up more. Don't attach yourself to these things, it just comes and goes.

On 5/12/2025 at 11:47 PM, theleelajoker said:

Maybe this is what Yoga (unity) is about? Aligment and unity between the primordial energy and our character?

There is no character. Eventually you will feel way more lighter in weight and way more hollow inside, like there is more and more hollow space inside the body. The more you let go of the ego (it just lets itself go through meditation) the more "death" you will endure and eventually you will see that "ego death" is a slow process, things just die off and that's it, your ego will still be there to an extent, but it will be so little that you will no longer have resistance towards anything at life, even your partner, you will understand that everything bad that she does is only because of you  and the capacity of Love towards anything will be higher and higher. You will radiate calmness and people will notice it, they might not understand it, but they will feel it.

Also notice when you go back to the ego how heavy life becomes. This signals you are not going the right way.

I Love your whole post. Keep at it and become the light that this world needs. Thank you ♥♥♥

[theleelajoker]

@Davino OK, thx

@inFlow Thx as well. Helps. 

Really hard right now to find any balance, to make conscious choices and stay the course. Imagine a fly buzzing around - sitting for a moment, getting up again, going in cirlces, landing again just to get up again. Will follow the advice of Davino and go outside to ground myself.

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There is no character. Eventually you will feel way more lighter in weight and way more hollow inside, like there is more and more hollow space inside the body. The more you let go of the ego (it just lets itself go through meditation) the more "death" you will endure and eventually you will see that "ego death" is a slow process, things just die off and that's it, your ego will still be there to an extent, but it will be so little that you will no longer have resistance towards anything at life, even your partner, you will understand that everything bad that she does is only because of you  and the capacity of Love towards anything will be higher and higher. You will radiate calmness and people will notice it, they might not understand it, but they will feel it.

Yes, I can already see that. There is at first resistance, but I can see how she's a reflection of my inner world and simply doing exactly what is the right thing to do. Like everybody else. And I notice that people act different around me. E.g. that I get more, or at least different attention from other women lol

Edited Wednesday at 02:36 PM by theleelajoker

[Sugarcoat]

18 hours ago, theleelajoker said:

Thx for sharing. The tension release I feel too, it's really great. And I can feel the correlation between psyche,body,  tensions and letting go. It's all one big puzzle.

There are many ways to meditate. Watching breath or just sitting, doing nothing I can really feel how energies start to move. Body scan is currently a bit much but was highly effective during retreat. But everybody is different.

My first two retreats had some boring phases. But during the last one so much came up, so much happening that boring is the last word I would use to describe it 😅 

Agreed. Cool that meditation is working for you. Great that you managed to have cool experiences during the retreat

[Hojo]

@theleelajoker you are not paying attention to the woman when you are doing this. Its not making love look at their eyes the man isn't looking at the woman. It literally has nothing to do with a woman if there were no women they would do it with themselves.

Edited Wednesday at 10:44 PM by Hojo

[theleelajoker]

9 hours ago, Hojo said:

@theleelajoker you are not paying attention to the woman when you are doing this. Its not making love look at their eyes the man isn't looking at the woman. It literally has nothing to do with a woman if there were no women they would do it with themselves.

Sry, I can't follow. Lost the context. Curios to understand your points, though. 

• I am not paying attention when I am doing what?
• What is not making love?
• Women would do what with themselves?

Thanks !

 

[Hojo]

@theleelajoker They use the woman to keep their penis hard. Tantric sex is not making love with a woman its making love with yourself.

You are not paying attention to the woman.

Edited yesterday at 02:13 PM by Hojo

[theleelajoker]

Thanks for clarification. In a strange way, this makes complete sense : )

Edited yesterday at 02:53 PM by theleelajoker