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His booklist is a good starting point and fairly broad. Depends on what you're looking for, anything more specific you are looking for?

Yes, there's more than meets the eye. The problem is there're few ways to "prove such" to others other than what you can witness for yourself (mostly referring to manifestation not even the OBE stuff that you mentioned here).. If you tell others how you manifested this and that they'll say you're deluded most likely.

@Mindful Bum There're plenty of people on this forum who offer support unconditionally when someone does share about their mental health struggles I feel (I'm not saying they should rely on this though). The thing is people need to do the work also internally or it can turn into another form of co-dependency. So there's a balance to strike there... getting help externally and doing the work to heal. We shouldn't expect one person to fill every role out there to fill. For example, we can't expect Leo to diagnose a medical condition either for each person having health issues, they should seek other resources (on top of what they gain from here). I understand totally what you mean that spirituality plays a role in mental health and overlaps with the use of psychedelics as well, but traditional therapy and other resources can deal with the bulk of it so that you're at least stable enough to function and seriously pursue spirituality. If it's something you're passionate about, why not step into that role and offer your unique perspective that integrates spirituality when you see someone sharing about it here? There are also plenty of other teachers/online resources freely accessible, besides therapy, hotlines, and such. One simply has to take some responsibility for healing and look for it. It's not wrong for someone to refer people to others who specialize in areas they're not specializing in, that's the responsible move. I'm saying this even though I have suffered depression in the past and know what it's like. I know that spirituality (a.k.a the truth) is what ultimately helped me transcend it all/set me free, but the other tools/resources have also been extremely helpful in that journey. Something to be acknowledged is that the system we have now is not optimal for mental health struggles and is awfully inaccessible to many, which is probably why you end up with a large audience with these struggles here.

What kind of problems? To a highly sensitive one any move towards light, truth, and love is helpful in their "environment", and in that sense yes. Arrogance alone is not as much of an issue as the embodiment of high consciousness in general which is something we can all work on.

@Null Simplex Thanks for sharing that, it's learning to navigate between "dream world" and "being-ness". And the being-ness marvels at all creation while in the dream... @Ezo Well said. More acceptance and embracing of how things actually are is going to be the way forward, appreciating that such illusions were possible, the layers of it, taking more and more comfort in that rather than running away from it. The initial shock and adjustment to the new reality will pass : ). Falling in love with "yourself" is not a bad way to go.

@Matthew85 I appreciate the care. It's just a much larger thing for me to be here than it might seem to you right now, . Thanks though.

@Matthew85 I get where you’re coming from. But it’s the only place that helps me be grounded in reality, and more. Everywhere else I go is much less so. The anxiety was from being out there rather than this forum. And being too much of a hermit otherwise isn’t optimal either.

LOL yes it is just like that actually, slightly more challenging than a child because a small child is less stuck in their conditioned beliefs and sense of reality but yes similar idea overall in terms of being helpful/patience.. Actually you touched another point worth mentioning, the way to reach the godhead is to return to being child-like, a state of total wonder and not knowing . Thank you I appreciate the support and you taking the time.

There is no seperation, but the self that most adopt do not perceive it as such. Words are not even necessary (as much) for connection when the true self is revealed. Yeah that's the art of "holding space" so to speak. I generally have that intention and the love is very much there. 2 things about that: 1) It's hard for most to really get what is being transmitted (including the love aspect) because of how much separation they perceive there is (and projections from their conditioning, pain and trauma for example), which easily can distort their perception of my "communication". 2) I am learning this/refining how I am communicating, and it's a process. The embodiment aspect is another process besides awakening. When I wrote the post I was feeling a lot of anxiety around being totally alone, I was feeling the presence of people and things around me as me, the lack of solidity/transparency in things, and then confusion around how to show up in the world as this finite self when people project seperation all the time. The feeling of alonenesss as "anxiety inducing" is mostly a projection from the conditioning that aloneness is undesirable... Then I sort of will'ed myself to "come back" to the contracted awareness.. thanks to some replies here.

@Judy2 It's not about intellectual understanding.. it's mostly a feeling/awareness thing. Connection happens in "both directions", the depth of it is limited by the extent of the obstruction of the ego and the clarity of the mind. To the extent that someone has cleared their illusory ego/self is to the extent I am able to connect to them, and the "deeper" you go, the fewer people exist to connect on with similar "depth and understanding" (that which can radically alter your mode of being in life). With most people, I simply mirror them so it shouldn't affect them in some negative way. And from a meta perspective I am connected to everything.. so in a sense there's nothing "to do" about that also. It's mostly surrendering to the fact that most are still asleep. Also the "point" is firstly about knowing the truth.. @StarStruck If you mean as in going back "asleep", no, and prob not possible at this point . I still want to live in truth. The challenges that come, will deal with it and find a way.

@Razard86 yeah I agree with those, things are more connected and rich in many ways, just have to work on surrendering to the majority of people who are not in recognition of their true nature, and allow myself to still enjoy the interaction(s) and whatever goes on out there, without feeling like I'm going crazy for not being in alignment with them in various ways.. being okay with putting on an act for people (in limited amounts) etc, or don't coz it is up to me anyway..

@Jowblob are you talking about like a glowy sort of field around your body and stuff around you? Idk if the same but I had that on mushrooms before.. I tend to not emphasize about visuals but sure has a divine feel to it. Well and there was another kind... That was more like layers and layers floating over the contours of my body as if I was zooming out of it. Well anyway visuals are not what's important..

@Matthew85 Yeah I have stuff going on in life, it's just I have "deconstructed" alot of it too, even as I'm doing things, and now maybe time for a bit of construction to keep a healthy balance.. : ) Thank you for the reminder. Also it was really just wanting to share and be understood in that.. took a lot of the anxiety away.

@Inliytened1 thanks for that.. I think things will "settle" eventually. I have to stop myself from imagining the godhead for awhile in my baseline I think... Even typing on this forum is triggering that "state" of awareness. The line has really blurred lately. I will figure out the right balance eventually.

'In our personal development we have to go through 7 stages: The "Doominous" to the "Gloominous", "Fuminous" to the "Luminous", then to "Bloominous and Zoominous", and finally the "Huminous".' ???

LOL, easy to get stuck in that one.

I do get it, I'm saying I literally don't gravitate towards novels/fiction and things of that nature these days, it's been like that for me for some time now.

@Someone here I appreciate the care... I don't know if you're referring to the same but, I'm just integrating. I already feel alot better right now..

It could be revealed while you're physically alive if you want.. sounds like you're already halfway there.

The surrender makes sense and I can probably surrender some more.. I think the main thing differing from that approach is that it is coming in conflict with one of my top values - authenticity. I have this urge to talk about it with whomever I come in (close) contact with (if there's an opening that is). Maybe that's also part of God's will and waking itself up. My natural inclination is the opposite... (and I really don't enjoy violent movies, not before nor after awakening , I'd rather watch some clouds.. and it's a bias I have). The way I would enjoy it would be to see it accurately, seeing the God in them.. right now disguised. I don't need them to be real. It's just been isolating when I can't relate with people on a very existential point. But I'll get over it. It sounds like you don't try to trick yourself but just see everything else as a trick. That's what I was wondering about..

No I'm not invalidating that it expedites awakening, probably by an astronomical degree. But one has to do the work of deconstructing as well. I'm saying there're many different kinds of intentions and uses with psychedelics most don't produce awakening, and that might be what Brendan is referring to/knows about here. A distorted mind will have those distortions amplified, like imagining more of "the other" for example. And then the embodiment aspect which also takes work/integration that is not at all guaranteed by just having awakenings. This is prob why manual meditation tend to produce more embodiment because of the long and tendious journey one has to take on and the more disciplined environment it happens in, vs expediting it with psychedelics.

Daww cut yourself some slack there.. Geez. I still get attached to people even knowing the imaginary nature. Actually possibility more so because the love has increased also.. It's okay.

@Aleister Crowleyy It's a common theme in the music industry, the "winner take all" thing is still mostly a thing. Here's my response about that to another on the forum: Have you considered doing something else to make a living for the near future while you're making music/marketing it? I get that.. but sometimes it happens when you're not "looking" and just doing your thing in the world.. That might be affecting alot of your moods as well.

Very true.. and level of trauma (remaining) as well..

Why don't you move to Vegas?