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  1. @kieranperez You're a good dude. I don't post here a lot but I read your posts. I see that you care a lot about leading a meaningful life and that is all that matters. I relate to you a lot because I'm coming from shitty circumstances but I think what sets us apart is the wisdom and foresight to see that raising consciousness is the most important thing in life. I think we will look back and cherish this hardship we are going through because we would never grow without it. We are both still very young (I'm 22) and if we just persist in stuff like meditation, books, benevolence, love etc. we will find ourselves living a happy, fulfilling life. I believe in you man, I want you to succeed just like everyone here. Everything is gonna be alright <3
  2. For me ego death happens so gradually I don't even notice. I just find myself sitting, not knowing my name, how do I look, where am I, that I'm human, that I'm alive, that I have a family... nothing I just exist.
  3. Permanent ego death is unnecessary, nothing has to die for you to stop identifying with it.
  4. I think it's a great example. Nithyananda is enlightened no doubt. Just check out his book Living Enlightenment, don't even read it just look at the table of content (you can download the book for free). He obviously has valid insights into the true nature of reality and he has built an organization around that. But something fucky is clearly going on there since his followers are so defensive and worshiping him like a incarnation of God. This girl Kundalini Yogini is his follower and she also has some valid stuff to say, but there is also a lot of new age bullshit mixed in I would say. She claims she manifested heaps of money out of nothing (like it literally just appears in her bank account) and that swami ji is writing her collage exams for her, she just writes his name on the back and she gets 100%. I'm not even denying that stuff is true, but it looks like this swami dude is using his powers to attract followers and make them worship him. People benefit a lot from this dude, but they worship him too much and that will probably bite them in the ass in the future. No way that dude in the OP video is enlightened though lol, he's deluded as fuck.
  5. Very inspiring to watch someone's process of awakening, thanks for sharing!
  6. Direct path is the best. In my experience it's not hard at all to find the I AM, since I always AM. The easiest way to "find" it is to find that ONE thing that never changed in your experience. The thing that felt the same when you were 7 years old and right now. The problem is that AMness is always left in the background as we focus solely on objects in experience. The bulk of the work is getting that formless presence in front of the experience and letting it completely recontextualize it. Good stuff @SoonHei just keep being YOU, nothing else to do
  7. @herghly What do you mean by strong? You probably get different results, but you can get awakening with both. Try them both for a month and see what you like. What practice work depends more on you than the practice itself, there are a million ways to get results.
  8. Check out books by Reginald A. Ray. He's a Buddhism scholar and he teaches Tibetan yoga practices which are very body focused. Books: Touching Enlightenment : Finding Realization in the Body The Awakening Body Practice of Pure Awareness
  9. @Aaron p Regular DMT is less potent than 5-meo so you definitely need higher doses with it to breakthrough. I suggest smoking the NN though, you just won't get what it has to offer with snorting.
  10. @Aaron p I think people scream on 5-meo mostly when they smoke it because it knocks them out and they're not really aware of their surroundings. I also took 450ug when my parents were sleeping and they had no clue. I can tell you it's a lot easier to stay low-key on 5-meo than on high dose acid trip.
  11. That's straight up wrong. Do you stop being yourself when you think? Test this in your experience right now. When you think a thought, do you suddenly vanish out of existence? No. You and thoughts can exist simultaneously, but identifying with them creates trouble. You are eternal, your thoughts are impermanent, hence when you identify with them you constantly fear being annihilated. When you realize what you truly are, you will literally feel immortal. You are always you. You always were you. The problem is you don't know what the fuck are you. Make finding out what are you your first priority.
  12. You could say that being aware of being aware is the end and then that's where I am. But you can definitely get so absorbed in the end that you forget that you ever had a body and get chewed up by insects in a cave. Also I routinely get floored by psychedelics but that's a few hours tops fortunately
  13. Agree 100% You can't grasp the I AM with the mind. There is no other way to communicate it than through the dream though, so nothing we say can possibly be the truth, it can point towards it (like your quote) . Who cares if it's all masturbation we're all trying to express some cool shit we experience and maybe we point someone in the right direction in the process and he gets frigging enlightened in the end boom we're all happy.