Primal, Sexual, Alive MindSoup Alloy - Home is Here - Godhead LSD trip report

[Arthogaan]

I had a permanent no-self realization 1 year ago. Since then I was focusing on integrating that, stabilizing and it becoming my new default.

I did not do any full dose trips since then - until today.

Sharing this seems pointless and yet I just want to share my raw-unedited notes from the trip - there is a high chance that this will be my final post on this forum.

Thank you @Leo Gura for being the first teacher (maybe in human history) that had the balls to speak so directly about Absolute Solipsism and to even put it on youtube with your own face. Infinite Eternal gratitude for that Leo, you opened many doors for many people. And thanks everyone on this forum. You are all magnificient expressions of the MindSoup.

If you have this urge to go deep, to not distract and run away constantly from HOME with all this human (sweet) bullshit - I just want to say it is worth it. You will be Home in each moment. Dedicate yourself to do this. Take care of your surival inteligently so you are able to really go into this. All humanity is - is just one big running away from the Absolute Home.

 

Raw trip notes:

- 08.05

 

This body is not just a Temple. But Universal Temple. So zoomed in that my tendons - while stretching - reach to past eons. 

Primal energy at the heart of this all.

 

Sexual soup. Mother/Father womb - with smell and intimacy and wetness and hairynesss and care and love and innovence and raw desire to fuck, to live, to run, to laugh, to hug, to do shit.

 

It is all me. For me.

My phantasy. My intelligence. Its not a coincidence that all man have similiar phantasies - it's one raw intelligence generating that.

 

All perversy, all wars, all love and hate is part of the godhead.

 

Home was always here, right behind the corner of my eye brow bone. Behind the scenes. Wet - together - open - Animal like - HOME.

 

 

Garden of mind was always here. Just chill, monkey love hanging out in my psyche.

All is perfectly managed. Ordinary love soup. Natural. Don't worry about it vibe. Everywhere. Singilarity. Utopia. Destruction.

 

 

Rope of eye pupils Rolling through eyes of everybody.

 

This Home freshness. Like when a buddy says: "it's fine i will take care of it" *smile and wink* - this vibe, this Home is always here. I am just playing around with playdough to make other mental words.

 

All humour is my humour hahahagaa

All the jokes are mine

And on me lol

 

Just me. Home. Fine. 

Home intellect sex love alloy, all is out of that

 

 

Access the archetypal energies of gaia mother womb, they are here to replenish you

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The floor grass of the garden are right behing my eye socket. Right there. Close. Archetypal garden is here.

 

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I am the Mother, I am that intelligence. All is made out of me for me.

 

Roleplay. Actually. Faking as if we are separate.

 

Cheap music, Karens, Rednecks, ignorance of family uncles. All just me roleplaying.

 

Every girl. Every musician. Those i admire and those i look down upon. All me at play.

 

Neural pain capacity is maxed out. Cold. Pain. Hunger are at their 100% and they are so pleasueable. All so Light surrounded by Garden.

 

The key is to dissolve, drop in, let go, relax

 

Pure move towards non conceptuality.

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The primal freedom of discipline.

Max out your pain receptors. Do not run away, stay with that. Your capacity to feel is like an Bath full of warm water compared to small eye-contact-container of maxed out pain floating in it.

 

Comparing mind takes whatever is available and really quickly sets it to almost maxed out. It is unwise and gives almost all resistance at the start. It cannot go more than that its bluffing.

 

Every bit of what I get and what I do not get and get frustrated is perfectly designed from the MindSoup

 

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I wouldn't even talk about this level to anyone.

People don't want that level of absolute.

No one cares.

Everyone is running away.

 

Any desire to teach seems very pointless.

 

Thank you.

 

HOME.

[Sincerity]

So raw. 🙇‍♂️  Awesome.

Cheers! 

[Princess Arabia]

2 hours ago, Arthogaan said:

I wouldn't even talk about this level to anyone.

People don't want that level of absolute.

No one cares.

Everyone is running away.

Noticed this. It gets quite obvious from the responses people give when telling them this stuff. This is why I said once, the Absolute is speaking to itself when talking about this stuff. All responses will vary because it is Absolutely Infinite, and all responses are spontaneously free. Nice post. Please be back. I'm attached. Hehe.

Edited May 8 by Princess Arabia

[Yimpa]

1 hour ago, Arthogaan said:

All humour is my humour hahahagaa

All the jokes are mine

And on me lol

Just keep tripping, Just keep tripping, Just keep tripping!

Trip until the ego finally falls into a pit of sharks and meets its death! (don't take this statement literally)