Random thoughts

[Sugarcoat]

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I’m at a normal weight. I find it easy to maintain. Just eat healthy, two meals a day. But…..in order to get SKINTY. That’s not enough. You gotta take other measures. Like you gotta watch portion sizes, that I’m getting better at. Today I ate a salad and accidentally made a little too big portion but that’s fine I’m learning. You gotta watch out for certain calorie dense “healthy” foods like olive oil, nuts because they can easily add a lot of calories (I still include it because it’s delicious especially olive oil in dressings etc). So basically being normal weight is one thing, but being skinnnnty is another level. So this is gonna be a journey. 

[Salvijus]

13 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Sometimes I feel a little dumb. Like I don’t have proper access to my brain. My thoughts have a very low volume and are quite sparse like there’s a long gap between thoughts. I have a hard time getting into a flow while writing, because of this. Sometimes I wanna delete replies because they don’t sound “smart” enough. Yes I’m guilty, somehow I wanna seem deep and smart, to whom I don’t know, just in general, to myself too. I want my replies to have substance, that’s a good thing in a way, it’s good for the forum to wanna give good responses. I wonder if others think like this or if they just write.

I usually abide in presence before I write and wait for the response to generate by itself. Depending on how complex the situation is, it can take considerable time sometimes to give birth to a response. But that way it's much more deeper and fruitful. I sometimes even treat this process as a spiritual practice. Especially if it's a heated, conflict situation. Learning to respond from presence is a delightful process full of gems. 

Edited January 21 by Salvijus

[Salvijus]

11 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

63:

I’m at a normal weight. I find it easy to maintain. Just eat healthy, two meals a day. But…..in order to get SKINTY. That’s not enough. You gotta take other measures. Like you gotta watch portion sizes, that I’m getting better at. Today I ate a salad and accidentally made a little too big portion but that’s fine I’m learning. You gotta watch out for certain calorie dense “healthy” foods like olive oil, nuts because they can easily add a lot of calories (I still include it because it’s delicious especially olive oil in dressings etc). So basically being normal weight is one thing, but being skinnnnty is another level. So this is gonna be a journey. 

I eat twice a day without even trying to lose weight lol. 

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Salvijus said:

I usually abide in presence before I write and wait for the response to generate by itself. Depending on how complex the situation is, it can take considerable time sometimes to give birth to a response. But that way it's much more deeper and fruitful. I sometimes even treat this process as a spiritual practice. Especially if it's a heated, conflict situation. Learning to respond from presence is a delightful process full of gems. 

That sounds good. Basically so I’m not the only one that can take time

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Salvijus said:

I eat twice a day without even trying to lose weight lol. 

I eat twice a day regardless of trying to lose weight or not. It keeps me at maintenance but to loose weight I need to also implement portion control etc 

[Sugarcoat]

1 hour ago, Candle said:

 

1. I think it's your biology or neuroscience. Nothing spiritual or paranormal. 
2. Maybe there are some drugs or technology that can help.
3. Maybe there exists some solution that you don't know yet. 

......

 

1. Now I understand why you write very short or single word answers.
2. While I was talking to you in PM, were you struggling to write things, I guess? But I was impressed by your writings and it felt very normal to me. Nothing abnormal I could detect. 
3. How on earth you managed to read my long messages in PM? God knows. 
4. Is it the same as Eckhart Tolle's thoughtless condition? Have you surrendered fully to the universe? 😆 
5. Some of your symptoms also seem similar to autism. 

 

Your thoughts have low volume. So you struggle to catch them, right? (I have the opposite : too many thoughts). My thinking is my problem. It's frustrating and depressing. 

 

The normal thing is to have a lot of thoughts. Even neurotic. Yea I don’t think it’s spiritual or paranormal either. I am on meds but they don’t help except for make me a little calmer. I wasn’t struggling to write to you in pm for some reason. I have been evaluated for autism and I don’t have it

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Candle said:

So again you wrote short answer and I understand why. Btw I also write very short answers sometimes. You lack thoughts. 

Yes true

[Schizophonia]

22 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

I can hear this in your accent

My baguette accent.

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Can you resist 😳

I can't help tease this otter 😕

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That’s so cool I want too

The secret to baiting you.

I will do a trip report btw.

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I will keep posting my stupid random thoughts 

No problem eheh.

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Haha

Worst class of drugs in any case, this is a really shitty situation you're in.

Edited January 21 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

8 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

I have been evaluated for autism and I don’t have it

Phew so you're just crazy, that's okay then.

 

[Schizophonia]

11 hours ago, Salvijus said:

I eat twice a day without even trying to lose weight lol. 

It's more convenient to eat fewer meals.

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Candle said:

@Sugarcoat  

Do u have anger issues? I think you don't have anger at all. 

Your memory is sharp, but your thoughts have low volume. 💭

Now after knowing ur stories, each time I write something to you, I remember not to burden too much with text. 

Look, I have done 500 posts so quickly !! How many thoughts I have, u can imagine. 

Zero anger issues. I don’t have any emotions.

 

[Sugarcoat]

27 minutes ago, Candle said:

That's why we can write anything in your journal, without caring too much. JK. 

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

Exactly 

27 minutes ago, Candle said:

 

still you are better than chatgpt. 

No but thanks

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, Candle said:

That's why we can write anything in your journal, without caring too much. JK.

Lol

[Sugarcoat]

 

11 minutes ago, Candle said:

My Perfectionist, autistic brain caught something. 

 

Can u notice? 

Letters j and g are not fully written (a tiny part is cut at the bottom). More ink was needed at the bottom. 

lol what a petty detail haha

[Sugarcoat]

20 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

My baguette accent.

 

I can hear it

20 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

I can't help tease this otter 😕

 

Yea

20 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

The secret to baiting you.

I will do a trip report btw.

 

I swear
I will read

20 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Worst class of drugs in any case, this is a really shitty situation you're in.

Why

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, Candle said:

My Perfectionist, autistic brain caught something. 

 

Can u notice? 

Letters j and g are not fully written (a tiny part is cut at the bottom). More ink was needed at the bottom. 

That's alien attention right there. 

[Salvijus]

I've been watching recently about autistic kids. It's fascinating, some of them have profound access to the mystical dimensions. There's one that cannot speak, yet writes books about God and different realms of existence. How crazy is that. 

 

 

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Salvijus said:

I've been watching recently about autistic kids. It's fascinating, some of them have profound access to the mystical dimensions. There's one that cannot speak, yet writes books about God and different realms of existence. How crazy is that. 

 

 

That’s epic 

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, Candle said:

No my brain just has a different wiring. Everyone has a unique wiring

I've noticed that about people aswell. I wonder if I would fall under the catagory of "normal" or no, haha. 

[Schizophonia]

4 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

 

I swear
I will read

👍

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Why

They hve a lot of se including brain atrophy at long term.

Even seroquel has side effects that can be severe in the long term, even though it is essentially "just" a powerful antihistamine.

Edited January 22 by Schizophonia