Walter B

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    Yep. Brought on by our awareness of what's going on even when we aren't there to witness. Inducing muscular and nerve impulses that correspond with hormone alterations and possibly physical pain. All an amazingly complex system of chemistry inside this machine we know as our body.

    Or...selfishness and dishonesty in some cases....lol

    We have to just not give a shit in order to eventually find something worth keeping!

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    40 minutes ago, Kelley White said:

    @Pyrrhocorax graculus as in appropriate tense usage for the sentence.  Even viewing the universe as stories assumes universe and stories both are made up.  I actually find this a humorous reminder when I forget.... I've used it for about five years; I think when someone from Germany sent it to me.... http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/Real

    So, how real is the electromagnetic spectrum that we use real instruments to measure? To explore the depths of this universe. Is it as real as the sunburn you get by being in that ultraviolet radiation too long? Lol

  10. Posted

    46 minutes ago, Ayla said:

    @Eelco1981 ,

    What if I told you that VERY few human beings at this point are capable of letting go of all the rage and the anger and the judgement and be happy ? :) Would you still feel like a push-over? 

    I see you as the exact opposite for doing that. I guess it depends on the perspective, isn't it? Every teacher you mentioned, our advice included, has to be felt in your heart, not your head. To me, your biggest problem is your lack of complete self love. Look into that one first :)

     

    Hell ya I'd still feel like a pushover. Just bc most people fall for it doesn't mean I have to! Lol

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    42 minutes ago, Eelco1981 said:

    @Pinocchio @Aldo Marchand @Ayla  Thank you for the replies of all three of you. I want to respond to that. I know I only hurt myself Ayla. Like the Buddha said: "Holding on to anger is like holding on to a hot coal; you want to hurt someone else but in the end only you get burned".  And Aldo, sometimes it helps to just focus on the future and not think about petty things of the past. But in this cases (there are more) I have trouble accepting it. And Pinocchio, I know I must not take it personally. Eckhart Tolle has some excellent videos on not to take things personally because in this specific case, the landlord did not do anything to my ego, but he is just acting according to his (low) level of consciousness. As Eckhart would say. Eckhart says that you must not take it personally and thus do no get angry. However, he points out that you can take the appropriate action (without anger). I think I did that, the appropriate action.  But still my ego feels damaged like I were a push-over. It is very hard to let this go. So yes indeed. I think it is my self-image that gets hurt. Any tips on how I can learn to see through these things and sop taking things personally? What efforts must I do? Thanks again for your responses!

    Be conscious of it. Maybe use a mantra to make it a mental habit. To quell the emotions that you may not yet have firm control of. 

    That one you described gets me to! The landlord was likely being inconsiderate and greedy and dismissive of integrity. And taking advantage of the fact that it was too much trouble for you to do anything about. It almost seems premeditated doesn't it? People are assholes sometimes. And all I can do is to recognize it and avoid dealings with them in the future once I see them do something like this. "Do it once shame on you, do it twice shame on me" 

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    18 minutes ago, Kelley White said:

    Familiar with both.  Ultimately all of that?  Its made up.  When I say its made up?  Who created the word human?  Who made that thought into a word.  Lewiss Carroll, Douglas Adams, Seuss, one of many who  create the "others' of story.   Long before I stumbled upon Leo I viewed the Universe as stories.  Even spacetime?  Who created that word?  That concept?  We made it all up.  I'm energy.  Even that is a story, energy is a word, its made up.   9_9

    From here.

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    10 minutes ago, Kelley White said:

    Familiar with both.  Ultimately all of that?  Its made up.  When I say its made up?  Who created the word human?  Who made that thought into a word.  Lewiss Carroll, Douglas Adams, Seuss, one of many who  create the "others' of story.   Long before I stumbled upon Leo I viewed the Universe as stories.  Even spacetime?  Who created that word?  That concept?  We made it all up.  I'm energy.  Even that is a story, energy is a word, its made up.   9_9

    Hehe. You know you can transcend the use of a therapist.

    And btw, the first 3 laws of thermodynamics are quite useful to understand as well.

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    12 minutes ago, Kelley White said:

    So all this time I'm thinking, I don't feel human, I know I'm not human, that's not crazy?  I keep asking my therapist that same question every week.  You are sure I'm not crazy I see all these patterns and things?  He says the same thing you do.  Nope, you are not crazy.  That's been a real fear of mine, that I'm crazy because i have these kind of experiences @Sarah_Flagg describes only I feel things. 

    I can go into social situations and just feel what the people around me are feeling.  I don't charge for reiki because we have no evidence to back it, but I can seem to feel where people are having issues.  It always surprises me. LOL  I'm a huge skeptic. LOL  Thank you.  Interesting thread and it makes me feel a bit better.

    Very interesting you say that. Of course, we are human. As human as anyone else.

    It can be annoying at first. Do you have any knowledge of quantization of energy? Pauli exclusion principle? Heisenberg uncertainty principle? It may help.

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    34 minutes ago, Key Elements said:

    @Pyrrhocorax graculus

    Hold on..I'm not trying to judge ppl. I'm trying very hard to get along with them, so that we don't overstep each other boundaries. If a person is strict (maybe in blue), you can't just say whatever you want at him/her. Graves is a good guide; now that I'm applying it in India. 

    Ok. I'm asking if you feel that trying to get along is by becoming what they want you to be? To overstep boundaries would be to expect an influence outside of yourself. What do you need from them and them from you? Are there static values for belonging? Or does it change depending on what one of you want at the moment?

     

  18. Posted

    On 2/16/2016 at 0:54 PM, Sarah_Flagg said:

    I always get this tingle on my forehead, I went to the doctor for it actually. He told me that nothing was wrong and he wasn't sure what could cause it.

    I am just now slowly going to a raw diet. I eat two raw vegetarian meals a day and with one meal I still eat lean meat.

    Another weird thing that happens is that when I ask a question in my mind I will feel a breeze past my left or right ear. I swear I have a spirit in another realm helping me because consistently when I feel the breeze over my left ear it means no, over my right it means yes. So I actually base a lot of my big life choices off of this. Hasn't lead me wrong yet. 

    It does feel like I have an out of body experience, it feels extremely balanced. I am very content out of my body. My therapist did a lot of work with helping me feel like I am my body but we didn't make any big breakthroughs, I really just feel like a soul trapped in a body. 

    Another time something really weird happened was when I got pregnant, literally the night I conceived I had a similar experience. I could see myself and my husband sleeping in bed (looking down from the ceiling) and my grandmother (who has passed) came into the room and I saw her holding a baby in a blanket (it was blue) and she leaned over and put the baby in my stomach. She was made up of millions of little atom looking energies, but I could tell it was her. The next day I told my husband I thought I'd been dreaming and didn't think anything else of it. When I found out I was pregnant I was amazed and now I don't think it was a dream. I have an 18 month old son.

    Whenever it happens I feel elevated, but not like in a separate room seeing through walls or anything. I feel like I can see things in other rooms depending on how high I am when it happens. During a group meditation it happened and I saw my entire town, scared me so bad I haven't told a soul. 

    Look at this for your sensations. The descriptions section has lots of accounts that for instance are reported to a doctor. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini

    Of course, this is just another way of telling you the same things framed by western medicine that you are likely familiar with.

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    3 hours ago, Ida said:

    Okay, so to your subconscious mind, that's what you feel? :b

    Can't wait for the good weather to come! Looking forward to provoke and help the opressed female body! :3 

    Yes. I don't answer the original questions. Those things naturally have an effect, but knowing and loving someone for their core can be very different than wanting intimacy from them. That's a special bond. One that is the most Devine most of us may ever know. It takes serious work on one's self and dedication to yourself to develop this. But once you find it, even if you loose it, you'll never see the world the same again. And it opens your mind to see the soul of those that know theirs.

     In ways even psychedelics can't touch, per another discussion.

    But keep your eye on it bc it can get covered up quickly by life and old/new tendencies that all of us revert to in comfort or pain.

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    38 minutes ago, Emerald Wilkins said:

    Because of the paradoxical nature of truth and wisdom, it means that wisdom isn't a fixed state. A wise action one minute can be a foolish action the next. So, wisdom is a constantly changing state of being and not any particular insight. For example, when I was on the Ayahuasca, I had an insight that everything was one and that there was no barrier between myself and anything else in existence. I felt deep unconditional love for everyone and everything. So, after the experience was over, I sought to have no boundaries between myself and others and to attempt to practice unconditional love. This was foolish and sometimes unsafe. So, I choked out the more practical truth that a person needs healthy boundaries for the loftier truth that all boundaries are illusory. Also, I had an insight that so much of my striving for achievements were neurotic attempts to feel significant. I was in college, so I was then pulling myself in two opposite directions: trying to maintain my achievements and trying to stop being in the achievement mindset. My grades dropped a bit, and I always felt conflicted and guilty about achievement from that point forward. I'm still trying to reconcile that one a bit. So, my misunderstanding of paradoxical insights really threw me for a loop for years following my experiences.

    Once I perceived wholly that all of us have the potential to make the same achievements it became natural to enjoy them simply bc it was my life. I became a teacher eventually. With purpose to help others achieve more than myself. So, there you go. Make all the money you can spend. Learn all your mind can handle. Achieve the most you can. Just stay humble and never forget where you came from. Your achievements may help the whole world someday. In spite of those that would have you climb under a rock and hide them. But...do choose your battles relative to your circumstance wisely and remember patience can be your best friend.

  23. Posted

    9 hours ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

    I have a really great guy friend who claims that men have "rules" when dating. 

    For example; if a girl sleeps with you on the first date she is not "wife material". If a girl gives head on the first day, she's a slut.

    So I want more opinions. Do men actually care about:

    • Hooking up on the first date
    • If she is groomed shaved etc.
    • If she shows her sluttiness the first time you hook up. (He claims that men like a girl on the streets but freak in the sheet, but you can't show that side to soon or it's a no)

     

    Leo's videos about sexuality are really good for contemplation. Just be sure you are easy with it. Pick the people well before going far with them. Determine what really stirs you at your core so you can feel them quickly. 

    Being "his" is so important. But don't be abused. People often mistake kindness for weakness.

    Lots of people, for instance, only know love as defined by someone else. And remember there are emotional and sexual intimacy components. Both of which are intertwined and violation of either will seed doubt in both. So, it's important to develop an inner dwelling for you two to hold alone, no one else gets in there! Everyone else wants in it. It's their nature. So that's a lifelong practice for a couple in itself! Lots of people can't even have an inner dwelling of their own yet, so that must be accomplished for yourself first before one can expect to share it.

    And you have to remember how to "not give a f***" and walk away as fast as you walked up. It doesn't take long for things to go south with poor communication and lingering dependencies on others. This is only self inflicted torture to both parties.

    This topic could expand quite a bit!

  24. Posted

    On 2/7/2016 at 0:48 AM, Sarah_Flagg said:

    I really appreciate this answer, because now I question if my desire for an open marriage is lead by ego rather than inner awareness. Thus far, I've thought it was due to my inner awareness because prior to dealing with all my issues I couldn't not fathom why someone would want to live this way. However, after it seemed so appealing.

    How would one know if it is coming from their ego or inner awareness? 

    What the other people say is usually the ego talkin but when you find something intimate that you really like you won't want anything else. But then again women are tricky things. Even hours of sex and multiple orgasms whenever wanted from monogamy isn't enough to keep some people from acting on their own insecurities or what they feel as bonds  or dependencies to multiple sexual partners. 

    Kind of a letdown to me. I've got better things to do than subject myself to that hamster wheel. It gets you nowhere!!! Literally!

     

  25. Posted

    6 hours ago, Psychonaut said:

    Everyone is different, everyone reacts different to drugs, situations and external stimuluses. That is what psychedelics are, stimulants for the mind that can provide experiences that feel like they are out of this world. For me psychedelics are similiar to taking a trip to a new town, a new city etc. You see something new while still being able to stay in your comfort zone at home. For me this gives value to psychedelics. I think you have to believe that psychedelics can provide you something for them to give you anything. Otherwise taking them will just harden your believe that drugs are bad and useless.

    I have tripped 4 times on LSD with a good friend of mine. I feel I have gained a LOT more from it than he has. This saddens me a bit, but shows me that psychedelics aren't for everyone.

     

    Let's give you a quick rundown of my 4 experiences:

    1. time: 300ug LSD (not recommended for 1st time)

    This was a 24h rollercoaster, up down. I had to face almost all the issues I have. I couldn't run away. They were there and verrrry real. I thought about many things and discussed lots of stuff with my friend. It was generally a very positive experience and a turning point in my journey.

    What I learned:

    - To ask questions.

    - That my thoughts produce emotions.

    - That I can control the direction of my thoughts and by that I can also control the emotions I feel.

    What I changed after that:

    - I started to filter my emotions into good and bad and suppressed the bad ones. This took tremendous amounts of energy. I had a watchdog in place that was similiar to out of control police killing of all negative thoughts. More on why this approach didn't work later.

     

    2. time: 75ug LSD

    This one was kind of useless. I still had an overcontrolling mind, was absent and didn't let go. Showed that my approach to controlling all my thoughts was flawed and I had to let go and not overcontrol my mind.

     

    ...

    Some time between my 2nd and 3rd trip I found Leo's channel. I was especially interested in meditation and tried to figure out what it was about and if it would be useful for me.

     

    3. time 200ug LSD

    This was after a long travel, I was exhausted and tired. I will never take LSD in such a state again ever. In the first half of the trip I felt  really dead, no life, no energy. I have never felt so dead ever before. I didn't have suicidal thoughts, but I just felt like this trip was absolutely pointless. I had no weed either and my friend had a similiar experience. In the second part (the afterglow) of the trip I got an energy boost and thought about things that have bothered me for quite some time. I thought about going vegeterian and deleting my porn collection that I have spend hundreds of hours on collecting.

    Changes I made after that:

    - following day I started my daily meditation habit

    - deleted my porn

    - a week later I went vegetarian

     

    4. time 200ug LSD + 60mg 2C-B (my tolerance is very high ;-))

    I had the time of my life, I threw in the 2cb just for fun. I had followed through with my daily meditation and meditated before starting my trip. I also had bought lots and lots of fruit. Raspberries, blueberries, 2 kinds of grapes and oranges to enjoy on the trip. I was at peace during the whole duration of the trip. I had zero negative thoughts and no aggression for the first time on a trip. I was insanely happy, enjoyed my fruits to the fullest. This was not the kind of artificial happyness that other drugs provide, this felt real. Something that I created by making all the changes I made in my life because of the previous experiences.

    Changes I made after this:

    - 2 days later I started #nofap

     

    Tldr:

    I gained a lot from my experiences in a short time span of about 6 months. Psychedelics showed me the things I had to change and I changed them. Through good input from Leo's videos I changed lots of important things that affected my every day life in a positive way. Psychedelics showed me a slightly higher level of happyness/consciousness that I tried to reach after my experiences. If I hadn't gone out and tried to look for ways to achieve higher consciousness it would have been totally pointless.

    My friend which has joined me on my trips has gained a lot less in my opionion. I can not look into his mind, but from interacting with him not much has changed. He might be a little more positive, but he hasn't made any of the changes I have made. I talked to him about meditation multiple times and the benefits I have gained from it. But he hasn't started meditating yet to my knowledge. He doesn't have to and that's okay, you can't force people. He has a different mentality towards psychedelics, he expects a lot more from them than I do. I think he puts too much value in it and that limits the gains he gets from it.

    I'm not saying that psychedelics are the only way. People experience life changing experiences in different ways. But I am very thankful I'm still alive to tell my story and for all the gains I got from psychedelics.

    If you are here in this forum you are already on a path to higher consciousness and probably don't need psychedelics. I'm only here because I took psychedelics :-)

    Glow in the dark slinky time! Get the backlight out! 

    And yes there is a Christmas tree hanging upside down from the ceiling! Just like the slinky!

    What, what, what was that outside.....shhhhh

    Look....It's Johnny Depp surrounded by horny dinosaurs!