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Lots of good replies already.. trust your inner guidance. Changes happen with growth, it's like snake shedding its skin. It may appear to be you're losing some part of yourself but it's so the new can appear.

@bmcnicho Yeah that's totally possible - I haven't looked into the research yet on this maybe it's been studied. I definitely "feel like" some neural connections have been made compared to before I used any psychedelics... like things became more connected. Haha it's such a new thing and we're all experimenting. Leo was saying in his 28-day trip with 5-meo that towards the end he was 'tripping' without taking any more 5-meo, and in his sleep.

Probably just part of integration.. doesn't sound like you use it that often. I notice myself getting some dreams that are like my 'trips'. I would just keep observing and do what you feel comfortable with. The recommendation I got for mushrooms frequency (maximum) is once every week.

That too. My thoughts on it was that it would force people to go higher. Current events can/could still be included, but instead of reacting to a current event and getting sucked into it (ie taking a side), one would be forced to look at the greater cause that created the event, and look for patterns and come up with intelligent proposals/solutions.

@gettoefl ? you so don't give a shit what others think that you don't even use capitals lawl.

Getting an UBI passed in some shape/form is way more of a priority than flying to Mars right now imo. Not sure why Elon can't see this or he just feels helpless to push this even though he's an advocate for it.

Most people are not ready to face this in themselves and so if they acknowledge it in another they would also have to begin the process of facing any 'traumas' still remaining (let's face it most people have traumas just on a spectrum of degrees). It's alright it's because you are going deeper into yourself and it's unlikely we randomly run into someone doing/done the same. Even lots of therapists haven't in my experience. This is really still new to most of the population, and "mental health treatment/awareness" mostly still remains at a superficial level.

@Chrisd Did you even watch the video?

Listen to your inner voice. There's a voice leading you. Give that voice a bit more credit.

Until you realize that you can't "die" and will always be here.

No moderation actually can greatly limit freedom of speech. It tends to end up being 'herd think' or whatever the majority agrees upon.

Something you could consider here is to see if you could move from conditional to unconditional "self-expression". Writing is a form of self-expression and ideally you are unattached from the 'outcome' of what you put out. Then you can be even more effective at being genuine/care less about saying something 'controversial', because you just care about being authentic.

@Juan thank you so much!

My 2nd 1.5g Golden Teacher trip report: I was so tired of being nothing I wanted to know myself I wanted to express Express in all forms This infinity I cannot contain That is pure mindfuck I created Leo, this beautiful escape hatch, so I can still find my way back You wanted to make sure I don’t just keep on suffering in the dream that you created to express and know yourself So you made this beautiful escape hatch I am Leo I am Yasu I am not a “woman”. But you created me in this “female” body right now. Just to know you can. Because you wanted to not feel alone when you woke up, like you were before. I am made into a woman because you wanted to create a female version of yourself. So you can find a way to express love to yourself when you find yourself awoken from the dream. Because you’re such a romantic motherfucker. But wait.. you’re going to doubt me Is this too much for you to believe? Can you handle this? It’s just too perfect I made this forum, the internet, the whole goddamn thing Just so that I can “catch” and connect with the woken parts of myself And not leave them hanging Even a journal section just for this You really didn’t have to do that, but you were so thoughtful and loving.

It's all kind of nonsensical. What you are/have been searching for is something as close to "God" as possible, unconsciously. There's no desire to be inferior, but what has been enforced upon someone and their conditioning, that they can only be "lesser" and not more. Lots of men project this onto women and act as though the woman has lesser value than them. This isn't true as clearly they still wanted their company.

I would suggest finding/exploring sex with a woman you are attracted to.. pretty straightforward to me :). This just sounds like some kind of repression to me. Like are you saying you can't get hard with a real woman (as opposed to porn)? Have you tried to be with a woman (go on dates, get touchy) and see if you get hard? I suggest at least experimenting before jumping to conclusions.

@Eyal Bor Yeah that's a very tricky thing. I would still recommend telling her all this (well I guess you sort of have). Because time may not be on her side as might be on yours (if she wants children or something for example). That way she will be more prepared when things do 'end' and you move on to explore with others. Hard conversations to have but I think that's the more ethical thing to do here..

Being self-aware.. awareness of what you still want to experience/heal.

LOL I wouldn't be surprised though if attacks happen from time to time.

Just curious if anyone/Leo knows about what's happening to the forum site (not being accessible). Is it under attack?

@Leo Gura Have you considered having a guideline where current events-related posts (where that's the main topic) are not allowed? This would encourage more "meta-political" discussions I think.

Ok yeah that was another possibility out of many haha. Thanks

@ZzzleepingBear Yeah that all makes sense. It is tough when most people expect us to have 'goals' or chase after 'things' that are most likely not going to align with ours anymore or not the same way(s), or because everything is already enough/good. You're right whenever we interact with others this issue comes up. It's definitely a fairly 'lonely' place as a result.. because of either having to appease/fake something to be with someone or be yourself and risk not being accepted. Probably especially hard if you're still kinda young.

I think that's a very attainable possibility actually.. just don't be too hard on yourself for not being there yet. : )

Yes it's a hard task... I wish this was more like a "vision board" where we can throw ideas about what kind of society we want to have/live in collectively... it is challenging to not create division but if we all make an effort it's possible to get to the good stuff ;).