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Well, if you are thinking about Internet Marketing, then it will fry your brain even more. But the money is good. I have owned a few websites and worked with people selling penis enlargement pills and all that shit, very unsatisfying and numbing work. If you have some skills like copywriting, photoshop editing, etc., then you can try websites like UpWork or Fiverr. Translation on Fiverr is especially easy to get started, after 3 months you are earning a minimal wage and can only scale up from there, depending on how much you are willing to work.

Iboga is simply an overkill for social anxiety problems. It's like hitting a nail with excavator. Not this tool, not this size. I would only consider it an option in case of hardcore heroin addiction or 30-years-long alcohol addiction. Deaths from ibogaine happen even in "clinical" setting. Not to mention hospitalizations, those are common. There's a shit-ton of safer substances, that are also probably legal in your country (you have to check for yourself, as I don't know where you live), examples are: AL-LAD, 4-HO-MiPT or DPT. They can give you all that iboga has to offer and more.

A lot of good advice up there ^^^ @Light Lover Have you ever heard about Sycra? He is a YouTuber that seems to have answers for all your questions. He has videos on how to bootstrap your drawing practice, how to deal with feeling stuck, etc. He also has done a lot of contemplation on how to become a good artist, develop your own style and how to grow your skill. Stuff that you should be doing too, if you want to master this field. That's because your eye for noticing mistakes has developed faster than your drawing skills, every image looks like shit. You take that as a feedback, improve your sticking points and now every image looks godlike. Untill your eye adapts and notices more mistakes, then the whole thing goes again, and again. That's basically process of mastery wrapped up for you. That how it works, become aware of that and set proper expectations. If you lack motivation for sustaining everyday boring practice then I would suggest you to find yourself a goal that will reinvigorate you as you go. Something big, like co-working with your favourite artist, desiging a cover art for your favourite magazine or creating a poster for a continuation of movie you love. I would take any crazy idea and work my ass off to make it real! With right vision in your mind you will stop asking unproductive questions.

No, because Enlightment has nothing to do with that. And yes, because there's no reason why Enlightened person wouldn't behave such way. There's really no excuse for not doing both. Self-actualization and spiritual work. If something contradicts itself, then remember it's a feature not a bug. You have to learn how to deal with that on your own. The whole Reality is not as separate as it seems to be! Have I answered your question?

I have a very minimal approach. It's Evernote, so structure is limited compared to Microsoft's OneNote, you can't have a deep tree of hierarchy. Every big topic in my life gets it's own category. Rest is stuffed into Miscellaneous. In each category there's a Goals List note that is divided into: short-term, mid-term, long-term goals and archive. Properly tagged so I can access them any time. Notes are basic and heavily interlinked. I try to store there only important information, like techniques, exercises, photos, short and concise notes, etc. It's designed so I look into it, decide on what action to take, learn how to do it and then take it. This way there's no time wasted browsing around. There are also three journals, I write in these almost on a daily manner. The first one is called Daily. Here I write bulletpoints of important things that has happend throughout the day and judge wheter that results in me being a better or worse human being compared to day before. The next one is meditation log where I write all my sessions down and practical insights on practicing meditation in accompaniment. The last one is about workout, I write down every workout here and my basic metrics, body weight, etc. So I can know what works and what not and base my choices on that. I hope reading that will help someone with his/her own setup!

Then you are addicted just as much as people who you are bashing. Do you want to self-actualize first, instead of aiming for Enlightment? Then great, nothing is stopping you from doing that. Just don't hold it as an ultimate blueprint for everyone. Otherwise, you are causing unneccessary mayhem. All purposes are created. Dreaming is not an absolute purpose of life, there's none of such thing. It's only the purpose that you have created for yourself, please don't force it onto others. What if purpose of life is exploring reality as much as possible?

Here is another 10 lessons: Progress is not linear, it fluctuates, happens in jumps, gets exponential with time or is very quick in the begining and then stops. Get used to that and set proper expectations The key to psychedlics is consistency, breaking once might be not enough. Also, it's like with meditation, it only increases chances of Enlightenment strucking you like a lightning. Plus the effects stack up. Little 10 minutes exercicses done everyday stack up exponentially. Examples are free-associations exercise, meditation, stretching, rehabilitation, learning about nutrition from YT, journaling, etc. It's crucial for health to exercise at least for 1 hour a day. But any amount will do. And the more, the better. Theory =/= practice. Some things look great on paper, but in practice are completly different. For example, science, it should be open-minded and objective, but in real life is almost an opposite. Cut a shit that doesn't work from your life. Replace it with new promising shit. Optimize, repeat, until you are no longer here. STOP, making a narration. Don't beat yourself up. Simply start working towards better future. Be patient to a hardcore extent. Your body asks for however much sleep it needs. Don't try to manipulate, but listen to it. Put the right fuel and you will be good to go. You can get to as low as 4 hours of sleep if you have a very contemplative lifestyle. Your mind responds to: pictures you make in your head & the words you say to yourself. Visualisation practice is very beneficial and not as easy as it seems. Understanding is the key to mastering emotions. You need to understand why people make certain choices or behave in some way in order to gain emotional mastery. Emotional turmoil is just misunderstanding or lack of understanding of social dynamics. Plus bonus one for everyone reading. "Is it cosmically important or a trivial point?" Cool thing to ask yourself.

You can always streamline your notes. Just read through them and choose 1-3 insights from each and put it in another note, that's more accessible. A lot of stuff that Leo says repeats, so you will have every valuable insight there after some time anyways. And with more practical stuff like meditation tips, you can make another note that you will place higher in hierarchy and thanks to that read it more often. If it's hard to judge what's important while you watch, then I see no problem in distilling information after you are done with it. And be ok with loosing some value, that's just how it is in nature.

Most games abuse psychology the same way or even worse as ads do. Overstimulation and addiction are main dangers. The same arguments that go against porn could go against games. Some games are very bad, some are ok and from a few you can even benefit and learn something. But most developers want to make serious money on their games, so they create very bad, addictive ones and that's what people play the most. Playing a game is mostly a "short-term pleasure vs. long-term satisfaction" argument. In my opinion it just can't ever satisfy you and after few years you will wake up with regret and remorse. I am only 19 and I already feel like I have wasted a lot of my early potential by watching cartoons and playing video games. And I wasn't even that into playing! It feels like instead of becoming a full fledged human being, I am a mass produced product without character that stills needs to grow up. Thankfully, now I have the choice! And I choose not to play games.

I like how it's actually a definite statement about avoiding definite statements. I know it's probably written that way to strenghten the argument, but also shows how paradoxical conveying insights through language can get.

Remove. I find myself guilty of judging others by reputation and trying to mantain good reputation to number of posts ratio. The more you read, the more you remember who writes what, who's posts are interesting for you and who's not, so in the end you don't need that reputation system.

When it comes to spirituality, that's a limiting belief. I was looking for a proof of my existence and couldn't find it. I could only deduct that with logic, which is faulty and unreliable, because it runs in circles. After you get that all thoughts lack any content, then it's easier to grasp that emotions and physical reality are empty too. It's weird to become aware of this for the first time, everything starts to loose meaning and seems like a masquerade. But hey, I am nowhere near being Enlightened, so maybe I just fell into the hole and the opposite is true. Back to Derrida. Be very cautious with dosing. Last time when I have plugged the whole book I had a terrible bad trip. Ok, no more stupid jokes, back to seriousness. I have found the last episode about him very beneficial too. And the thing with inducing psychedelic-like experiences while being sober is totally real and works great. Lucid dreaming is also a great tool. Even having fainted can be a spiritual experience that moves you forward in the journey if you have enough background and practice to interpret it correctly. I am speaking from my own experience.

Personally I don't want to take this route. I would like to take my time after high school and figure out a life purpose, develop myself more, etc. On the other hand it may seem like delaying growing up, because I don't want to specialize. You know, as a youngster you are full of possibilities, which you loose after you choose a specialization. But isn't taking anything as subject of study the same as delaying a choice? Because either way you won't give yourself fully to studying the subject. I have a neutral stance towards this. Curious what others have to stay.

You might be wrong here. I mean, how can you know for sure? Have you even tried? I am very open minded to such possibility. I don't say I could go to a desert and show you that right now, BUT it doesn't seem so impossible. People make even more grandiose statements about what is possible. Like for example becoming actually Enlightened.

Music definitely alter direction and mood of the trip, so choose wisely. Some gongs, white-noise and nature sounds seem to be the most neutral solution if you want to kill background noise. Because sometimes having music is better than sitting in a loud environment.

@egoless Could you please mention substance and dosage. Report feels incomplete without that.

That's a difference between having a broad understanding and going straight into the labor, that means meditating. And how do you develop the understanding? You read books, attend seminars, retreats, find teachers, trip on psychedelics. Do this for 3 years and 5 years of work will bring more benefit than 50 years of dabbling in meditation without a sense of direction.

In the same place where your past and future is. Nowhere.

Is this a kind of bussiness you can quit after a few years? If yes, then I see no problem with going for financial freedom first and then changing direction. Don't stop looking for possible life purpose and grow your bussiness.

If you have no experience you can babystep, but if you have already known other psychedelics in fairly high doses, then I would go straight for 3g. While I do agree with McKenna on that matter, I don't want anyone to suffer pointlessly, so take every word with caution.

I have liked it too. Maybe you will also enjoy this movie (The Salt of the Earth) as I did.

Just imagine how good it feels to reside in such body. Doing every move with ease, being aware of what is happening inside it. Learning how to control your body can paradoxically lead you to the conclusion that there's nothing to control. Spirituality, EVERYWHERE

@egoless self-inquiry, obviously

I am trying to figure it out for myself right now, so I can't share with you any proven method. Currently I am trying to write down a report everytime I go out and analyze my mistakes. It's hard, so fucking hard. To get more aware of what is right and wrong I watch Charisma on Command videos and read books like Deida's "The Way of The Superior Man" and then analyze stuff I have written again. I don't know, maybe you haven't tried that approach. You ask so many questions that I actually believe one day you will break-through and succeed. Just don't give up trying.

There are different ways of developing charisma and confidence than pickup. Stop being a victim.