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    @Leo Gura @deci belle

    Maybe i didn't express myself clearly. My point was not to bash certain books, but to say that when reading book that has been written from within there's like this confirmation coming from your guts that "yes i know this". But when reading books written from mind, they are all just concepts and there's no inner confirmation about it's contents.

    I just think it's a wonderful feeling. There's a deeper knowing in me that already knows that.

    So my question was that do you guys feel this difference?

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    Hi!

    I've been listening to shitloads of audiobooks and read lots books about spirituality and mastering your mind. Everytime i've started to read/listen a book i've had an open mindset towards it's teachings. What i have noticed is that on some teachings there's like deeper understanding of what is being said. Examples of this are: old buddhist dharma, books by eckhart tolle, matt kahn's teachings and the way of superior man. Then there's books that create concepts of how universe works with law of attraction, while i agree there can be some truth in to it, i find it they often simplify how universe works. There's no deeper understandment of the words for me. Same with books that are completely mind based.

    Just thought if you guys would've had similiar experiences. That on some teachings you just know it's true?

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    4 minutes ago, Shin said:

    Yeah, and the next step is to incorpore your very senses that makes what you think reality real in it.

    Yes there are interactive sex toys already and they will probably be developed further before they invent some chip that has access to nervous system. So business wise, porn industry might be good investement. The vr technology will develop and become more common so that people will be even more lost in devices than now.

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    Around 1,5 months behind. I've lately started noticing decreased interest towards sexuality. I'm starting to see how my life was mainly focused around sexuality for my whole youth, for over 10 years.  It feels good now. Because i realize that chasing for sexual pleasure is an endless route, you never get enough pussy. lmfao Now i can still enjoy sex when it happens but i'm not attached to it.

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    Hi!

    I started to work on myself 3 years ago. I have grown like hell since. I realized that even though i'm much smarter now, i dwell way more on my problems than i used to. I had an insight that the cause of this is that i've shifted the way of my living from other-centered(focusing on outer world) to self-centered(focusing on what's happening in my life).

    I've tried shifting my attention from myself to helping others and supporting others for couple of days now and i already notice a positive mood swing. So i just thought this insight might help some of you dealing with depression or axiety.

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    @LaucherJunge I noticed after i started nofap that; i'm more aware of those very subtle addictions i have. Addictions that i haven't even noticed to be addictions before. When one source of instant dopamine is removed, you start to seek another way to fill that need. This can be through many different habits that make you feel good, for myself they are: Online shopping, beer, food, sex, actualized.org etc.

    I now understand why nofap is so effective: it completely drains your energy, not only mentally but physically aswell. It makes you passive. When you don't fap you have tons of energy and YOU can be aware of how you want to spend your time. Do you want to keep on the road of instant dopamine rush, or do you actually want to do things that make you really feel good deep inside?

    Those things that give you that really good feeling usually require some sort of effort to start them but they will be enjoyable as you get started and especially afterwards. For me these activities are: Meditation, Jogging and Reading.

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    I've lost the "joy" aswell, or i think "excitement" would describe it better. I think the excitement came from expectation of future events and gratification of ego.(?)

    But on the plus side, i've noticed when i look in the eyes of another human being or any animal i feel this strange feeling i didn't notice i've felt before. I'm not sure if it's love but it's somehow very connecting, peaceful, compassionate feeling.

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    Critical point when meditating is focusing on present moment instead of future. So don't focus on how meditation is going to change you in future, focus on how it affects you now by being in this moment. An eye opening book about this is Eckhart Tolle's power of now. I recommend reading it, it helps you to understand how living in future or past creates all the misery in your life and that there never is anything else than this moment. Future and past are just mind concepts.

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    @Phill

    It's like facing your own death almost. I'm quite happy i had to experience that. It gave me an explosion for mental growth. The growing is still happening at insane speed. I'm not forced to follow my own thoughts anymore. And that's a huge power.

    I'm not quite sure what happened to me back then. I was living very unconciously 3 years ago just bangin random chicks and killing myself at work for earning more money. I then started to notice there was this deep sadness inside me when i was alone. Even though by looking externally i was living my dream with penthouse,sports car and multiple fuckbuddies to choose from. I started to think why i wasn't happy and went very philosophical about it. Then i found about meditation and started the habit. 3 months before the total breakdown i had meditation session where i suddenly felt amazing feel of joy and saw all the colours insanely bright and saturated. I had tears falling from my eyes it felt so good. I think the fear and anxiety that came 3 months later was some sort of ego's fight back.

    However my life is completely different to what it was before the breakdown. I'm actually doing better in all terms. Even switched my dead end job to study at university.

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    5 hours ago, Phill said:

    Hey ADD!

    Eventually that sadness dissipated with more and more meditation? How you feeling now? How long did your depression/anxiety lasted?

    The thing is, the anxiety and fear of disease hit me so bad i quit meditation completely. I couldn't even go to work anymore. The fear took complete hold of my life. I went through all kind of doctors and they found nothing wrong with me. Then i ended up to psychotherapist who practiced mindfulness with me and i started meditating again. The worst part lasted 5 months, then it gradually got better. I'm doing fine now, there's some negativity still inside me but i have the control of myself now. Meditation brought me back to life.

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    7 hours ago, Phill said:

    Hey @Nahm

     

    After I started meditating, for some reason, I started thinking a lot about my past, my parents, life, death, my purpose, I think it goes along with all this self actualize thing right.

     

     

    I experienced the same, i had to fix and forgive my past mistakes to myself. You have started the awakening process in you. There's no way to stop it anymore, you can ignore it but it will bring even more pain. 

    By being aware that the anxiety isn't you, it will be easier. If you start believing your thoughts as true, prepare yourself for dark times. Don't be afraif of your thoughts, yes they are scary, but they are just thoughts. You can't control your thoughts! Basicly everyone has OCD of some level our society just says it's normal.

    I went through deep depression and anxiety that was risen by meditating. My advice to you is not to be afraid of the thoughts and to keep meditating.