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Idk if he realize by saying that he's also saying we're all shit (when someone is attracted to us).

Sometimes it's not simply "meeting your beloved", it is remaining with the one that has an opening to you.. the openness and ability to remain with you in difficult times is crucial. And cultivating and deepening the connection that may not be exactly what you want at the start. Takes leadership.. Doesn't always work you have to use your best judgement with this.. but often it takes great patience and having faith in the one you're with..

Something I realized since getting into music training was that the road to making a good living from it would be difficult for most. Most musicians I know are relying on teaching as the main income and maybe performance and creating on the side. It's a very "winner take all" kind of field right now... This is not to discourage you but it's what I see around me. Lot of depressed musicians because their work is not rewarded financially. So it's good to be strategic about this (balance between your passion and what kind of material living you're also aiming for). Teaching can be a good way to dial down your working hours as it usually nets more per hour, giving you more time to create on your own. But I know not everyone is interested in that also.. so search your feelings. I'm personally not that invested in the idea music will earn me a steady/good income and it's something I'm just doing for the sake of it at this point. That's not to say it won't happen I just don't have the luxury to put all my eggs in this basket... And yeah we have different level of interest in it and different circumstances so don't just take my word. Just offering some insights. I think become good at assessing realistically where you are and can get to in the short term vs long term. It comes back to what I mentioned about "boundaries". Most music creation right now is a form of giving.. but it's good to also balance looking after yourself!

?? That's great.

@blankisomeone Yes be gentle on yourself.. feel free to share if you run into problems/issues.

@mr_engineer It's a decision about, do you want to solve problems with violence or non-violence. Once you open that can, it's easy to justify violence for anything. In that case and I can't afford it, I'd rather die than shoot someone and think that it'll guarantee some change I want. There're usually many other unexplored ways to affect change towards conscious politics if that's one of your passions.

@Aleister Crowleyy Are you experiencing chronic fatigue or something?

@mr_engineer You're asking if I'll lower my standards? I don't think so, but I guess it's always a possibility. Maybe if my brain gets fried one day. There's always problems to solve but there's gotta be a hard line drawn about violence.

You're thinking this from a higher consciousness perspective so it seems absurd. But it's actually not absurd from their perspective. There's also a cultural/environmental factor. If one is from say an environment that has a very negative stigma around divorce and one had built most of their self-worth (specifically the masculine identity) and identity around having the family together even if superficially. The cultural narrative play a role in how we view these things. Being very attached to time investment, money and pride and when those are threatened in a seperation/divorce situation it can really trigger the ego. Killing children that don't agree, well, that also makes sense from a very selfish ego entirely driven by its own interests and sees children as their property to do whatever they want with.

Yeah it doesn't have to be all-or-nothing. I'd say it's an "endless" kind of journey. Growth is endless. Self-love as God includes your finite self also and where you are at right now. So it's not just about giving and giving endlessly to the point your energetic integrity is disrupted (well realistically that's also kind of impossible if you want to survive/have a body). Not to mention that you're not as effective either from a place of "poverty". It makes more sense to fill yourself up with love or whatever else you need while you're trying to share (if that's one of your desires). There comes an "inflection point" that's available to anyone's growth journey to become more biased towards selflessness (as the ego) and embody more the "big I" that incorporates all of reality. When this happens practically speaking it becomes more about leadership, holding space, creation, love, etc. It's not better or worse, but just a trajectory of development. May happen in this lifetime, may not. I'm assuming alot. But basically don't rush your development. But since you made this post it seems like a doorway has opened so I am being encouraging . It's good to have a vision/sense of where you're headed.

Nobody deserves to have their life ended like that, not even Hitler.

@Bob Seeker Search your heart, what do you want more of? What do you want to create more of? You can bring those into your work, relationships, etc. Searching your heart and gaining clarity on it is part of the process of manifesting God's/your will. Whatever brought you to ask these questions is part of this process. Just as me answering. (High consciousness alignment are generally around Truth, Love, Beauty, Consciousness.)

High conscious people are rare in general, I find the most important factor (and easiest to change) is where you live and the dominant level of consciousness or values in that area. I've moved partially for this reason and it's a very noticeable difference. And of course then you zoom in on the kinds of environment where you might find more high conscious guys. It can still be challenging but if you're in the right environment (the kind you want more of), then you're way more likely to find someone with similar values and similar level of consciousness. Hope that helps.

It's amplification of what's close to your awareness/grasping. Like going through the "next door" but you can't skip doors. I've met plenty of psych users who just imagine more stuff and not getting to any kind of truth...coz they're not actually interested in that, mostly interested in having some experience, or healing from a psychological problem. So in that case no matter how much psych you take it's likely not gonna help getting you closer to truth.. in fact it can even make you more trapped in dream if you're not aware and become yet another distraction from truth. The other issue potentially is that if you haven't gotten good at identifying what's true, and just take everything on trips as absolute truth is also problematic, coz if your mind is biased for something then it's gonna get amplified. So being able to distinguish things post trips is also crucial.

Even without direct experience of God you can still make the counterintuitive move to be more selfless. Just try it and see, experiment with being selfless to the extent you can manage without compromising your energetic integrity. The choice to align with consciousness and embodiment of light is always available to you. God realization just makes you more aware of everything being aspects of yourself and pushes you to love all that arises.

That's good to know. Everything is fine now. The 5-meo just seems very different (from mushrooms) the way it affects my body physiologically. I am still very early in it and just been getting a bunch of physical reactions so far. Like chest pain, increased heart rate, and being shaky the first half an hour to an hour. Then it starts to subside. But yeah I feel something in my head for at least a day after the intake.

@integral yeah... I don't know about you guys, but I feel like 5-meo remains in my system for a day even on a very small dose. (If it is 5-meo... I need to get myself a test kit..)

It's more like the feeling of solipsism.. you may be around some people (very few in my case), it's always this conscious awareness that the seperation is an illusion, dream characters. But they're not aware that it is (usually), nor the awareness of their true nature as God. And this comes all the egoic driven things they're doing and expect you to do also. So with most people you have to put on an act of their stories and being in the seperation. That can be exhausting so that's the main thing that makes me enjoy being "alone" more often than not.

Yeah I totally get it. The survival stuff needs to be handled as optimally as possible so you have the space to go deep with spirituality. That's another reason I'm for UBI too. But meanwhile we don't have this. To get out of the rat race creativity, taking some risks, and working extra than what most are doing is required.

There's more beyond survival. You can be so in awe with the mystical nature of reality that just zooming in on anything around you gives you deep joy and happiness. Getting in touch with Truth, Love, Beauty, spirit. That fills you each and every moment. Feel more deeply. Even all the feelings of sadness and "nothingness" of it all too is beautiful. On a more relative level, you can align your purpose (and means of survival) more and more with universal purpose to bring more consciousness and light to this world. There's deep, deep satisfaction found there.

Holy shit, that's deeply disturbing and sad.

It's a reflection of yourself...(ones you strongly gravitate to). Like "coming home" over and over again. Like realizing your true nature in a more subjective sense.

What aligns the most with your highest values.

It's an interesting topic.. I mostly don't like the idea of going on medications (such as anti-depressants) chronically. However, I have benefitted from short-term use of them and where it did feel like it was some kind of chemical imbalance that I couldn't fix through other means. And somehow, just the use of say a few days can lift me out of that (where I feel a physical sensation in my head going from a "down" kind of mood to more neutral/clarity). So... I don't really listen to doctors but just listen to my own body .

@integral I've heard more recently that gender might play a role in how we react to substances in general..this is just a general article I found around substance use: https://www.turnbridge.com/news-events/latest-articles/how-do-drugs-affect-the-female-body/#