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I mean it depends on your tolerance level really. You could try to nudge the conversation in that direction but ultimately if she has no interest you can't do much about it.. You could simply say "I am really interested in this topic, is that something you'd be curious about?" And if the answer is leaning towards no.. I think you would have to let it go, and maybe find your need for more intellectual/spiritual conversations elsewhere. So you have to determine how important this is to you. Can you give her the love she deserves without wanting to change her all the time?? The thing is for me if I can't connect on a spiritual level there is no reason for me to be with that person and I don't feel attraction. But everyone's tolerance is a bit different. Sometimes someone has an opening, and that opening means there's potential. But I wouldn't count on that either..

Nothing.

Doesn't sound very compatible.

Yes, my dad is also mostly a narcissist, so yeah. I basically had "no parents", they were not there for me on an emotional level. It's always about their problems. The best thing a narcissist can do is not to have kids, but they often do.

@Philipp All valid concerns. I guess I would just add that, you were drawn to it for a reason, and I suspect you were ready to receive the material (no matter your "biological" age or life situation). Because if you weren't ready for it in a spiritual sense, it would not resonate and you would stop consuming (in most cases) and go back to whatever life you were living. However, like you say, the survival stuff still had to be taken care of just by sheer necessity. And when you haven't gotten a good handle on it yet things can seem even harder to do (imagine a very spiritually developed person having to work at a McDonald's or something). There's not an easy answer to survival and something everyone has to deal with and hopefully find ways to thrive than simply survive. Hopefully, you are on your way to cultivating a life that is in alignment with your spirituality. This would be more optimal and harmonious. The reason you're feeling this negativity is perhaps that you haven't yet found a way to live in alignment on the outer with the inner. But this gap can be closed.

Now you guys are giving me ideas.

Good quality men are kind of rare actually. Maybe it doesn't seem that way but if you're a woman trying to date, it would become kind of clear quickly. And for those that "settle", lot of the times it's simply "desperation". Bad family and economic situations (ie, imagine you were both from a bad family situation and your family/society didn't support women training/working and no mental health support) can drive one to be with anyone "acceptable" that comes along. In this kind of case, it takes more integrity for the woman to simply be on her own or figure out a way to. And yeah I'm not saying it's always like that.. mostly what I know of domestic shelter cases.

Depends on what your priority is. Periods where I focused alot more on work stuff (at the expense of social life), started to make me feel depressed. These days I consider forming connections as much of a "life purpose" as anything else. So search your feelings and see what kind of balance works best for you.

Not much new to add here.. you're imagining the DMT entity - which is yourself. And well you should really be listening to your own judgment on taking psychedelics. You are your spirit guide also.

Sorry about that.. I get why one can be torn. I think you already have too much clarity to keep a fake sort of thing going for long. Maybe you could have a relationship where there's a bit more distance, but you still have them in your life.. that's something you can "build". On the flip side, seek out people who might be more in alignment with you and you can "build" your new "fam" so to speak .

LOL I was trying to say it's okay to be a bit picky... as in that might be why someone is choosing to be very secluded.

Well I guess resistance is like you don't really want something but you keep at it anyway; and exhaustion is like you want this thing but you're too worn out to keep going so you have to take a break first before resuming. Does the thing bring up a general positive feeling or a negative feeling? That should be a clue.

Lol same. It was interesting too how he went into it as an existential inquiry at the time.. but in the middle of it abandoned the quest because he felt like "there was no answer to be found". When I later approached him with existential stuff he just ignores me lol. People can really change by survival needs.

@Benton Aww.. hope you're doing okay bro.

Maybe you're just picky haha.

Can relate. Maybe take some time to integrate or just some time off, do some stuff you might be still interested in besides spiritual practices. Integrate what you've gained and apply it to your baseline consciousness. Talk to someone who gets it (well like you're posting about it now). Spiritual practices can make you not be nearly as interested in "normal human activities" as you once were. Just be mindful when you feel that way, of at least the minimum you need to do to take care of your body, survival stuff etc, don't have to emotionally invest in it if it doesn't feel in alignment but just follow through like on autopilot. It can be easy to be influenced by people around you who are not like this and creating doubt in yourself. So just be mindful that's just the environment we're in. Ultimately it's best to integrate the two so they aren't "at odds" with each other, and ideally "feed" each other , but that might take some time to flesh out. That's my 2 cents for now hope that helps.

Can be tough when the boundary initially is being created. Sounds like you're in the process of becoming an individual This is a healthy thing. It's just that our society (including most families) currently discourages it and even demonize it. I guess first the recognition that you're moving towards health, healing, empowered living. Affirm this to yourself that you have chosen to say no to mediocrity, and yes to actualized living. Be your own ally first and foremost. This is about self-love and you know deep down you deserve to live the best life possible. ? In short, saying no will be an important part of living and creating the life you want. I suggest finding voices from those on the path (coaches, teachers, therapists) that affirm these things with you if you need some help to get going. There are many videos online now by various coaches/teachers that can help you with clarity and conviction. And you will be able to find a way when something is important enough to you. Best wishes.

Very cute. He sure spent a lot of time digging through his videos there .

Dafaq did I just read. I'd rather snort it at that point.

By example, demonstrating what is possible by being authentic. I don't try to push it on others (who are not very open to it), simply just live it, sometimes silence is the best teaching. Ones who are open, it's good to help in a way that's not 'suffocating' ...

Quality over quantity for me .

LOL this is prob gonna get locked too.

Authenticity is synonymous to Truth! So it's very important to me. The more I can align with Truth in both the Relative and the Absolute the more satisfaction I get. Being tired of being someone others want me to be and not how I want to be. Realizing that my voice and the way I see things matters. In fact, truth is so easily buried and twisted that it makes me want to fight for it even more, with calibration. Ultimately I think everyone is on this path, but few people have this as their priority right now. Attachments - fear of what that might do to how they're living their life, survival, being "all alone", dissolution of the ego which has many layers and runs deep.

Thank you so much!! You have very clear and precise descriptions. This confirmed many things I've reached on mushrooms for me. Especially about the Magnitude aspect lately - Mushrooms at higher dosages has been highly effective for this as well (I have yet to try 5-meo however). And I highly recommend floatation tanks for the Void dimension you speak of!! (something not usually talked about here)