Why is Sexuality so Weird?

[Nemra]

4 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

The rarity of the sex feeling is what makes it such an effective carrot for survival.

@Leo Gura, so, what to do about it?

[Leo Gura]

48 minutes ago, Nemra said:

@Leo Gura, so, what to do about it?

Have sex rarely and enjoy your life.

[Schizophonia]

1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

Have sex rarely and enjoy your life.

Humans are supposed to have a high libido and regularly have sex.

If they are healthy.

[Schizophonia]

@Emerald @Nemra

I deleted my post it wasn't precise/good quality enought, i have to reflect on the question more. 

What i can already say is that the more stressed i am, the more perceived responsibility I have, the more the idea of being dominated is disgusting, and I want to be masculine/dominant.
Not just sexually, but in everyday life btw.

 

At the opposite the more bored/purposeless i am(I also noticed a correlation with rumination), the more i can feel attracted to submission (typically a more masculine, enterprising, snuff maker women who wants to stick a finger in my ass lol, masturbate me with a serious expression with the idea of "taking care of me" or stuff like that)

I know a North African on my Discord who has strange masochistic fantasies without going into details; he takes drugs and is lost. Most people who engage in these kinds of fantasies seem fragile and lost, so I'm not sure where this responsibility thing comes from.

 

It's something like, the more you refuse to feel the "void" in yourself (which is actually also a full, full of yourself) and engage in defense mechanisms to avoid it (consumption basically), the more you will have recourse to submission to feel excitement.

And on the opposite the more you accept the "void" and take responsability of it, the more submission seems awful (the last thing you want when you have a knot in your stomach and feels the weight of existance is to be fucked lol) and you want dominate, you identify with the phallus.

 

When i talk about a "void" it's the depressing perception of the self through "lack", this is what normally makes you move and behave more masculinely; but self can more or less feels "full" to.

Antidepressants and psychedelics, even opiates, different drugs in general gives you a feeling of "fullness".

"Void" and fullness are about the same thing, feeling the self (as a libidinal structure) rather than get rid of it by projecting it.

Stimulants, even if they increases testosterone, increases the "void"; cocaine for exemple has the reputation to eventually turn people gay/masochistic because these people unconsciously can't stand the weight of it and protects themselves by investing libidinally in the "big other". And if they accept the void, they turn dominant or even sadistic.

 

I will do a topic one of these days about that i mean by projecting/disconnecting with the self and the consequences in the behaviour including sexual behaviour.

It requires a lot of contemplation.

Edited May 26 by Schizophonia

[Nemra]

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

What i can already say is that the more stressed i am, the more perceived responsibility I have, the more the idea of being dominated is disgusting, and I want to be masculine/dominant.

That is not the case for me.

No matter how much responsibilities I have, it does not get disgusting. But responsibilities make it more difficult to be the opposite.

When I get sick, both of them get disgusting.

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

At the opposite the more bored/purposeless i am(I also noticed a correlation with rumination), the more i can feel attracted to submission (typically a more masculine, enterprising, snuff maker women who wants to stick a finger in my ass lol, masturbate me with a serious expression with the idea of "taking care of me" or stuff like that)

Boredom or purposelessness does not make me like that.

I feel excited about the idea of being a part of someone's plan, so to speak, who is more stable and decisive. It's like the feeling you get when you see something fit nicely into another thing. I don't know how else to describe it. But I also understand its price.

I generally want to be empathetic and sensitive to others even if they would abuse or gaslight me. I cannot help myself from having those feelings. However, over the years I have learned to be somewhat stoic and defend myself, regardless of what I feel. It's been hard, to be honest.

Edited May 26 by Nemra

[z3rolight]

Sexuality is experienced and expressed through thoughts, fantasies, desires, beliefs, attitudes, values, behaviors, practices, roles and relationships. Although sexuality can encompass all these dimensions, not all of them are experienced or expressed. If you give importance to them.. they will dominate you and you will never feel happiness. You will always feel that something is missing!. Sex is not love. When do you love?. It does not even require a lot of touching. It can even become telepathic.

[Nemra]

On 5/26/2025 at 7:20 PM, z3rolight said:

If you give importance to them.. they will dominate you and you will never feel happiness.

Well, that's another topic.

I've been trying to understand myself because my sexuality hasn't been clear to me.

Imagine not finding most people attractive—not because they don't look good, but because they simply aren't attractive to you. Beyond that, you then start to understand that only a few specific combinations of physical attributes and psychological behaviors are actually attractive to you—combinations that appear in both males and females and would complement your sexual and gender identity and expression, as well as your autogynephilic tendencies.

[Schizophonia]

On 26/05/2025 at 0:43 PM, Nemra said:

That is not the case for me.

No matter how much responsibilities I have, it does not get disgusting. But responsibilities make it more difficult to be the opposite.

When I get sick, both of them get disgusting.

Boredom or purposelessness does not make me like that.

I feel excited about the idea of being a part of someone's plan, so to speak, who is more stable and decisive. It's like the feeling you get when you see something fit nicely into another thing. I don't know how else to describe it. But I also understand its price.

I generally want to be empathetic and sensitive to others even if they would abuse or gaslight me. I cannot help myself from having those feelings. However, over the years I have learned to be somewhat stoic and defend myself, regardless of what I feel. It's been hard, to be honest.

It's more profound than notions of responsabilities, boredom etc.

I must find an another etymology. 

But globaly what i said is true.

[Schizophonia]

1 hour ago, Nemra said:

Well, that's another topic.

I've been trying to understand myself because my sexuality hasn't been clear to me.

Imagine not finding most people attractive—not because they don't look good, but because they simply aren't attractive to you. Beyond that, you then start to understand that only a few specific combinations of physical attributes and psychological behaviors are actually attractive to you—combinations that appear in both males and females and would complement your sexual and gender identity and expression, as well as your autogynephilic tendencies.

I would say that around 60% of girls are potentially sexually attractive to me, and 20% are potentially romantically attractive to me.

[Nemra]

6 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

But globaly what i said is true.

That was more about you.

[Nemra]

1 minute ago, Schizophonia said:

I would say that around 60% of girls are potentially sexually attractive to me, and 20% are potentially romantically attractive to me.

I'm more into platypuses. 😂

[Nemra]

1 hour ago, Nemra said:

I'm more into platypuses. 😂

I'm a platypus too—I'm what you get when nature has a midlife crisis and decides to become an abstract artist. 🤣

[Schizophonia]

3 minutes ago, Nemra said:

I'm a platypus too—I'm what you get when nature has a midlife crisis and decides to become an abstract artist. 🤣

It's a funny animal.

[Nemra]

@Schizophonia, disagreements aside, but damn, that's quite a face you've got there. 😂😵‍💫

[Schizophonia]

10 hours ago, Nemra said:

@Schizophonia, disagreements aside, but damn, that's quite a face you've got there. 😂😵‍💫

Thanks my platypus.

 

Don't hesitate to fap on my pp, extra etheric energy for my ascent 👺.

[Breakingthewall]

On 26/5/2025 at 4:41 AM, Leo Gura said:

That's a foolish thing to do. Like eating caviar for breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day. It loses all meaning.

 Tell that to someone in the gay community who goes to the sauna every afternoon to have sex. They don't seem to get bored of it quickly.

[Nemra]

On 5/30/2025 at 0:38 PM, Schizophonia said:

Don't hesitate to fap on my pp, extra etheric energy for my ascent 👺.

That's not enough. Lol.

Anyway.