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I would keep doing some grounding practices, like Maha Mudra for example. It's not always black and white whether to continue practice or not. Sometimes energies let loose could do even more damage. This field is hard to navigate.

@Andreas This whole argument is pointless. You have wrongly interpreted what was being said in the beginning. The ecto-, meso-, endomorph example was brought up not to say that certain people are just fat or thin because of their genetics, but to highlight the fact that fat will look different on them. Someone can be overweight but look fairly normal, thanks to their body type. I don't know what's so hard to grasp there.

@RichardY Is everything ok? I am asking because you are babbling.

Not having ejaculation is super easy when you practice Kriya Yoga. Without any additional training, I can control whether I want to ejaculate or not and when. I can also last way longer (we are talking about masturbation here).

Yes, it happens as a side effect of consciousness work or anxiety. But there could also be medical reasons, so go see your doctor anyway.

@Commodent Your avatar is terrible to my mental health. I got scared.

I build strength in legs by taking a bike to hilly terrain, setting gear high so I can barely push it uphill and riding like that. The best scheme for building strength I found is 5x5, but I haven't done much research, so there might be better ones. Doing jumps, Superman flying push-ups or flags can be an entertaining way to improve your whole body.

So, that's why you have never talked and probably never will about the "mysterious substance" from the previous retreat?

It will never be gone. It will evolve into something greater. You talk about arrogant people. They are not like that because of religion, but their stage of development. If you remove religion they will find something else to be arrogant about. BTW, have you noticed that your hate towards religion is also arrogant and aggressive? Maybe your attitude towards religion is just a projection of your shadow side.

Yup, I have made the mistake of underappreciating this tendency. Doubled 4-HO-MiPT dosage (it's like mushrooms) and got blown away. The comedown was stronger than a peak of half the dose. The trip also lasted substanially longer.

Do it! Go for the full dose. No music, no distractions. Watch the reality unwind itself. The mushrooms or ego will try to scare you, but if you are able to bear with whatever they serve you, you will be rewarded.

When it comes to Wilber's books, I have liked Unbounded the most.

Very similar to yours. I have done some research and calculation into that, it turns out to be more like 6 months to earn enough. Good work opportunities are in a summer-resort type of cities or big ones where you can find an easy night job. Those pay better and sometimes allow you to read books, listen to audiobooks, etc.

My ego was like: "I don't want to leave this place, why is it only 10 days??" @moon777light If you want advice, I can tell you to find a comfortable sitting position in which you can sit without a move for one hour straight. Maybe do some stretching before the retreat if no position is that comfortable to you. I had to sit on two zafus, otherwise, my knees hurt too much.

Heh, I have seen similar situation on my last Vipassana retreat. The mother couldn't bear for longer than 5 days and was ranting to the teacher that she constantly hears "anicca, anicca" in her head because of recordings with instructions so she can't meditate. Are you going to Poland? There's a great center there. Dhamma Pallava. Built from the ground as a Vipassana retreat center and it's a huge facility.

Have you ever seen 20 ml syringe? Good luck sticking it up your butt, I know you can buy an additional long, slim tip, but still. A few quotes from the link you have posted: (usually, 1-3ml is plenty, you want as little water as possible while still properly dissolving your dose) (1-5ml is usually plenty, depending on substance and solvent) Not even once does it mention using 10 ml of solvent. Especially to dissolve 10 mg of 5-MeO. You could use this amount to dissolve more like 200 mg. 1 ml will be plenty for up to 25 mg or so.

Maybe try some Hatha Yoga. When I had kriyas, I did a few poses. I had felt something resembling flames escaping through the hands and my kundalini symptoms passed away.

1 ml syringe. Do your research, read some plugging/rectal administration guide, because you are asking ridiculous questions.

I think it means pause before the Medulla and after the Medulla. ...om, om, om, pause, om at the medulla, pause, om...

Day and night game. Of course not. Every single one of the areas you have mentioned would deserve a course on its own. I am talking about the direct impact. Indirectly, yes, there could be some influence, as with any self-help course. When you buy a course you don't pay for the information that's freely available, but for the way it's structured and presented to you.

I just circle around/highlight certain parts and read only them when re-reading fast. Yup, I was pretty OCD about making any marks in books, too, but got over it eventually. There's just too much wisdom to write down everything into the note app. That's why I don't use the library anymore and buy my own copies, so I can scribe in them freely.

@herghly What do you mean by bufo? This discussion is not about bufo alvarius venom containing 5-MeO-DMT, but yopo snuffs containing 5-HO-DMT, which other name is bufotenin.

Yes, The Natural by RSD Max Berger. I am very satisfied with the results. This course is a full package, guiding you through every step and giving clear calls to action. It covers everything from having the right mindset, through teaching you needed skillsets, to showing everything LIVE in action. Two areas where it lacks are relationship management and sex instructions, but there's already a lot of information on these topics on the web and the rookie doesn't really need it. I had studied quite a bit of dating advice before doing this course with little to no results. So it was a gamechanger for me, as finally everything started to click after watching it. The System by Todd Valentine also seems like a good resource, but I haven't tried it personally.

Still, meditation/yoga can be your passion and you can make a business around it. @Shiva Great post.

@CreamCat He probably was sleeping that low, because of anxiety caused by the transition to doing LP. It's not like you can choose how much you want to sleep when you are being haunted by dreadful thoughts.