Random thoughts

[Sugarcoat]

40 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

No problem, you're sweet. 

 

It should be possible at the end of the week, I'll see.

 

 

Ok

[Sugarcoat]

@Schizophonia said:

“It's not a big deal.

  How does this evolve btw ?

You can reply on your journal so as not to derail the thread.

Because you are still "human" and "humans" are "curious". 👺

Or "polite", maybe you "put up" with "me" mainly out of "politeness" lol i don't know.”

It’s a big deal for me becuase i feel empty all the time, like i have nothing, barely even my own thoughts.

“How does this evolve” I don’t really know what you mean. But basically I have experienced too much self dissolution which is the reason for my emptiness and barely feeling like I exist.

Im still human somehow but I have a very weak sense of self. When I write it’s to express myself but I struggle with having access to my own brain.

Its not out of politeness .

 

 

[Schizophonia]

8 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

@Schizophonia said:

“It's not a big deal.

  How does this evolve btw ?

You can reply on your journal so as not to derail the thread.

Because you are still "human" and "humans" are "curious". 👺

Or "polite", maybe you "put up" with "me" mainly out of "politeness" lol i don't know.”

It’s a big deal for me

I meant not a big deal for me, that you don't find something to answer.

8 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

becuase i feel empty all the time, like i have nothing, barely even my own thoughts.

 

“How does this evolve” I don’t really know what you mean. But basically I have experienced too much self dissolution which is the reason for my emptiness and barely feeling like I exist.

I see.

8 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Im still human somehow but I have a very weak sense of self. When I write it’s to express myself but I struggle with having access to my own brain.

Yes but why do you want to "express yourself"? Eheh.
I want to express myself to boost my ego; to feel useful and in a position of power, possibly to push myself to put ideas into form like in my journal.

8 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Its not out of politeness .

It could, I play the french predator lol but I understand that it can be annoying; Women tend not to say what they really think.
You are my pocket alien but you are still a woman.

Nevermind.

[Sugarcoat]

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

I meant not a big deal for me, that you don't find something to answer.

Understood

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

Yes but why do you want to "express yourself"? Eheh.
I want to express myself to boost my ego; to feel useful and in a position of power, possibly to push myself to put ideas into form like in my journal.

I maybe wanna leave a little mark and make myself look wise or something that might be a possibility other than that self expression is like an end in itself it’s almost  all my mind does anyways, it’s an extension of my own mind activity, to write it out.

 

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

It could, I play the french predator lol but I understand that it can be annoying; Women tend not to say what they really think.
You are my pocket alien but you are still a woman.

Nevermind.

It’s not annoying. I think I tend to say what I think I’m very straight forward

 

Edited February 20 by Sugarcoat

[Schizophonia]

25 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Understood

I maybe wanna leave a little mark and make myself look wise or something that might be a possibility other than that self expression is like an end in itself it’s almost  all my mind does anyways, it’s an extension of my own mind activity, to write it out.

Yep.

25 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

 

It’s not annoying. I think I tend to say what I think I’m very straight forward

 

I see.

[Sugarcoat]

@Schizophonia I didn’t wanna derail thread so I answer here. The gold dishes looked pretty

 

Id love to have a king sized bed honestly it seems cozy to sleep in one and be able to take however much space you want

[Schizophonia]

 

6 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Id love to have a king sized bed honestly it seems cozy to sleep in one and be able to take however much space you want

Yep, I have never had any personally but there are often some in hotels, even not very expensive ones.

[Sugarcoat]

13 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Yep, I have never had any personally but there are often some in hotels, even not very expensive ones.

For the purpose of rolling around at night ofc….

[Schizophonia]

Just now, Sugarcoat said:

For the purpose of rolling around at night ofc….

Lol, you posted this the second I logged in.

Nevermind.

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

Lol, you posted this the second I logged in.

Nevermind.

What a coincidence

[Schizophonia]

15 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

What a coincidence

Do you still have as much lucid dreaming/sleep paralysis btw ? 🤔

Edited February 22 by Schizophonia

[Sugarcoat]

66:

Tonight I had super vivid dreams. Astral projections, lucid dreaming and sleep paralysis. Ive forgot most of the dreams but in one part I dreamt about the concept of solipsism, and thought to myself while in the dream how the dream was like solipsism, because the other characters were figments of my own imagination and I was the only conscious character. 
 

When I woke up I googled what foods can cause vivid dreams and two of them were diary and chocolate, and I ate them late at night before, I don’t know if there was a correlation.

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

Do you have that much lucid dreaming/sleep paralysis btw ? 🤔

I wrote the above post before reading what you wrote, what a coincidence you ask

[Schizophonia]

1 minute ago, Sugarcoat said:

66:

Tonight I had super vivid dreams. Astral projections, lucid dreaming and sleep paralysis.

 

Aww another synchronicity
It's a sign I can manifest her breassst 👺👺👺

No, seriously, I also had bits of lucid dreams last night; like concentrating on a scene (for example a cathode ray television) until, in the hypnotic state of pre-sleep/fatigue, I managed to switch, to finally say to myself "um I'm dreaming" and wake up.

I once managed to explore a bit of a lucid dream without being afraid, although it was confusing and even psychedelic.

1 minute ago, Sugarcoat said:

 

 

Ive forgot most of the dreams but in one part I dreamt about the concept of solipsism, and thought to myself while in the dream how the dream was like solipsism, because the other characters were figments of my own imagination and I was the only conscious character. 
 

Ditto

1 minute ago, Sugarcoat said:

When I woke up I googled what foods can cause vivid dreams and two of them were diary and chocolate, and I ate them late at night before, I don’t know if there was a correlation.

On Zamnesia you have plants for that.

They sell products that are not necessarily legal, like magic truffles, which usually cross the border anyway lol, but these kinds of herbs are legal.

[Schizophonia]

14 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I wrote the above post before reading what you wrote, what a coincidence you ask

Yeah It's curious.

 

Visit me next time, i have astral cookies. 

Yum.

Edited February 22 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

@Sugarcoat Kratom too can generate special vivid dreams. 

https://www.reddit.com/r/LucidDreaming/comments/10d7f1t/kratom_and_lucid_dreaming/?rdt=37351

Edited February 22 by Schizophonia

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Aww another synchronicity
It's a sign I can manifest her breassst 👺👺👺

Hehe I thought about you too this morning 

2 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

No, seriously, I also had bits of lucid dreams last night; like concentrating on a scene (for example a cathode ray television) until, in the hypnotic state of pre-sleep/fatigue, I managed to switch, to finally say to myself "um I'm dreaming" and wake up.

I once managed to explore a bit of a lucid dream without being afraid, although it was confusing and even psychedelic.

Nice

I wonder if it’s possible to meet in the astral realm

What is the hypnotic state? Do you mean hypnagogic state (state between wakefulness and sleep?

So you woke up when you realized you were dreaming? I knew I was dreaming but managed to stay anyways so that’s cool

Dreams can be trippy for sure

2 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

On Zamnesia you have plants for that.

They sell products that are not necessarily legal, like magic truffles, which usually cross the border anyway lol, but these kinds of herbs are legal.

I’ll look that up. Thanks. I hoped you’d chime in with some knowledge.So there’s both legal and illegal stuff there?

 

 

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Yeah It's curious.

 

Visit me next time, i have astral cookies. 

Yum.

As I said before I wonder if it’s possible to meet in the astral realm hehe

[Sugarcoat]

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

@Sugarcoat Kratom too can generate special vivid dreams. 

https://www.reddit.com/r/LucidDreaming/comments/10d7f1t/kratom_and_lucid_dreaming/?rdt=37351

I just googled it and it says this February the government decided it is to be considered illegal lol 😑

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

I just googled it and it says this February the government decided it is to be considered illegal lol 😑

Too bad.

I'm mischievous so I want to try it; It's supposed to be recreational and at the same time much less dangerous than most opiates.
High feeling + pleasant warmth in the body similar to that obtained after sport or a hot shower.

 

I need to find a source on the deep web, I know a seller who sells XTC in the shape of a swastika or other Nazi symbols, no joke lol, he must be reliable. 🫨

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

As I said before I wonder if it’s possible to meet in the astral realm hehe

I think the world is a projection of beliefs. So if you believe astral travel is a hallucination you have proof of it, if you believe it is true "but in a different way than usual, in the real world" you have proof of it, and if you believe it can be the same you have proof of it; I believe we live on a sphere of probability structured by the beliefs that shape the sense of self.

As one of my masters Franck Lopvet would say, "that's why spirituality is not provable, because those who think (want to think, moreover) that there is only matter will have the proof"

Sometimes I speak of "egregor" to speak of experimental belief blocks on earth; It can be voodoo magic as well as class struggle.

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Hehe I thought about you too this morning 

Aw but me too honey.

Not easy when you have this goofy alien nearby.

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Nice

I wonder if it’s possible to meet in the astral realm

Ditto.

I read part of the book "Autobiography of a Yogi" and in it they talk about yogi being able to be in several places at the same time or that kind of thing.
Personally I prefer the siddhis of eating as much as I want without getting fat lol but it's a nice egregor too.

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

What is the hypnotic state? Do you mean hypnagogic state (state between wakefulness and sleep?

Yes exactly.

From what I have observed it is essentially a combination of strong physical and psychic relaxation/fatigue and strong attention (not diluted/manic).
If what I say makes sense.

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

So you woke up when you realized you were dreaming? I knew I was dreaming but managed to stay anyways so that’s cool

Yes indeed I am cowardly lol so I prefer to wake up right away, except once I described and the results were not so scary but above all strange.

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Dreams can be trippy for sure

Yes

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

I’ll look that up. Thanks. I hoped you’d chime in with some knowledge.

This is my job as a great intellectual.

picks his nose*

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

So there’s both legal and illegal stuff there?

Yes.

The illegal stuffs are things like magic truffles, magic mushroom grow kit, LSA seeds (a psychedelic close to LSD/AL LAD), Salvia, kratom extract (that are quite weak there unfortunately) etc.