F A B

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  1. Posted

    I see so many guys wrapping their heads around life purpose.

    I'm 24 and never had a clear idea of what to do, however, I chose both my bachelor's (Economics) and my master's (Data Analytics) quite easily. I just "went with the flow" and chose without any effort and without that much wondering I see around. Now I have a well-paid 9 to 5 job and I'm happy with it. No desire to run my own company or whatever.

    Maybe I'm just lucky and I cannot understand them.

  2. Posted

    Background: I've been meditating 30 minutes a day for about five months now

    Problem: Although some days I feel very relieved, there are still a lot of days in which I feel my breathing so mechanical and stiff. The more I tell myself "stop controlling it, let it flow" the more I feel like I need to control it and it becomes really unnatural (when it happens I experience also some mild nervous tics).

  3. Posted

    I like doing both strength and aerobic exercises combined with some stretching three times a week (I don't follow a rigid schedule anyway). I got a nice balanced body and I feel really alive while doing it. Indeed, being fit helps a lot also to face everyday activities, etc.

    I think as long as you don't get obsessed with it and you don't do it just to show off, then it is fine.

     

  4. Posted

    3 hours ago, kinesin said:

    Yep, this is totally normal and precisely the reason why set and setting is so important, but you already know that.  Expect for a general sense of uneasiness and possibly some mild 'flashbacks' to remain for a while, but they'll go away over time.  Congrats on making it through the worst of it, though.

    Thank you, very reassuring :)

    2 hours ago, kinesin said:

    The tension in the neck can also be caused by good old fashioned anxiety.  I've had it many times.  Infact all of the negative symptoms OP described are things I've experienced while 100% sober

    Yeah, I've already experienced sometimes neck tension and mild shakes during some intense state of fear and anger. I guess it's how my body reacts to those stressful feelings and LSD has simply amplified it all.

    3 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

    33ug is not enough to have a bad trip on your own but DEFINITELY enough to have a very uncomfortable moment if you socialize with certain people at certain setting on it.

    I see ?

    3 hours ago, Tim R said:

    First of all, 33µg is not microdosing anymore. Microdosing stops at around 15µg. For 1P-LSD it might even be a bit lower than that, I only have experience with 1CP-LSD, which is slightly more potent than normal LSD-25. 

    33µg is one third of a trip, and some people can experience very potent effects on only half a "full dose", that is 50µg. Seems like you totally underestimated what you were doing. 

    You are right, I treated it like a microdose whereas it wasn't really. This led me to ignore the setting. Next time I'll make sure no one can interrupt me.

    3 hours ago, Flowerfaeiry said:

    I recently learned that most "acid" that is sold nowadays is actually the research chemical LSA. Sort of feels similar to acid, but it's different. What tips me off that you had LSA and not LSD is the tension in your neck. LSA can do that. Real LSD is difficult to come by. 

    Thank you for sharing, I didn't know that. But I don't think so, anyway, because I got it from a quite popular online Duch store.

  5. Posted · Edited by F A B

    Briefly:

    On 11.05.21 I tried acid (1P-LSD) for the first time. I tried a microdose of 11 mcg by dividing the tab into 3x3 matrix (so I got 1/9 of a full tab of 100 mcg).

    In the beginning, I was very fearful/anxious but then I calmed down through some stretching. After 1 hour I started to feel something and between 1 hour and a half and 2 hours I had the peak. It was really nice. I felt so aware, conscious, powerful and in the moment like never before especially while listening to music. It was just amazing. I couldn’t wait for the next day to try it again with a higher dose.

    On 12.05.21 I tried 33 mcg (completely ignoring tolerance ?). I had a bad trip. Maybe I can’t call it a bad trip because of the relatively small dosage, but sticking to how people define “bad trip” then I can say it definitely was.

    When I was alone I felt quite well, but when it comes to interacting with people I became extremely nervous (especially with my parents) of course because I was enormously worried they may find out. Due to the small dose, I thought I could handle it in front of others, but with the wisdom of hindsight, I think I completely got it wrong and neglected to build a proper “set”. Big mistake!

    I felt tremendously fearful and anxious. I felt a lot of tension in the neck, so much tension I could barely move it. I also felt very frightening tremors. I felt like my head and hands were shaking like crazy (but it was subjective because in the mirror I realized I didn't shake that much). I felt I couldn’t control myself. Fear of going mad/insane. Fear of having some kind of epileptic attack even if I don’t suffer from it fortunately (but who knows?). Fear of never going back to normal. Fear of remaining “disable” forever because of the substance.

    Today I feel good but I also feel a bit nervous by describing/recalling those moments.

  9. Posted · Edited by F A B

    @aurum @Recursoinominado

    Thank you guys, you were right. Last night I completely throw off all my thoughts and fears (I don't even know how I did it, to be fair).

    When I came to her place I was completely fine with the idea of just talking, kissing and having fun. No more. No sex required. No selfish needs to demonstrate whatever. 

    I focused on her, on how beautiful she was and on how I was lucky to stay with her in that precise moment. Then magic happened ✨

  11. Posted

    3 hours ago, aurum said:

    But I'm wondering where you're learning tantra from?

    Yes, well, the sources may not be the best... just a bunch of videos on youtube.

    3 hours ago, aurum said:

    If someone is giving you a bunch of techniques to perform, to me that's kind of missing the point.

    The foundation of tantric sex is just to be conscious. Breathe, relax and slow everything down. Become aware. There's nothing to do, no requirements to be met. Just trust your body, trust your impulses.

    Techniques like contracting the pelvis, breath, or trying to feel her, to be in her mind.

    But how am I supposed to feel her If I must be already focused on my breath and pelvis?

    They also feed me, in some way, the need for lasting longer and performing better than a normal random guy.

  12. Posted · Edited by F A B

    A few days ago I started watching some videos about tantra in sex. 

    My intention was to learn tantra in order to give more pleasure to my partner and elevate my sexual experience but it turned out to be the contrary.

    I focused on the teachings, my mind started thinking logically and I became mechanical. Moreover, I got out of hand the good aim of giving her pleasure, which turned into a bad willingness to become a "sex god" and make her crave for me.

    Is there anyone who can relate with this?

  17. Posted

    34 minutes ago, datamonster said:

    Still not too many, which is good for you and me. The standard Economist will be limited to working with Excel spreadsheets and theory, but if you can code, if you know Python or R, SQL, Tableau or Looker and some ML you can add soo much more value.

    Exactly, I'm approaching coding right now. As I expected, people who come from Mathematics or Engineering have an advantage in learning those stuff, but I can do it anyway. I'm also confident that this initial effort will be worth it, in the sense that I will never be as theoretical as them, but at least I have a solid understanding of macro/microeconomics, balance sheets, budget, business strategy, laws... More "practical" skills, I guess. Correct me if I'm wrong.

    58 minutes ago, datamonster said:

    In my team we were looking for Econometricians, but now we changed the job openings to Data Analyst simply because a Data Analyst is going to be much more hands-on and has valuable additional skills, even if they may have a bit less theoretical knowledge.

    Interesting, what about your business? What do you do? Do you really need that much complex theory as they use to teach in class?

    1 hour ago, datamonster said:

    I'm from Spain :)

    Nice!

  20. Posted

    6 minutes ago, Display_Name said:

    It’s important here to make a distinction between dominant and domineering.

    Real dominance is absolutely consensual, strong, loving. But it is in control (of course no one is actually in control:D). And most girls do love being able to completely let go and be ravished (in the bedroom) to fully go into their feminine for once.

    Exactly. Really crucial point ?

  21. Posted · Edited by F A B

    1 hour ago, mandyjw said:

    That is most definitely NOT the case. 

    Honest to God, this is absolutely surreal that you would say this on a public forum.

    He didn't mean an actual rape.

    I can't find a proper word because, in a sense, you ravish her with love and with her agreement. Her permission and desires are key here. You will never hurt her, though, and deep down she knows she is 100% safe with you.

    If she is not into submission then you simply don't do this kind of stuff. In my experience being submissive is quite common among women.

    Important note: what you do under the sheets has nothing to do with sexual equality.

  22. Posted

    I got a bachelor's degree in Economy last year, but now, for the master's, I'm moving more toward statistics and mathematics. To be more specific: Data analytics for business.

    I like running experiments, recording data, and looking for interesting correlations. But I have no clue how I will be using those skills in the future after graduating (within two years).

    I cannot see anything but wage slavery. I feel I can't develop anything on my own because those skills are meant to serve a project, not to start one.

  23. Posted

    4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

    Do you guys think that I should tell my current boyfriend about these fantasies and tell him to play them out with me. Would you advise that? 

    Yes, tell him.

    4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

    Or would he think that I'm being weird because I don't want to disappoint him.

    Don't worry about that.

    Almost every girl I was with has those kinds of fantasies and since I like to be dominant I was really happy to find out.

  24. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Viking said:

    the question is how to develop that non judgemental attitude, since flaws in your partner will affect you. 

    what i do is if i notice something i dont like about my partner, i might be quiet and try to rationalize it and look at it in an optimistic or positive way, but sometimes i need to just accept the flaw without finding anything positive about it, which is hard because it does make me suffer in some way or makes it so that my needs arent met.

    If you cannot sustain the flaws then just leave.

    Acceptance doesn't mean being forced to stay.