The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

This is a fucking mess. It literally is. From my human perspective, this is literally a fucking mess. It's trying to figure itself out, it can't. It tries to know itself it can't. It tries to elude itself, it can't. to escape itself, it can't. To capture itself, it can't. Tries to get out of itself, it can't. To love itself, it can't. To personalize itself, it definitely cannot. It's spinning around chasing it's own tail. It cannot and doesn't go anywhere, but it tries. All the attempts are what seems to appear to itself but it doesn't realize that's an illusion and that it never went anywhere. It's like a person walking around town with a blindfold on. It's fucking lost and doesn't have a clue what it is - hence the "what am I question". You think that's some separate idiotic person that doesn't know what or who they are that's asking that question. No that's fucking this asking itself because it doesn't know and cannot know because it is itself and it's all there fucking is.

It's a fucking mess. It drives itself insane looking for itself. That's all it's doing for eternity, looking for it's fucking self. This fucking beautiful masterpiece thing called life is fucking looking for itself. It cannot kill the looking energy because it is the looking and seeking energy. It cannot die, even though it tries when it gets frustrated enough, but it can't; it's also the fucking rope and the gun and the bridge and the pill and whatever else it tries to use that it itself is. It's a fucking mess. This is what freedom is like. Literally what freedom is. It's so fucking free it's a literal mess. Freedom isn't all great as the foolish humans that it pretends to be believes.  It's a fucking mess. Look around you. You fucking can't even do that because it's all you. There's nothing but. It's a fucking hot mess. 

Edited Monday at 01:41 AM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Your pain is freedom. Your suffering is freedom. Your heartache is freedom. Your panic attack is freedom. All your so-called problems, challenges and issues that's freedom. That's all unconditional love. Murder is unconditional love murdering. It doesn't even know what that is. Us fake humans, which is also freedom being that, calls it murder but its energy playing with itself. It doesn't see murder it doesn't see at all. It's just being itself and to a human it seems like murder. Everything, every circumstance, every situation is freedom/nothing/wholeness/energy/god/allah/mohamed/shiva/brahman/the absolute/this/all there is/nothingness/emptiness/source/whatever the fuck it wants to call itself is it. How can this not feel like insanity. 

[Princess Arabia]

Truth is staring us in the face but we can't see it because it's all there is. We search for truth as truth. A million years from now they'll be someone in a corner somewhere looking through the bushes searching for itself. You wonder why there are so many mental illness around town. They aren't mental illness it's this. It's everything including schizophrenia and bi-polarism. It named itself fancy names but in reality it's a fucking lunatic disguised as sanity. It is the sense that tries to make sense of itself. It even gave that a name - sense making. It's a fucking lunatic in disguise. That's truth for ya. Beauty is literally insanity, mental disorders, imbalances, chaos, anarchy. That's beauty in disguise. Stupid humans is what only sees beauty in roses and rainbows. Go out in nature it says. Well the crackpot and the junkie on the street corner is also nature. That's everything. Nothing is exempt. We try to awaken from this hot mess in search for a better life. There is no life for everything. it's a hot mess. It suffers itself. It becomes Advil to ease it's own pain, Tylenol helps too. Look at the row of fetanyl users all passed the fuck out. That's truth. That's this easing it's pain. The pain of not knowing itself. That didn't cause the pain it's because it has no cause why it pains. There is no because but it pains there is no it, but it pains there is no effect but it pains there is no anything but it pains. There is no why but it pains. It doesn't feel pain but it's pain itself.

You wonder why you suffer. How can one not suffer when it tries to get away from this hot mess but cannot. It curses out those that reminds itself that it's whole and fucking complete. It doesn't like to hear there's no one because it tries to be someone to get away from it's hot mess of a self. How can it do that if it doesn't have free will and control. It will call out itself for telling itself all these inventions it itself becomes. It's a hot mess. It will see these writings and tell itself all sorts of things using thoughts, that's it too, it will use thoughts to combat itself, justify itself or disown itself. It will call me crazy for writing all this shit and goes into it's own cave and tries to tell itself other things that will just bring it back to it's own self of a hot mess. Can't escape. It tries, but it can't. Welcome to reality and life. 

Edited Monday at 02:19 AM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

This forum is a perfect example of going around in circles and never getting anywhere. Infinity. Do you see the forum getting anywhere. It just sits and sits and sits and collects dust. It wipes itself clean then collects more dust. It collects dust by starting new topics then collect the dust then wipes itself clean by starting a new topic. Collect more dust then repeat. It even instructs itself to move unto newer and cleaner dust when it tries to engage in old dust.

Everything in life represents infinity and the Absolute. I could tell infinite stories like the one i just told that would mimic infinity. It's all infinity and everything is an expression of that. Everything is Absolute. Very holograghic in nature every piece contains the whole. I could tell a story about an infinite orange and how we eat that sucker and digest that sucker and now we've become that sucker and the vitamin c turned into a cold fighting sucker and the fiber got you in the bathroom that got you shitting that got you late for work, that got you fired and now a new idea is born for a business and now ice cream has a new flavor called orange. I mean I could go on. The infinite orange story. Everything in life has an infinite story attached to it because it's infinite.

Edited Monday at 02:53 AM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

I realize my own non-existence. I realize other is only other because I'm here. I realize that I feel like a somebody. I realize it's the deepest feeling. It can't be unfelt. It's like a sense. The sense of taste cannot be unsensed, it has to fall away on it's own. I eat an apple. I taste the apple. How can I 'untaste' the apple. The sense of taste can go away where I cannot taste an apple anymore. Well, that's the same thing here. The sense of a separate person has to fall away for the person to realize it's own absence. Duh! Yes, I said that. See, can't happen. How can a person realize it's not there, literally. What can happen, though, is a sense can develop that says the person isn't there. Like an override of the previous sense. Like i sense I'm here but i can also sense I'm not here.

Makes sense? Nope. Well, that's the point, nothing really does. Nothing makes sense. Got that. Nothing really makes sense. NOTHING makes all the sense. It's paradoxical. Nothing makes (actually makes) sense for itself. 

[Princess Arabia]

I'm not going to argue with anyone about if I exist or not or even if they exist or not. Short conversations about the matter may happen but back and forth, back and forth, no. I'll come over here and talk about it, but long arguments no. To exist means to stand out and i don't stand out. Ok, forget the word semantics, I can exist as something but I never really say I don't exist, I say there's no one and that's different than saying I don't exist. There is no I to exist. It only exists to itself. The I exists in it's own world of existence. It's own reality. It depends on other, it depends on outside objects, it depends on it's own feeding system to sustain itself. It has no reality of it's own. I don't need a video or some guru to explain this.

Problem with forums like these, is people have their ideas of who they think you are and they are relating to you from their own dream existence. I could go on yt and start a channel with outstanding sounding videos without a face just a robotic voice and repeat things I've heard Rupert, Alan, Eckhart, Osho, Robert have said and sound like I know what's going on and say the exact same things I'm saying here and no one would question it. I know this because I.ve seen where Leo says somethings close to what I've said and no one challenges him. He'll say things like you're not human or if you think like a human you won't awaken or even in his old videos where he said we've never moved a day in our lives and that I'm no different than a coffee table or that existence is nothing. How can existence be nothing but there's someone in these bodies. I didn't understand these things then but I do now. I would get flack for saying those things and same words while that same person giving me flack would say to Leo, wow, that's wild it whatever else they'd say to agree or just blindly believe. A working girl on a forum, no chance, she doesn't know what she's saying. Sadhguru says it, it gets repeated and the video shared. I say it, it gets debunked or laughed at and I get called Ms Advaita. I notice these things. They add to the way I see things and what I observe and understand. It can't be you that realized these things, it must be some philosophy you've adapted. Then they'll say if there no one in that body how did you realize anything. Well, I didn't realization happened but there's  o one to understand that understanding us what happens. But who talks like this all the time.

 

 

 

  

 

[Princess Arabia]

Some people have no idea how to 'spot' the Absolute in every day life. I see it everyday. I notice the nothingness of existence. Shit just pops outta nowhere. The phone rings and an unexpected person is on the other end. That's nothing appearing as....everyone that calls is this appearing as but ilm saying I'll notice it more when there's a surprise call.

A sudden thunderstorm pops up, out of nowhere that's the Absolute appearing as. It's all the Absolute appearing as but I'm saying when I notice or recognize as it's happening. The same kind of thing like the brain's RAS system where it only notices things that are relevant to the storyline and how tons of things are happening around us all the time but we only pay attention to what's being focused on or relevant to us and block out things that aren't. Something like that. 

That old post by Raazard about Solipsism from I believe last year or the year before that's taking front stage again and is hot again right now, just became hot again out of nowhere. These kinds of things I mean that we take for granted and give cause and effect meaning to. There was no real cause and effect for why that old thread suddenly got back on the radar. That's this appearing as... and without meaning and purpose for why that thread became hot again. It's actually a brand new thread but seems to be the old one. Everything is brand new. Your house isn't the same house it's timelessly appearing to the observer as a new house.

When someone's habits just drastically changes, that's this appearing as.....Like I said, it's all this appearing as but i'm just pointing out a few for this post. When a plane goes by up above and disappears into nothing. A thread pops up out of nowhere. Somebody started a thread out of nothing. A thought pops up and disappears into nothing. You look into the distance till it starts getting blurry and you can't see pass a certain distance, there's nothing there. When my hand moves, that's energy, talking is vibrational. I mean, it's all around us but we wait to see flying saucers or take magic pills or sit in lotus positions before we can train ourselves to be in a certain desired state to see the Divine. It's everywhere. Psychedelic users will especially have it hard to see the Divine normally because it has seen extraordinary things through that scope and lens and, that high, there's no match for so everything seems dull and mundane without it. Its still sometimes dull and mundane to me too but I can see it in the dull and mundane, is what I'm saying. 

When you log into the forum and see user names, there's no one there, it's this appearing as user names.

 

Edited Monday at 11:53 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

An ant 'knows' how to build an ant nest, how to find your front door or window to crawl into your house and eat your bread and they stay busy doing whatever it is they do. We don't see ants getting lost and crawling all over the tv, the washing machine, at Walmart by the cashier, at the bank's window, on the bicycle seat....unless of course there's some sticky sugar, you get the drift of what i'm trying to say; they are at specific places. Ants are a problem where ants are a problem. Same for bees and spiders and caterpillars. All insects. 

There's intelligence at play there. Is there a person in an ant body. No. You'll say because an ant is not a person. You'll probably say there's an ant in an ant's body. There is a spider in that spider's body and there's a roach in that roach's body. No one says that. We just say that's an ant and that's a spider or a turtle. We see them do all sorts of things that matches what their respective species does. We don't see turtles trying to build a spider's web. They act like turtles. Is there a turtle in there being autonomous and having free will and making choices, no it's automatic and operating from instinct - well seemingly so. Same here and same with every other living species and machinery including humans. I mean it's so obvious.

 

Edited yesterday at 08:10 AM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

There's nothing natural about life as we know it. It's all fake. All imbalanced. Not life itself, just the human part. Yes, just the personal part. The part that says I AM. The part that says there's a you to be. The part that says I am in control. The part that says I am here and everything else is out there. The part that seeks. The part that wants to know. The part that sees other. The part that says I am a person. The part that says I am.......whatever comes after that. Doesn't matter what comes after I am, even if it's I am God. There is no I am to be God. 

This is the mental illnesses, the troubles, the worries, the addictions the fears, the worries, the doubts, shame, anxiety, traumas, sufferings, all of it. That's the root of all these things. Something senses something off. Something senses something unnatural and the body pays the price.The root of all these things is the I AM. It doesn't exist. There is no I AM. The I AM is the dream. We try to work on this I AM. Shadow work, self-improvement, meditation, spiritual practices, silence, being still, retreats, whatever, it's all because of the fake I AM. It isn't there. Take away the I am and everything is naturally perfect. Everything just is. No worries, no problems, no interferences, all just is as it is. The I AM is the only unnatural thing about existence. Without it all is well. 

When the I AM "dies", it's back to no problems, no worries, no enemies, no sadness, sorrow, hate, challenges. The I AM emerges, and all problems emerged with it. Cannot separate them. Can't have one without the other. No I AM and it's back to peace and serenity. Even if there's a war going on. It's not being related to and emotions aren't being stirred. It doesn't see itself anywhere or in anything. A war becomes just like another event. A war going on would be the same as going shopping or eating dinner. Nothing personal about either. 

It's already the case. That's already the natural beauty of realty. There is already no I AM. This is the perfection, the wholeness that's timelessly present ALREADY. The I AM presence is the apparent pollution that seems to permeate all of existence but only to itself. Outside of itself, it doesn't exist. It is it's own reality. It's own institution. It's own existence. The I AM is it's own worst enemy, I AM, therefore you are. There's nothing more further from the truth. 

 

Edited 6 hours ago by Princess Arabia