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  1. I've been thinking about mushrooms, but I am a little taken aback that they could have long lasting mental problems. Anyone has some negative feedback on psychedelics? It doesn't have to be as severe as HPPD. Anything you can tell me will only educate me, so thank you.
  2. Hello, I hope I can get your help, I am stuck in my spiritual work, and I think I need to try a psychedelic. Could you tell me which one is good to try? Unfortunately, I don't think I have access to 5-MeO DMT, but anything else? Thank you
  3. Thank you for the words of wisdom. How do I know that this cycle will stop? It hasn't stopped in the past, so who is to say I won't go my whole life disappointing myself at every corner? Me. How can I love myself, and I am not talking about the shower kind of love?
  4. Hey, long time no see, a lot has changed. I am at the point where I don't care whether I have sweets or not. I just let the uncertainty take its course. What I noticed is that days where I binge are spreading out. Last time I binged to my heart's content was maybe 3 weeks ago. Loser for me means someone who either doesn't even start things because he is too scared or too lazy, or someone who does start things but doesn't follow through, and even if he does, he still feels like a failure. I don't know how to see myself as an accomplished person, I think therein lies the dilemma. Very well said, thank you. Basically, I should always look inwards for values, not in the outside world. However, I sense this force that I can only describe as "doubt" no matter what I do or where I go. It follows me around like a ghost, and I can't seem to get out of the box. If I could stop this process of doubting myself every time I look inwards, perhaps I could get out of the mindset. It's just not happening. I don't know why. Thank you, I will look into it. Well, sometimes I feel like running away or giving up, and when I feel like a loser, it's almost a relief that I don't have to try anything. So I guess you could say that it makes running away or giving up feel good.
  5. I don't know how to strip off the label "loser" out of my head. HELP! I have this great doubt on my mind all the time. The worst part is I don't know how to shake it off. Are there any techniques or exercises?
  6. WHAT I HAVE DONE SO FAR I have registered for my math classes. WHAT I NEED TO DO The next big thing will be developing a studying habit, attending class, and trying my best to do these classes. THE NEXT STEP Finish Calculus and Advanced Functions Grade 12 math classes.
  7. WHAT I HAVE DONE SO FAR Decided I want to become a pilot. I don't have any education, any experience....NADA. All I have is the determination to do this. WHAT I NEED TO DO The first thing I will be doing is going back to high school to complete Calculus and Advanced Functions (Grade 12 Maths). I will need a minimum grade of %65. THE NEXT STEP Register for these classes in an adult high school.
  8. I have a fear of success and a fear of failure. I am scared to work for my goals because I am scared things will get hard and I will quit. Please tell me if there is anything I can do? Do you have a similar situation that you would like to share with me? And how you overcame your own demons? Thank you!
  9. Sounds like schizophrenia more than anything else
  10. Hate to be devil's advocate, but aliens are such bullshit. It's just a great scam for people to clench their teeth into. If there are aliens, we would have encountered them like in the movie Independence Day, not like the movie Men in Black. Intelligence is probably very rare in the universe, and take into account the vast distances they would have to traverse to reach us. Who knows, maybe they exist, maybe they don't, but this story is most definitely another Roswell sympathizer. That Jaime Maussan character seems to have been discredited in the past for creating hoaxes. What do you want me to say? Astrology is dying so the next big racket is ufology?
  11. Yes, I definitely have a perfectionistic delusion similar to or exactly like yours, all though by now, I hope, it has calmed down somewhat. In the past, I was driven by fear (stress, pressure, anxious thoughts) to get things done that I didn't want to do. With meditation it's hard to feel the same stress or pressure to motivate myself to work. So in a sense meditation backfired for me because now I simply don't give a damn. However, I realize there is more to it than that, and I must keep my faith for the process.
  12. Thank you for that analysis. I know I don't love myself fully because there are still issues within my life that I feel I am in a state of being "stuck" with. For example, I hate the idea of work. I am petrified of work, or doing things that I don't feel like doing - a typical Millennial attitude towards living (not that every single Millennial rationalizes this way). I have been trying to accept myself as I am for a long time, yet every single time I am reminded of that I need to "get things done", I procrastinate. I really want to make my dad proud because he is a hard working man who has always valued doing things, even if it meant sacrificing time for things you like. So you see, these little inner conflicts are a part of my daily reality. Well, the way I see it is that my question is an idea, but my state of joy is idea-less. It' s a battle between trying to logically appreciate life, and just appreciating life as it is. There is something in my head (and in most other people, I am sure) that wants to understand things, to organize the universe, and to have the answers laid out on paper. Slowly, but surely, however, I am seeing that it's an exhaustive, counterproductive loop. The only way to have the answer is to stop looking for it, and convince myself that regardless of the answer, just be. And what I really understand now is that life is a process by which I keep on reminding myself to love and accept. Thank you for that poem, it's a beautiful way to look at things. And here is something I noticed: When I am on this forum - I try to rationalize my existence, When I meditate - I sense the subtle nature of acceptance, And when I live my daily life - I try to rationalize my existence and sense the subtle nature of acceptance at the same time, It's all a battle within.
  13. Do you ever have your own thoughts?
  14. If no other person can make me happy, then how can I, another person, make myself happy?