The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

The me is always trying to negotiate with its reality. If I do this, can you do this for ME. If I'm this way, can you show up that way. Always looking for a reward system. Reward ME please. 

I will have a better experience if I contemplate on why this and that is happening to ME and tell myself ways on how to handle what's showing up. I'll have one up on things. I'm the master of my own world; and since I have free will and choice, I can navigate my way around what is and create another what is that suits ME.

It didn't have a choice on whether that girl cheated on it in the first place, but it has a choice to tell itself that life goes on and it doesn't matter because there's more and better fish in the sea. It only has free will to do but not what happens to it. What happens, happens, but u have the authority to not make it happen again if I negotiate my way through this. Yea, I'm the man. Three weeks later, "anyone has any advice on how to so and so...?" Now I'll look to other negotiators to see if they can help with the negotiation process. Better tell it something that fits and suits it's negotiation style or it will just ignore what you have to say or come up with a million reasons why it won't work.

 

[Princess Arabia]

We say reality is unlimited and we are limited beings, yet we look to limit reality by trying to awaken or get enlightened. That suggests a center. Where is the center in what's unlimited. Where is the position. If I'm awake in the sense of awakening spiritually, then reality is unlimited because there is a point of focus and reference to awaken from. There is no time nor space and it's boundless. That awakened being needs to be at a point, bounded in time and continuity. If the absolute is everything, who is being awakened and to what if its not just a dream.

[Princess Arabia]

Anything can appear. Anything. 

[Princess Arabia]

What remains......gosh, if I hear that phrase one more time. Nothing remains from anything dying. Nothing remains from losing a self that isn't there in the first place. Nothing remains in wholeness. Nothing remains after one seems to extract and turned the absolute into bits and pieces to suit them. That's all within the dream. Nothing remains when the dream is no longer. What remains is all that was there to begin with...NOTHING. 

What does that mean? Nothing is everything and everything is Nothing. Therefore Nothing is appearing to happen. Therefore, Nothing is happening. Therefore this is deep sleep. Therefore you are awake. Therefore awakening is the illusion. Therefore, when you're in deep sleep, that's your true awakening. Therefore no one can awaken to anything but themselves. Therefore awakening to anything is just awakening the self; and since there is no self that can awaken to itself because that's an oxymoron, no one awakens because the person is awake itself. Lost yet...hehe.

[Princess Arabia]

This is why it feels like there's someone in the body.

[Princess Arabia]

Another delusional teaching is the act of acceptance. Accept it, feel into it, let it be there, allow it to flow through you. Duh. How can one accept or not accept what already is. It's already there. One can seem to resist it but that's already happening just from even attempting to do anything  about what is happening.

The very act of acceptance is resistance to what is. It's all about resisting what is, even if one tries to be still for a purpose or a result. Nothing wrong with silence just for silence's sake. Nothing wrong with anything, even resistance since that's just what is resisting itself. 

Point of all this is to expose that nothing is needed to get to what is already. Infact, it cannot be arrived at since it's everything.

Edited September 25 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The very notion of "doing the work", is what seems to keep the individual trapped in its own institutional demise. Then it says, "isn't spiritual work hard". Yeah, but keep going man, you'll get there. It's the same energy thats trying to rid itself from itself or get closer to itself. 

There is no next. What is is all there is. Cannot practice and process your way into what is. Show me what isn't. Show me something that's not there. How can there be work to do to get to what is.

Edited September 25 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

There is no you to be a what. What am I? That's why you make up being the invisible awareness and the profound consciousness. 

I'm not you and you are not me. That's like saying the apple is the orange and the orange is the apple and they are one. What about the pear. OK, so everything is everything and everything is one? No.There are no separate things to be one.

Think of just one thing.(this is an analogy, an example)..think of a pencil, the pencil is all there is. Dont look at the lead and the eraser, just see a pencil. That's all there is. Where is the other to be the pencil and the pencil to be the other that makes them one if the pencil is all there is. There is not a pencil (the Absolute) and something else for the pencil to unite with to become one. 'You and I are one' is false. 'We are one with' is false.

These statements are brushed over and  lala di la da and challenged or woo wooed but total understanding of this will make that energy shit it's pants. All doesn't matter as it's all not separate anyway, but the illusion and dream feels so real. Doesn't matter what anyone says. It's this talking to itself. 

[Princess Arabia]

I don't touch this subject much because it's so sensitive and i have to be careful not to hit some nerves but as far as suicidal thoughts, they're just thoughts like every other thought. I will guarantee you that every single human on the face of the earth will have suicidal thoughts in their lifetime. Guaranteed. Some may have them more frequently, some may be more intense, all depends just as how other thoughts are. You may be walking down the road and a crazy thought appear of strangling the woman walking by, or kissing that cute girl up the street or eating a banana or about your mother or a student in math class, or a red car, or a forest fire, or how broke you are, or your brother, or a video game, or about watching porn, or the government......or suicide. Walking down the street again tomorrow or making breakfast....same thing, thoughts about everything under the sun then one on suicide. The next hr more thoughts(mind you, thoughts are always arising your entire life for years on end), a thought about tap water, about concrete, about the old lady next door, about sushi.....bing, about suicide. Why not. Everything else under the sun, why not that. Do we pay attention to all the 60, 000 thoughts we have a day; does every thought require your attention, no but suicidal ones do and are taken seriously than about the spider in the attic. Now we are suicidal. Imo leave this here.

[Princess Arabia]

What is everybody seeking? Nothing. It is the seeking energy itself being itself. When there's a longing for something or to seek, when something says I won't seek anymore that's not a person doing that that's the seeking energy that cannot not be itself. 

[Princess Arabia]

How can anything satisfy nothing. 

[Princess Arabia]

The body usually feels rested after sleep from it not being under the illusion of an illusory being in control of it. That's why that's the best time it uses to repair itself. It's like yes, that annoying, neurotic, narcissistic, arrogant energy that feels like it's running the show isn't there now so i can now do my job in peace. Upon waking up it gets confused again and restless. So restless, anxiety and panic attacks may arise. We take all these things for granted as just life but energy can seem to respond to itself; and even though there's no one behind all this doing this it's all energetic and can still be felt by that sense of separateness.

[Princess Arabia]

There is no God that is watching you as itself. No God that forgot itself, no God that pretends to be human, none of that is real, they're just ideas and stories. No God created anything, scheming anything, figuring anything out, waiting to wake up to itself, waiting to be realized or recognized, all that is stories and ideas. No God that that is being you or me, no God that knows itself or is all knowing. Now, if you want to call What Is, God, Nothing God, the Absolute God, Emptiness God and so on and so forth, fine and dandy, it's all energy anyway BEING. There is no space between anything and nothing that is close or far from anything else. It's immediate. Fire and wood turns to ash, that's immediate. Something like that. 

 

[Princess Arabia]

Presence is not all there is, absence is more like it. Everything you think you know spiritually, turn that shit around backwards and it's the opposite that's the case. All your Spiritual jargon is nonsense. Then you have the neurotics trying to be still and present searching for the absence of presence which is already the case. 

Edited September 26 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Human spiritualists are addicted to chasing States.

[Princess Arabia]

The most neurotic and delusional spiritualists are the ones that seem to appear to know what they're talking about the most and are very intelligent by nature. They can dissect and formulate and figure out and compose beautifully and present a masterpiece thesis to the unsuspected one who is impressed by such knowledge they feed them and the way it's skillfully crafted and delivered.

[Princess Arabia]

Everybody is just going on about their business searching for ways to have a better experience, find ways to make themselves happy, trying not to suffer, owns every goddamn emotion, my happiness, my suffering, my this and my that and everything else they're seeming go about doing but the one thing i don't see being asked is why. Why do I have to go through all this when I didn't ask to come here. Nobody cares about this. We are responsible for, we need to work hard to, we need to get the skills for, we need to learn this and that, we need to be this way and that way in order to get this or that or for that to come to us and blah blah but noone much is concerned with this most cruel thing that could ever happen to a human. Never asked to come here but we have to suffer and go through hell; some just more than others. I know why this isn't being talked about and addressed much as with a lot more questions like these, and that's why I'm sticking to my story. It's so obvious. 

[Princess Arabia]

Why isn't a spider trying to be happy or a whale? 

[Princess Arabia]

No, Mr Spira, you're delusional just like the other Spiritual gurus. Dream talking to the dream as the dream trying to help the dream find it's tail. Consciousness doesn't know itself, it is the dream of knowing itself.

[PurpleTree]

46 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

Why isn't a spider trying to be happy or a whale? 

Dolphins in captivity can get depressed i think.