Schizophonia’s Journal

[Schizophonia]

15 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

@Schizophonia this is better music: 

 

Nice titties 😏

 

More seriously good music for dancing.

[RendHeaven]

47 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

titties

👺

[Schizophonia]

10 minutes ago, RendHeaven said:

👺

On the other hand, she strangely spends a lot of time with this horse in the clip. 🤔

 

Ok i stop

[Sugarcoat]

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

Nice titties 😏

 

More seriously good music for dancing.

I’m no better than a man, they are nice indeed. She’s stunning

[Schizophonia]

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

I’m no better than a man

Will let a little pm 

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, they are nice indeed. She’s stunning

Yea she is gorgeous

Edited July 11, 2025 by Schizophonia

[Sugarcoat]

58 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Will let a little pm 

What do you mean

[Schizophonia]

55 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

What do you mean

Can’t say here

[Schizophonia]

French National Day in Sarlat-la-Canéda 😎

 

 

[Schizophonia]

[Schizophonia]

Yesterday i smoked two cigarretes and fap several times. 

Then i felt particularly weak and felt the urge to go very early to my bed.

I wasn't be able to sleep almost all the night, had serious intestinal inconforts, nausea, wanted to vomit several times, and back pain which is correlated to gut issues, i had fever too so it was probably a little food intoxication but i felt cigarettes and fapping weaken me and had perhaps potentiated my disease.

It really shot a bullet next to my head; if i don't take care enough of me soon maybe i will developp a cancer or something like that and and find myself in a such state maybe everyday. 

Once you lose your health it's all your life who is stolen. 

[MarkKol]

On 15/06/2025 at 7:15 PM, MarkKol said:

Real French people live in Ile-de-France.

Not even Rhone-Alpes!!! WHERE DID BRO SPAWN?!

[Sugarcoat]

7 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Yesterday i smoked two cigarretes and fap several times. 

Sounds like successful day to me

Edit: I read the rest and take that back 😂

Edited July 17, 2025 by Sugarcoat

[Schizophonia]

35 minutes ago, MarkKol said:

Not even Rhone-Alpes!!!

Already more chadesque 😏

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WHERE DID BRO SPAWN?!

L'isle-adam so in Ile de france indeed eheh

 

Edited July 17, 2025 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

34 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Sounds like successful day to me

Edit: I read the rest and take that back 😂

God punished me for enjoying too much all these new photos and videos 👺

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Schizophonia said:

God punished me for enjoying too much all these new photos and videos 👺

I was gonna ask you what were you thinking when you did it but maybe I’m too much LOL

 

[Schizophonia]

7 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I was gonna ask you what were you thinking when you did it but maybe I’m too much LOL

 

👀

[Schizophonia]

I notice more and more correlations between my exterior world and my inner dialogs; i can contemplate non duality.

My mother typically is almost like a perfect replication of my inner dialogue about love/sexuality, my emotionnal world in general.

Edited July 17, 2025 by Schizophonia

[RendHeaven]

you got insta or yt?

[Schizophonia]

10 hours ago, RendHeaven said:

you got insta or yt?

I can send my insta 

[Schizophonia]

My sleep has been poor this month, because I was too stressed or whatever, and that kick-started the process even though I no longer have sleepless nights, but these days have been better, even much better, by applying Neville Goddard's advice.
No worries about sleep hygiene or medication; here, we're working on a more holistic scale and eliminating insomnia by removing the very idea of ever having been insomniac, and it works! It even works very quickly.
Of course, there's no need to resort to Neville's mystical paradigm; a skeptic who prefers to stick to a down-to-earth, meta-logical paradigm could talk about neuro-linguistic programming or whatever.
Of course, it's much harder to say than to do; the ego has taken to complaining about being insomniac (in this case). The ego is the supreme capitalist who wants to continue using a damaged and dangerous but still profitable nuclear power plant and, if possible, reuse the nuclear waste, not for environmental reasons, lol, but for business; the ego doesn't want to have to throw all that away.
Of course, the ego is also the one who wants change, but mine has a particularly strong conservative bias.

 

At the same time I'm going nofap again; I don't see the point of simply ejaculating without at least one loving partner, it's a significant waste of energy for a stupid little orgasm lasting a few seconds, even smoking is more profitable.

This morning I almost broke down after just one day, lol, looking at pornographic images, but in the end I stuck it out.
I must be lonely or something, I'm missing things and I'm avoiding the pain by numbing myself with orgasms.