Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

So smooth, so casual, so flawless.

Pure fucking magic. 

[ivankiss]

One thing is for sure. This much passion and fire combined, is no joke. It's serious business.

I act like I don't give a fuck, but secretly I have a thing for tarot, and yes, of course both of us are leos. 

Our birthdays are 6 days apart. She's more or less exactly 8 years younger than me. Jackpot! 

 

[ivankiss]

Today I saw her in nothing but her underwear and I nearly went blind. That's how ridiculously perfect her body is. 

Yup. Hottest one yet. For sure. 

[ivankiss]

Communication is great too. We agree on honesty and truth. We laugh a lot and we work great together in the kitchen. I like how we move through the city. We spent a lot of time together and it feels natural and easy. 

Yeah... This is is special. This is big. 

[ivankiss]

I am literally one step away from unlocking pure fucking unlimited abundance, and I deserve it all. 

Could it be... That I already got the girl of my dreams as well..? Is this real? Is this the ultimate reward? The ultimate blessing? 

Oh please let it be so. Let this be it, finally. 

[ivankiss]

Of course Iam terrified because she has cancer. I don't know if I'm equipped for something like that. But from what I understood, she should be fine for the next 10 or 20 years, so that eases my troublesome mind a bit.

And of course I still feel my ex pulling on my heart string. She expects us to talk on the phone, at some point. And she hopes to come visit me in the future. And that's of course not possible, if I get serious with this girl. But I would let my ex know somehow. I would not just disappear. Not after everything that has happened. 

I don't stay friends with my exes and there's a very good reason for that. And the fact that I'm still kind of holding on to this last one, is a clear sign that the door is still somewhat open. I must close it for good, no matter how painful it might be. 

Life is obviously taking me some place new. 

[ivankiss]

Oh. My. God. 

Sex. 

Finally. 

It was... Otherworldly. She is just magical. Breath taking. And almost too fucking tight. She was shivering from start to finish. 

Just insanely good. 

[ivankiss]

It's just way too good so far. Way too perfect. We're both lowkey expecting shit to go sideways. And that might just be why it won't happen.

Neither one of us wants to screw this up. 

[ivankiss]

She's a perfect blend of hardcore and badass, and gentle, loving and kind. Just like me. Definitely some epic mirroring going on there. 

I'm falling asleep next to her naked body, and it's just mind blowing. Unbelievable. 

[ivankiss]

This morning she made breakfast and prepared me a lunchbox. 

Bro... 

[Zigzag Idiot]

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[ivankiss]

@Zigzag Idiot ♥️

[ivankiss]

Infinite gratitude. 

I honestly could not ask for more. I did not fucking see this coming haha! It's so good!

Divine timing, divine orchestration! Synchronicity on steroids!

[ivankiss]

I thought I'd have to go search for her, but she found me first. 

[ivankiss]

She knows God, very well. She's close to God. I can tell. I see purity and innocence in her eyes. And that's beautiful. 

She's real and has a big heart. It's just a matter of time when she becomes fully enlightened, and more. It will happen if she's around me, for sure. 

She gave me a room, I will give her a home. Safety. Some much needed peace, love, nurture and care. Fun, excitement, magic. And a lot of crazy good sex. 

[ivankiss]

She doesn't wanna mess around. She's looking to settle. She's very family oriented. And she wants to commit. Build. Create. Explore. Expand. 

One green flag after another. 

[ivankiss]

There are two ways in which this can go down now. 

A) I nail everything down that I have in mind during this summer, and we go some place nice and warm before winter comes. 

B) Things take a bit longer than I thought, we rent a nicer, bigger apartment here in Amsterdam, and we stay for another year, working towards our goals. 

 

[ivankiss]

The vibe only has to stay at least this good, fow this plan to work. But I have a feeling it will only get better. 

Sure, it might backfire also, but I'd be sensing danger by now already, and I'm not, really. 

It feels easy and safe. It's fun and very hot. 

[ivankiss]

Loves children, wants to be a mom soon. I think I'm slowly becoming ready for it too. I could see myself becoming a dad, within the next 3 years or so. 

But first, career. 

[ivankiss]

If I was hyper delusional, which I am most definitely not, I would say that she's hyper feminine, and I'm hyper masculine. 

It's a breath of fresh air. After a series of perplexed feminists, it's nice to date a girl that wants and likes to be a girl.