Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

Giving off strong get the fuck away from me vibes. And it's working. 

Awesome. 

[ivankiss]

Oh no. This morning I met a very cute 22yr old blondie and we clicked instantly. 

Here comes hell. 

[ivankiss]

Jk I won't lose control because of some chick again. Promise. 

[ivankiss]

She asked for my number and casually invited me to her place. She also texted first. 

I had no other choice. Soft closed a date for Saturday night. 

[ivankiss]

I'm clearly still too sad though. 

[ivankiss]

You fucked me up more than I care to admit. 

[ivankiss]

So... I'm in her apartment, cooking her dinner... 

What?! 

The fuck just happened! 

[ivankiss]

If it's too good to be true, there's probably a catch, but hopefully not. 

I'm spending the night at her place. Possibly the entire weekend. 

She knows I'm looking for a place and wants to help. She also very clearly wants to bang me, but is holding back, and I respect that. I kinda love it actually. We could have easily had sex today. But we didn't, because she's smart. The attraction is undeniable and I cannot remember laughing this hard in a long time. Of course I'm careful and cautious, but I'm also very curious to see where this goes. I'm also super curious to see how she looks naked. 

 

Edited June 6 by ivankiss

[ivankiss]

Jk already know she's smoking hot. 

[ivankiss]

What are you up to... God? Is this another test that I will take way too fucking long to pass? Or is this really just a pure fucking blessing? 

I can't comprehend just yet. 

[ivankiss]

Here's a thought to fall asleep to... 

She's 22, blond, petite, blue eyes, absolutely beautiful... and she has cancer. She refuses treatment and she knows she's dying. I did not dare to ask how long she has. 

Ok, good night. 

[ivankiss]

She opened up quite a bit today, and my heart is breaking for her, but then she moves in a certain way, or touches me or something, and I instantly start getting hard. 

It's a weird spot to be in. 

 

Edited June 7 by ivankiss

[ivankiss]

Yup, she's still here, it wasn't a dream. 

Slept 3hrs, woke up to her playing with my hair. 

[ivankiss]

And I got a room. Just like that. 

Yes, it's in the same apartment that she lives in. Yes, it's ridiculously cheap. 

Epic fucking win. 

[ivankiss]

Fastest moving train in the universe. 

[ivankiss]

Projector. 

Because movie night. 

[ivankiss]

Cuddles, movies, medium rare steak and mashed potatoes. Still no sex. My dick is hard pretty much all the time, and she knows it. 

Fuck. I love it and I hate it that she's holding back. 

[ivankiss]

We did kiss though, and it was beautiful. 

[ivankiss]

Wow... Just wow...

[ivankiss]

This is working so fucking well it's scary. Oh please don't let this be another trap. 

I mean, yeah, obviously, she's a bit crazy, but she's waaaay hotter than she's crazy. And also, I'm kind of crazy too. So that's not that big of a deal, as long as we're not turning against each other. 

So far, there seems to be a lot of mutual respect. No one is crossing any boundaries, in any way. Everything is just nice. It's just working.