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@MsNobody nice one

I'm gonna jump in re: tolerance too. Tolerance is a bit complex. 2 weeks could be too early. You definitely trip after 2 weeks, but theres some less chance of that groundbreaking magic. You can't expect the level of magic that you'd otherwise get with a much longer break. On the other hand, sometimes you get the magic anyways, even the next day or a couple days later, depending on what's going on in life, your energy flow, your environment. Theres so much interplay with your life and psyche with psychedelics, it's so different from other drugs that are more directly causational. Sex is a really good analogy. You can definitely have amazing sex right two days in a row, but it's less likely to be amazing that second time the next day than if you waited a few more days. Adjusted for your own libido and recharge times Likewise for psychedelics there is a recharge period and it's going to depend a lot on your own personal "psychedelic libido" let's say, where you're at in your life, what's going on in that moment and so on. I think the stress affected the trip. It definitely would for me anyways. Another possibility is that the tabs were not evenly laid, and that you actually dosed a lot less the second time. That can happen. Theres also seems to be some plain randomness to response. Personally at this point I'm never disappointed with a weak trip..I find a lot of value at pretty much any dosage. Edit: another thing to add.. the negative content of your trip is not to be blamed on "bad acid". If its LSD, its LSD. LSD is LSD is LSD. The trip doesnt come from the drug, it comes from your mind. The drug just potentates your mind, it's an open-ended and powerful catalyst.

Yes absolutely! I think you will have better results if you work on your self holistically like this, everything is interconnected. For example, your leadership skills will improve as you communicate your intentions better. Your communication skills will improve as you learn to better lead people through the story/idea you are telling.

@Peo good to have a vision! @Jed Vassallo cool project!

@Peo I don't think a one year solo retreat is super realistic. If you're the exception and you can do this, you probably would know it pretty deeply. Have you tried a 1 week or 10 day retreat already?

I'd like to remind all the guys on here that OP is specifically asking for girls' advice. We males tend to overwhelm this forum, let's sit back a bit and let the ladies talk a bit eh? I think we could all learn something by giving some space here ( I recognize that I'm being a hypocrite as a male posting this )

I'll echo what @zikzak said: it wouldn't be a good idea to try to cure your bro's delusions/trauma with 5-MeO-DMT. It would be at least as likely to exacerbate the issues as help them. Sonoran Toad secretions' effects are primarily due to 5-MeO-DMT, however there are other compounds present as well that probably affect it. A more significant difference is all of the set and setting that comes along with vapourizing a toad secretion alongside a guide or facilitator, usually in a very special prepared place, usually involving some kind of journey to get there. If there were a chance of this kind of thing being helpful, it would be with the help and guidance of a very experienced practitioner. Still risky and I'd just give your brother a lot of love and assurance.

Cool @Aeris thanks for changing the subject and focus! ? Yes that might be a good idea to have a miscellaneous section on here for stuff that doesn't fit anywhere else.

Yes, agreed it can be a bit of fun, it's a point of view etc. Totally agree that Joe Rogan is a brilliant interviewer. I would just like to keep this forum out of the rabbit-hole of far fetched alien conspiracy land - without getting into any debates about the legitimacy of this stuff. Unless you're in the secret government department of Alien Comms, let's just say it's not really relevant to the average self-actualizer. There's plenty of this kind of material elsewhere on the internet for those who want to indulge.

@Aeris Thanks. I don't believe "Aliens speaking to the Government" relates to the definition you just provided. I'll keep this thread open for now, but let's try to stay on topic in this forum please.

I think family is stage purple. I think before kids most people in our society are fundamentally beige (you are actually still looking out for #1 deep down inside, you would not actually give your life for your tribe, society, the planet), but operating in day to day life at orange, blue and green. After kids most people become fundamentally purple (you're deeply looking out for family as #1, you would actually, literally, give your life for your kids), but operating at orange, blue, green. A pet theory about how parenthood changes people.

I don't see how this relevant to the topic "Meditation, Consciousness, Enlightenment, Spirituality "

@Mikael89 I'm glad to hear that your higher survival instinct protected you. Don't destroy what you've been given. You'll die no matter what eventually, but you only get this life once. Please talk to a proper psychologist or councillor IRL about your suicidal feelings, you're not going to get the right kind of attention on internet forums.

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Even if you're going to be a wage slave grades are irrelevant. Once you're out of school, no one cares about your grades. The only people that will ever look at your grades are other academic institutions. That being said, you care about your grades. Get good grades because it's harder than getting bad grades. Get good grades because you'll feel good about it, and it indicates you're mastering the subject, and getting the most out of your education. If you work hard and learn the material, get good grades, you'll leave school more confident and be better at learning. DO Leo's LPC course as well, but don't sacrifice your home stretch of high school for that. The LPC course is something you can be flexible with.

You should definitely talk to a doc about this and not rely on any kind of information coming at you over this forum. There's no way anyone can give you any kind of accurate diagnosis on here. If I were you I'd definitely get my iron levels checked out. Did you look at that when you got your bloodwork done?

I don't think you should actively try to hard to move your friends along the spiral. It will probably backfire, come off as preachy/evangelical etc. But if you do notice them moving in one direction you can be there to help support and foster that growth. You can be the environment that the growth happens within. Embody the next stage yourself, and it will naturally have an effect on the people around you. You can't help a flower blossom by opening up the bud, it all comes in it's due course. But when that flower does begin to open, appreciate it's beauty and give your buddy some good water.

Please go ahead and ask questions directly, that's the whole point. It's not rude at all. Lol. gross

@Eric Tarpall if this forum was full of female virgins making these kind of complaints on a daily basis, I would crack down on it. We don't have that problem here. You've specifically said that you haven't come here for advice. If you want to have incel/mgotw/red pill discussions with no intent of moving forward in your life, there are numerous forums on the internet that welcome that kind of thing. These types of discussions do not belong here. This is a forum for self actualization and self-improvement.

@Scholar it's kind of in jest, but it's something I've heard other people say too, and there's some truth to it. The thing is that psychedelics are essentially content-free, and you get out of them what you put in. They don't specifically do anything to your mind, and sometimes while tripping it can be pretty hard to put your finger on what it is exactly that's different. Psychedelics can be compared a hi-fi, hi-res amplifier for your mind, so if your mind is fully empty and neutral in meditation, you've just got silence turned up all the way, with no added noise floor.

@Eric Tarpall please don't use this community as a platform to vent, it's not what this is about, and is considered borderline trolling. It's a waste of attention spans and degrades the quality of this forum. It would be more productive for everyone if you could look at the small steps that you could take to improve this department of your life, share your progress, or come for specific help in these areas.

Yes I would agree for sure. On a related note, there was an informal poll put out I think by Tricycle magazine some time ago, and IIRC, it found that while most modern western zen monks don't encourage people to take psychedelics, most of them had in fact taken them at some point, and for many of them it was an acid trip that sent them down that path in the first place. It's a controversial thing, and it definitely mostly meets disapproval in western zen buddhism, and there's definitely no formal place for it in the practice, but it's hard to deny that "it's around" at least in the past for many monastics' lives. This legend has been well questioned. Many people say the dude just palmed the acid and never really took it. If he did actually take, it would definitely be possible for an experienced meditator to sit it out and feel like it did nothing, or claim that at least. Psychedelics are just an extremely powerful placebo after all.

A quick 5-MeO-DMT trip report: 8mg intranasal Was feeling the pull to reconnect with 5-MeO-DMT for a few days now. Took this pretty, pretty late in the eve after everything had quietened down. I expected it to be a very light dose, but it turned out to be more than sufficient, and the perfect dose for this moment in my life. I'm not sure if it's because I'm so freaking old (compared to most on here apparently anyways), or if it's cause I've tripped so much psychedelics in my life, or if I'm just plain sensitive, but this was a very powerful, sub-breakthrough trip. Mind slowed all the way down, allowing a perfect bridge between my subconscious, heart and conscious mind. Monkey mind was basically shut off, allowing long periods of near-perfect stillness, advanced meditation. Near the beginning of the trip, a pretty big problem that I hadn't been consciously aware of became salient. I didn't probe it, but after a long period of peace and silence the solution bubbled up spontaneously. This trip was filled with a joy. Spent most of it very still, huge smile pouring joy out of my face. I think they got the names wrong and that 5-MeO-DMT is the real Ecstasy. This trip felt akin to the captain/navigator going on deck in the night with the wind filled in the sails, taking readings of the stars and correcting the course, while the crew and passengers slept soundly below. I happened to have a heart rate monitor, and my HR was very low the whole time, at around 48-50bpm. This is reflective of the deep peace that I experienced on the trip. Part of the purpose of writing this report was to show that you don't need to hit yourself over the hammer with a massive breakthrough dose all the time. There's a lot of talk of the larger end of the dose spectrum on here, and there's definitely a place for that, but I just wanted to draw attention to the fact that the lower end of the dose spectrum can be very valuable as well. For me personally, 8mg was plenty powerful. Everyone's different, and every moment of your life will be different. 5-MeO-DMT is amazing material.

I've got a lot of friends having kids with the woman in their very late 30s, even one in her early 40s. A lot of the fertility data that's floating around is very old data apparently, we're younger at an older age than we used to be if you know what I mean. 40s is pushing it for sure, but it seems like a lot of people are making it happen later than we're being told you should. Basically I'm saying, you got time. Maybe you won't want kids. Maybe you'll be like my wife and I. We're not really into kids but it's completely different when they're your own. It's hard for me to imagine feeling like I've had a full life without kids being part of it. There's not a greater love you can experience imo.