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@Shin Was a joke shin ? didn't mean it literally

I was reading like... "Does he understand the meaning of healthy?" ??? Last meal was last night and it wasn't too healthy as I ate out. Plant based curry containing jackfruit, lemongrass with a coconut sauce. Smashed cucumber side salad and white rice. Healthiest meal all week? Mushroom stew with lentils, onion, garlic, Bragg's amino liquid, carrots and red rice. (All meals listed are plant based)

@How to be wise same... Walked past a very small perimeter of forest today and I just stood and gasped at its sheer beauty

Whip out a picture of your mum ?

Why do you take your worth from others opinions? (Contemplate)

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I feel called to do a trip, I feel ready. I don't know why, but I just do. I feel it's my next step BUT my mind is dick head ? I struggle with letting go, I struggle with just flowing. It's pure fear, nothing else, pure ego driven fear trying to guide me away. It gets so bad it causes panic attacks but I don't want this to stop me! Part of me is like "come ooonnnnn" and the other part is like "nah, sit down and shut up, this ain't happening". I have fears based around psychosis and schizophrenia. My mum had an episode (she was studying Personal development at the time) and so did my Uncle (coming home from a festival then taking LSD). What if I trigger something? At the same time I'm like "nah, I'm not them though". A lot of contradiction going on in my mind. @Leo Gura how could I practice letting go sober so I feel I've got a hand on things when stuff pops up? Would it be a good idea to maybe go to a guided psychedelic retreat? Any help from anyone would be appreciated ♥️

@Claire Verlyn Read into the self seeking identity through validation and security.

I'm with ya! I see the difference. Yes I see what you mean! You can literally feel it return in someway, the only way I could explain it as feeling as if the perceiver has returned. Thanks everyone ♥️

@Haumea2018 Yeah definitely considering it as there's too much negativity in my house (from panic attacks).

@SOUL But isn't being aware in the present moment just another form of "I" thought? What if (sorry I've just had a thought ? lol) we all assume we are aware and in the present moment and actually it's the "I" sneakily controlling this also! Making us think we are when in fact we are not, it's just more illusion? ?

First word that popped to mind when reading this was homeostasis. Find a balance, compromise but lean more towards option 1. @Viking You know what's going to benefit you the most in the long term, it's not rocket science. 'Short term losses for long-term gain's?' or short term burst's of pleasure for a shit life? Your decision ?

@Marks199 I kid you not mine does exactly the same during meditation!!! Your not alone brother ??

? Agreed, just unlearn, will bring suffering unfortunately

@yawning_ I agree, I've used this in the past and it's definitely worked. Thank you so much for your input ♥️

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That guy is triggered TF. It's hilarious how much!!

@Nahm Ill make sure I contemplate tf first Nahm so I can see through this illusion. Thanks again brother ? @Serotoninluv Thanks for replying ♥️ @Outer Yeah some anxiety is probably normal outer it's the panic attacks! ?

@SgtPepperThanks so much for sharing this, it's actually made me feel a bit better because I thought I was the only one ? That's exactly how I invision it might go for me also, then again I could be completely wrong. I don't mind have some general anxiety about the whole thing, taking precautions is fine, it's the panic attacks that top it off for me ?

Sorry dude I thought you were referring to what I said to seeonsee with that ⬆️ Thanks again. @Nahm As always your amazing and your advice is priceless. I will do just that! I have a full free day tomorrow so I'll be knuckling down with this. Thank you ♥️

@Outer Are you saying going into psychedelics with the attitude of 'just do it' is sensible/mature? Okay well in that case... I'll go and climb mount Kilimanjaro without any knowledge, physical or health and safety training, I'll really hurt myself and might even kill myself but it's okay because it's ego that's stopping me? Come on duuuuude! ?

@PsiloPutty ?? You never fail to make me laugh! @see_on_see I really appreciate your reply but I don't agree with... I think going into things (especially psychedelics) with this attitude can you land you in deep shit with many regrets. Before I started even thinking about doing trips (month's ago) I did sooooo much research on how to use them for the right reasons but thank you very much for your input ♥️

@Outer Will do outer thank you so much. @Nahm Brilliant, I'm on it. Thank you ♥️♥️ Also Nahm, I noticed my 'come ups' are when the fear happens "Where am I going to go? Whats going to happen to me!" Is what paces through my mind, losing control is my main fear

@Outer I'm working on this ALL the time outer, this is my life. What would recommend I do? Even more contemplation?? @Nahm Nahm thanks for your reply, massively appreciated. I'm on it ? What would you recommend with regards to the fear of letting go?