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I had acne on my face the next day, which I almost never have.

@Enlightenment What the... No it isn't for sure. I would bet on some Ketamine-derivative, but Leo says he doesn't like addictive substances.

@billiesimon Amp it up. Maha Mudra + Second Kriya Pranayama + Yoni Mudra, that should be your base set. Twice a day if you can. You are probably not doing it enough. Also concetrate for at least 10 minutes. 20 or more would be ideal, but there's not always time. You can also concetrate on a point 20 cm in front of your forehead with your eyes open if you don't like to concentrate as described in the book.

I have had unwanted symptoms from kriya practice. They have all passed. But I am free of any drugs. Who knows how yoga interacts with antidepressants. You are taking an offroad ride and exploring uncharted territories. Were you anxious in life before starting spiritual journey? I hope that doesn't mean you are ruining your reputation and looks, because that would be highly undesirable and adding to your anxiety.

Do you talk about the psychological side or does it cause bodyload too?

@ElvisN Don't believe in fairytales. It's not 5-MeO.

@Jcent Yes, but if I decide on that, I would be doing it Joseph Campbell-style. Living in the mountains with lots of books and free time. I really need to think it through.

@Jcent Why? Because I have finished high school without a clear sense of purpose. Then killed a business to go to college, just like you. Then dropped out, because what I have gone to study, that is eco-energy, seemed great on paper but turned out to be not suited well for me. I wasn't eager to go there in the first place too. I have to work to survive, so right now I go to a job for 6 hours, do Kriya Yoga twice a day, read a lot of books and work with the life purpose course.

Cool. I can't really decide whether to pursue spirituality hardcore right now, or build a bussiness first. I guess that puts me in the limbo phase. Gonna do 7 days contemplation retreat and decide at the end of it what to do.

@Pernani You can do kriya in whatever sitting posture you find comfortable, no preparation required. You can couple it with hatha yoga, but it's not needed.

You should really meditate 2 hrs everyday minimum. People say that less is enough, but they are only doing that to bait you in. 2 hours daily is really not that much. People manage to do 4 hours a day and go to work. You can cut 1 hour of sleep in lieu of meditation. You can start with 10 minutes, but progress to 2 hours in 6 months or faster if you can. And don't just "meditate". Find a concrete technique like mantra meditation, transcendental meditation, kriya yoga, self-inquiry or vipassana.

Yes, and it's generally the same plan every time. Chill and relax till the peak, turn off the music, contemplate the shit out of the substance, grab a snack and go on a walk to integrate on the comedown. Alternatively, if I had wanted to explore magical realms, I would play music, lay on the couch with a blanket, close my eyes and don't leave my "nest" for the whole trip.

Yes.

It's an energy and you lack control of it. I bet all my simoleons that Mahamudra will help you. It has helped me. Plus, I have noticed that whatever anxiety one has it just makes the symptoms worse. So getting rid of anxiety is something worth focusing on.

@Tony 845 I don't remember, do you practice Kriya Yoga? If yes, then Maha Mudra + Kriya Pranayama combo is an excellent kundalini silencer.

@Aaron p Go to the chapter explaining Kechari Mudra, it's all explained here.

J.C. Stevens book with Kriya Yoga practices. Maybe I could master it all. Would never take "The Power of Now", it's entry-level weaksauce. Sorry guys I have loved in the past too but coming back to it now there's nothing interesting.

Book a spot at a 5-MeO-DMT ceremony #priorities #spiritualgoals But seriously, I would invest it in developing my career capital. Living off the money and learning new skills, or attending a few conferences and making meaningful connections, etc. Anything that would enable me to earn more in the future and have a bigger impact on my life purpose.

https://80000hours.org/career-guide/ is a good free career course if you don't have money to spend on Leo's Life Purpose Course.

But why the hell would you expect something else from people? If you think you are that genuinely good person and others should b like you, then think twice. Your ego might be playing games with you. That doesn't seem like a description of a happy person. I don't know who would it apply to. I think that even the most Enlightened people help others purely for fun because there's nothing better to stuff their time with. Because you have a skewed worldview. Travel to other countries, get therapy or just force yourself to meet new people if you have enough will power. Or work directly on your hidden traumas, there are techniques for that like psychedelics or shamanic breathing.

Meditation habit is a huge investment and is not directly aimed at the issue OP has. I would suggest trying other, more direct solutions to anxiety first.

You have NPC energy Maybe people do it because doing good feels good? If you don't have that reaction built-in within you then I understand why it might be hard to grasp.

Why yogis don't eat much? To not be so full of shit all the time.

@Truth Addict There's no difference between God and Nothingness, so there's no comparison. That's stating a fact.

Yes, I have just thought about it and wanted to delete the sentence. This one is like a strange loop. You move your thoughts towards God and wonder how could you possibly divide Nothing, but then look at the world and see that it is divided.