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Hey, check this too Imagine a christmas eve in a christian orthodixical church. There is this awful play going on that they are doing every year. Girls are singing around cradle. Mary is there, few shepherds and yea... whole set. You are the shepherd. Thats your role. As you wait your part to come you start to feel tension. Its not anxiety because of the stage fear but it feels that something is being phony here. They dont seem enjoying it. It seems to you that these people around you are ashamed. And your memory tells you that this is how we are supposed to feel. Suddenly you understand that the reason you feel ashamed is because you are part of this orthotoxical. I am believing this nonsense. Your honesty levels starts arise and you see the truth of this business here. "THIS WHOLE THING IS DISGRACEFUL" comes out of your mouth while Mary passes you microphone. Everyone heard you, they all look at you with shock. You can feel the heat arising on these hopeless faces. "fuck that" you decide And grab that fucking lame fake sheep that you had there and kick the thing over where baby Jesus were laying. You grab the cross from pastors daughter and run out from the church while saying "I am freeee...". You probably thinking that i am a sociopath or something . But if you could imagine yourself like this without feeling bad about what you do, then you are on a decent orange ground. For the haters, its actually from panic. Your actions are aligned to save your ass from this. I just love to give it a little extra when I act, so i make sure everyone really gets it It will probably be most enlightening thing that people have ever seen in orthodox. This story how you escape and burn blue is a what orange loves - its their way of building relationships.

Metaphors We Live By by George Lakoff and Mark Johnson

When you had a dream of falling down. Did you were aware of your body ? No. What you were aware of ? Nothing. Well that is kinda what it is. But you woke up sweating and in terror and had to come up with conclusions in order to fall asleep again. But you had this moment of nothingness right there in a fall.

Maybe just maybe when you close off all the distractions and focus doing only one thing maybe this thing that you are doing is a distraction too ? What helps me to break out of all the distractions is to go look a master doing hes work. If you do not know anyone particular then go take walk in town, i am sure you can find someone or some place. It automatically washes off all the bullshit and distractions that you had before. You gotta be able to step out of it. And older skillful people are perfect for that. Well you can try do it by yourself, but it takes way too much time - almost impossible. But please, do not go creep anyone, be nice

I never understood what was up with this thing until i tried a couple of times. It was a third time I succeeded with it. 2 first tries were just meh blackouts. Third time i did it right when math class started. I was siting on the table. Everyone and a teacher seemed cool at that day. And i decided to try it one more time. After holding my breath suddenly everything was washed away. I look around class and realized something. It was significant and others started asking too what is that i see. Even a teacher who were against of this technique. Suddenly she is curious too. So I came off the table and laid to the ground for minute to think how i am going to say it now to 30 students and teacher all waiting for answers. But i didn't share this with others because i couldn't imagine how i could wash away something that we stand for. I didnt want war to break off in our class. At that time i assumed its better this way, to keep it for myself. Because of the lies i saw on others faces seemed like a nightmare suddenly not a common sense anymore. I end up leaving the class and went for a long walk. I wouldnt say its ego death. When ego starts dying then you call an ambulance. This was just a radical shift that lead to contemplations. Thats good too.

@RendHeaven this introspection what you are doing in dreams is useful but do not forget to pay attention what is actually going on in a dream. This filter is wonderful to look through but it still distorts your reality of whats going on. Be honest of how you feel in dream about certain situations. And can you do something about it? I recommend to write honestly again about this dream. Collect all the details and signs. Dont stop with signs that you dont have words for it. Also forget about storytelling. If its clear it will speak for itself. Now its only a matter of time when it all makes sense. Because this dream will come back again and again until you are honest about it and figure out what this dream wants you to understand.

Its okay to feel anxious if you are about to discover your life purpose and find a girlfriend. These are really challanging for all of us. First tries you are going to fail anyway, but you will learn valuable lessons from these, that will help you land your lifepurpose and girlfriend more accurately in a long run. This should be your focus because no one gets to the core without going through layers. You will get closer and closer as you go. What helps me is to ask : Are we there yet ? And dont let emotions or anything else to distract you from finishing your goals. There is atleast 5 different walls blocking us to finish our goals, but it doesnt matter what these “walls” are. Remember your goal and finish it. There is no way you can make walls dissapear before going through them. These walls are there and goals are very useful to get through them. Someone once said that if you want happiness then tie it around goal. Man fuck walls, finish your goal !!

To love others you must start by loving yourself first. You are not supposed to make other people feel good. It just feels good to make other people laugh. But you dont have to impress others all the time. If you try too much to make them good then this becomes toxic. This actually pushes people away and ultimately brakes relationships. Notice the real effect and reaction of others that your behaviors cause. If you start loving yourself you will see how much pain your behaviors like "feeding their ego" ; "laugh when its not even funny" etc. causes you. Be truthful with yourself and others as best as you can. We respect that When you judge you are setting standards for yourself, but in reality you dont really know whats actually good for you. To find out whats good for you must start loving yourself and be more aware. It takes a lot of time and practice, change of people you hang around with and your emotions will get out of control. Be ready of this rollercoaster. Take few deep breaths before you answer - make it as rule. This will help you to see your shortcomings that you normally make.

@cle103 Your teacher clearly talks from experiences of what she has saw. Patterns where people dont follow their deeply meaningful path end up hurting themselves. This must happen alot with psychadelics and kriya, because its so easy to get your hands on these things and turn it into a mess. But thats not enough for saying these things dont matter or are "dangerous". I have not done pshychadelics yet, but I think its because of lack of awareness that people suggest you to follow other paths. They obviously are afraid to guide you, because they have diferent experiences. I believe anyone who claims himself Noble One can give you advise no matter what path you are in. If you want easy way you have to follow the methods he used, but its not fully yours then and results might not satisfy you. If she doesnt trust herself to guide you then you must let her go and keep trying to finish it some other way. Whatever your path is, anything can happen, as it must. If your path is 100% authentic and you are aware of progress then congrats! You are on a right track. "when the wrong man uses the right means, the right means work in the wrong way" - from chinese classics.

I think what Osho is trying to say is that try more diferent things. Just meditating wont get you far. For example in Oshos movie there is a part where he learns to play perfectly a flute and then drop it because the love/passion for music is blocking us to grow. @Viking You asked that is it possible for you to enter blissful state without preperation, ofc it is, by accident. Some people plan it. Both work! but consciously working on it saves you a life. Like you dont want to let accident to guide your life. So investigating your stage that you are in at this moment is super-important. Lets say its "bliss" it can be very state like and enjoyable, but its still a stage. You let insight guide you and not states. Alot of people make that mistake when they try hold on to that state of bliss for forever and not earn insights. Take your time on it. Let loose, take a adventour or make things okay again like they used to be with your fam. etc. just a little courage needed to get going. Every stage will give you exactly that, that this stage offers. Higher stage you are in then more it offers about yourself. Your whole life is a meditation. Every part of it can be meditated. Your being that runs automatically can become meditative. This means that your attention that is used to go into illusions automatically, will now become -> attention moving into reality automatically. That should slowly get into meditative actions and reprogramming from illusions that lead you to bigger understanding.

What are the qualifications of self-help and coaching type of service? Does self-help gurus have a some kind of degree or a diploma what gives them a permission to charge money for their services? What are the rules in this game? Its sounds too good to be true that if i help people to overcome psychosis or whatever difficulties they have in life it is all legal and legit. I cannot believe that. Please, what am i missing ? Love you guys!

One of my friend visited hospital without saying anything to anyone. Doctor gave him diagnose of psychosis and 3 different drugs to take. When I talked to him it was obvious for me that he didnt know what was wrong with him. How doctor could know then ? I mean 99% diseases are based on what patients talk only. When you have a patient who is lost and not able to express himself ? So its not easy to say whats wrong with him. Even when doctors use their ways to discover, these are not creative enough to find a problem. But to drug someone up to get him to talk, seriously??? My friend was so spaced out because of drugs that he turned into "zombie". So I sat a mission to change his life, I created a practice and 1-on-1 calls every night with him. After healing him up got me thinking like, hey, I have done it before and it seems to work, maybe someone else also needs it. My problem is that I can not find a job or work for other peopIe. I have changed 6 peoples lives before and motivated hundreds of people to live their fullest, but I have never asked money from it. All practices, sessions and food for thought i have created takes a lot of time and energy. I really want to be able to turn this into business to help people 24/7. I am not interested to write songs, create motivational videos, enlight people or uplift them some way. Not that I am against personal branding but I want to work with them face-to-face to really help them out. @Nahm Shortly I become another person and be with it for as long as I find a way out without hurting myself. I will find a way out for him and then turn it into session that we can use for healing process. Sometimes it happens within a minute, sometimes it takes a week. @aurum Here where I live no one cant find help. You can only visit doctors and they will run your symptoms through software. Only self-help businesses here is are based on entrepreneurship and mundane personal work. @Saumaya Ofc. I would never take a patient that I cannot help. @brugluiz Meditation is powerful tool but there is like million different ways to do it. Which one works for you? How do you know?

@Phill @Leo Gura Death of you exists as a flash of ending of your life-story. When Your whole life turns into like a fast forward movie and it burns out suddenly. If You want to stop it, You cant To stop it, means to wake up from it. Not creating end to it. Thats just more story when you trying to create a beautiful and all powerful ending. I only have a memory of “me” dying. And thats enough for me to get into work and come write chapters in Actualized forums. LOL no no. That would be wasting the Gift. So @Phill not so fast with “everything dying anyway” - this thought will never leave us. Your signature is in it. You created it So that means your all actions and thoughts are our continuation. Physical life on a other hand was never directly experienced so you cant lose it because you didnt had it in the first place. Thank you all for playing

Once you become aware of Absolute, You are not satisfied with less than It. It will cost my life. I am thankful for it. Honestly, pursuing personality and everything that comes with it wasnt worth anyway.

Finally anxiety will release itself with suppressed hidden and you feel so much better.

@phoenix666 Dont start meditating when it arises, because that might be another way to escape. Rather go lay down and surrend totally. When anxiety comes up you start following it as best as you can. Its important to remember that this place you are exploring now is NEW when you follow it. So all you have learned and logic is useless. Just be with anxiety. Like its a alien you want know where he came from - sense of “want to know” is important, but dont talk with it or ask questions from him. Let he show you where he came from. Relax for a 20min before you start diving

No bully can break or play with honest person. What has been helpful for me is to remember that this wound is just all in my head and it cant be hidden. You cant ignore it, everyone sees that you are playing fool with yourself. For a bully this is an opportunity to strike. But you are smarter, you know that noone can trigger you, you are triggering yourself. Step back when they bully, dont join with them. Work on your holes until they are healed. Until one day will come when you dont need to step back anymore, instead you face them without blinking an eye and you feel shamed of them because they are so full of shit. After this moment they are going to leave you alone. But first you must become aware of that hole and fix it by becoming consious of it. Only then you can express yourself honestly and bullies will stop. I feel him, all that energy he is wasting on creating manipulation to win a battle with bully, sometimes it works and you think its all gone now. Until bully is back with new strategy to break you. And again you must come up with better manipulation. Do you see how childish this circle is ? i hope it helps you a little bit to dive into wilderness where bullies and manipulation live.

You know when you are dreaming because you become aware that you have a part in dream creation. But that doesnt prove that the you who has a part in dream creation is absolutely real.

@Nahm Thank you . I was worried because of psychologist and social worker do need a liscens. But self help is different story.

You see, this thought where you think like " yea, its time. I cannot take this anymore" type of suicidal thought. This "this" what you cannot take anymore. Suicide is not going to make a difference. "this" remains even after your suicide.

Yes! I don't know how, but it happens naturally for me. I can disappear at any moment. First ones can be frightening to see "everything disappearing" but that is just how it is - being. You can actually point it out when someone is being, its quality is formless. When you notice someone having a type of quality that is some kind of magical. What ever reaction you will have to it, is not going to be it. So everybody who is looking for someone enlightened to steal his way, aint going to happen. And then there is a lot of people who have pointed it out and say "yack this is uncool", it is so normal, I want something cool...etc. That unconscious decision you made once was your shot man, but you decided to judge it / label it- that was wrong move. You should have taken shot. You getting me, hmm?

After 20min body-scan meditation I felt really weird and I was scared to look where this weirdness is coming from. So I decided to go front of mirror to see what is wrong with me. Then I saw myself with no hands I was standing there and I had 2 extra legs hanging out from my shoulders. Instead of feeling my body when I meditated I visualized that I'm feeling it, but back then I couldn't make a difference.

Ability to make a leap into being.

It does make half/sense, but its like extra half for discovering God/Nothingness that you don't really need. Everything must stop, to find it. Your thoughts, distractions, day dreaming ... EVERYTHING has to go. Forcing everything to go, doesn't work either. If you want to see it right now then look between the words I'm writing, Look its right here and here . I just offered the essence of infinite intelligence and beauty to you. Its all here and nothing to take away from nothingness. And another one - - (this particular one is infinite creativity). But right now you fill up the space I gave you with thoughts, but this space is needed to see nothingness, it maybe so little right now that you see only little glimpses getting trough sometimes. Or even closed. Learn how to expand it. I just gave my first spiritual guidance. OMG!