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@JosephKnecht Yeah, but my face changes drastically. I guess its because of all the egoic tensions in the face/head. It kinda makes sense that tapping into the life force should make you look brigther/shinier and more alive than the egoic zombie state. @Fluran Yes What also makes you look different on psychedelics is the release of suppressed divine feminine and sexuality, which changes your auric look. Lips and cheeks turn rose. And hair becomes thinner/straight.

@Thought Art ?

Guys, Do you know any good sources or books for truly discovering your past lives?

@Someone here Thats what I want to know. If thats even real. If its real, it would give me alot of overall clarity. Im asking because theres too much about it to waste ur time on what would work. lol. @IDressMyDog Okay. What would you recommend me to read?

@eggopm3 Tusi is a colombian/venezuelan drug. Rich kids from there are the ones who use it. I just wanna try it once. Here its own song

Has anyone here tried Tusi? Not 2CB. I know its a mixture of stuff but i got many people and friends telling me its awesome. I got a high quality package and im curious on trying it. More for the erotic sense and having sex with great music. I might see if I can get something spiritual out of it too.

@Leo Gura Lmaoo @Girzo Yeah, Its dmt in changa for pipe. I might try micro smoking it. What did you personally experienced on your first dmt trip?

I mean to the point that you can get chopped and remain unreactive. Jesus or Rama level. Krishna supposedly killed vasudeva just for telling him he is not God. And claimed he is the supreme personality. Seems to me like krishna low key had some ego complexes too. How did you get to mastered it and what has been your hardest trial?

Have you guys tried this type of LSD? Any difference?

The best cope for fomo and jelousy is purification of inner crap. The only down side of purification is that then you are going to get envied and hated more by big negative egos. For example that bully. If you purify yourself, and he sees your innocent non reaction, he will envy you even if you dont beat him. He will realize, why tf this guy is so untouched, happy and ignores me even after loosing. My teasing also doesnt works on him. He will get insecure and hate you till death. And if you beat him in a humble non caring way, rip for him.

@thepixelmonk @Pudgey Thanks. Just bought a cube to try. 300 ug. Its more expensive btw.

The split is starting to get serious and will affect everyone on a collective level without exception next year. I can already feel my ego changing inside. Im loosing my ability to manipulate as I used to. Ego is becoming more solid with the new solar flashes. Purity(Love) will be your last key. Get ready to reorganize your life before it gets insane from the inside out. And before nations (putin) loose their head with nukes. "12 Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13 but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come. Mathew 24:12-14

@Bojan V Right now you are either descending or ascending! The 3D and 5D is getting drastically opposite. If you are extremely sensitive you will see this increasing drastic opening between the two going on. Huge difference of perception. There will be no more in between, you will have to choose at the last moment.

If your desire for truth is so big that you are willing to die in all the sense of the word, no karma can stop you.

Can someone explain to me what is he trying to say here about reality through this insight? He is trying to share it, but its too deep https://open.spotify.com/track/4t7PSKQggaDtEPCCCEUFC0?si=xR2JrGqERwesWZ80o6jciQ&utm_source=copy-link

How do you deal with intimidating women? Its not only the men who are insecure, women want to be pampered aswell. I actually want to know how tf do you deal with girls that are attracted to you and talk to you confidently, but then get shy, super insecure and just make it more of a big deal than it has to be. Im not referring to looks in this case, but my personality. I used to lower my value and act more normal (adequate) but that just works to a certain point. Im getting tired and just wanna be fully me which is kinda intimidating because of how much freedom, passion, intelligence, peace, vitality (potential), love, sensuality, charisma, and self-intimacy I express. If I try to be kind and lovely with them they misinterpret it as weak nice guy...which is my natural way of being, very friendly. For which I have then to show what they can understand. Im getting tired of closing my self up for others. Is it possible to be born with such a unique personality that my only option might be fall in love with an alien? ?

If you want to experience enligthenment from meditation you have to be all in. Meaning, the experiences I had came when I decided I was going to live for consciousness. All day aware of awareness, cutting all shit out and basically meditating all day long when in home. Repeat that for a month everyday. Be willing to die psychologicaly and physically even if you dont, only be willing. Thats how intense your love and desire for God should be. Only then he will naturally reveal itself to you. He is very subtle and is not for the arrogant. You need to humble that ego down. Psychedelics will show you God but wont let you stay there with him. Nothing feels better than having God consciousness flowing through you all day. But that only comes when your cup is empty.

Archangel of love. My real name means "my secret is God" . God=Love.

@Roy In your case, how do you localize your types of women?

@Lila9 @Matt23 @Matt23 @Lila9 Some people have a different concept of Chad. Im simply handsome/pretty face/cute vibe but with built in toxic masculinity for the sake of survival. I dont use this masculinity on people. I only save it for work and special occasions of conflict. I hate to carry this crappy shield but its extremely useful against all the narcicists am surrounded by who play victim when I defend my self from their bullshit/manipulation when they sense me vulnerable and humble. My true self is completely opposite of my social conditioned ego. Im twisted for the sake of survival. I dont even care about gains, profit at heart even thou I could enjoy them aswell. Sometimes I surprise myself when I discover thats really me. I dont fit in in my current society, which is why angels keep telling me to move to switzerland or new zealand but they dont tell me how... lol. All you said was valid. I know women want that deep down. I want to do that aswell. But, they have ego and are unconscious. For example, one girl im talking to who knows me for a while and likes me, gets reactive, ego inflated, judgy when i open myself meaning I drop my ego. I dont like mind ego games in relationships. Thats what I mean that im direct. I simply am what I am. They dont understand that level of heart purity and start to do all the circus I mentioned. Then they also try to gain power and control, frame me, etc for being that friendly. Thats what they misinterpret as nice guy. So i kinda have to communicate otherwise with some bullshit behaviours of what they think is a man. One even said I have the personality of a kid. Because when im authentic thats really how I feel. Animals and kids get drawn to me when I plug into that frequency. So, being that caring will only work with advanced or conscious women. Not a 20 year old at college who dont know shit about life and just focuses on the stereotypes they are conditioned from media. For which they sometimes see me as psycho for such an abnormal combination of things due to knowledge, wisdom and life experiences. They dont know how to react to all that stuff. The positive plus the negative. She calls me unusual, is attracted because she cant figure me out as an enigma but also repulsed by the same, Unless I chill tf out of them so she can see and understand clearly my reality/context. Still, I recognize I got healing to do, which is playing a role too. As I said earlier, Its a combination of many things. Im at the point were I think my last option is simply enligthenment/liberation. Because, even if I do healing, I might fall into another crap or re-identify with old trauma that might come up. Healing doesnt mean I wont get hurt again. Enligthenment gets me out of here once and for all, remaining untouched. All I want is an attractive conscious girl who doesnt play mind ego games and get into manipulation when insecure. For which im thinking on taking online dating even more serious to find ppl of the same frequency/mindset. Even if its far away, it gives me more pleasure to be fully me, relaxed, and understood than getting laid rushed from the shitty false conditioned ego persona.

@Matt23 @Matt23 I will revisit this when needed. I get all you said there. What I mean by being me fully is literally opening my self from this inner social cocoon I live. Walking how my body wants, talking at the pitch/rate my natural self wants, interacting without pretense, embodying and expressing positivity, etc. A while ago I was hanging with my sister from my true relative self and what a wake up call. Shes very manipulative and my Authentic Self literally cant stand manipulation, pretense, being unnecesarily fancy and comparison, etc. We have a good relationship from my social conditioned ego. But, when I plug into my authenticity and become vulnerable (Humble), people, like it happened a while ago with her, just want to brag on me, dump their crap into me and simply take advantage of my honesty and my immediate repulsion of manipulation. The only reason I know how to manipulate now is because I had to learn it in order to survive with my family and work. Since I was being abused after my first awakenings and True personality exposure. I was almost egoless at that time. I dont know how to interact with such density beings from that position of vulnerability and innocence because I cant pretend from there or imagine (anticipate/calculate) something else in that moment. Im extremely honest in the sense that I will only live my Truth. Not necesarily to spit all on people, but at least keep it with me. Thats how intense my personality is. It was really hard to create the ego I have now. It was literally hell, war and suffering. Im just waiting to live on my own to leave this crap. Could you explain better the part of being authentic while considering others circumstances? Another example of me being me, flowing in authenticity is like people getting me to react. Their ego wants my energy. If im hanging out with them, and am silent for a second they start trying to trash talk for me to say something or move. Its this kind of micro manipulation that I also refer to. The fact that we are interacting doesnt mean I have to be at your pace. I will respond at my own. Then they want to make you feel bad for not being a circus monkey like them.

@Jannes Thanks. I will just be me but extremely slow and easy with them until they can raise their vibe somewhat and feel more comfort... See, still I have to control myself. Now that you mention your friend, that explains why im always laughing. I even had to get out of the office now because I get bursts of laughs out of nowhere, especially when I see serious people. People misinterpret if I laugh alot when talking with them as if im laughing at them, even if I tell them whatsup. My family gets scared when they sense this zest for life of mine aswell. I also have to repress my sexual energy and feminine energy because it calls too much attention... I recognize I was born in a unique and rare day as my astrology birth chart explains, which is responsible for my rare energy. Im tired of making myself the insecure one, carrying others projected insecurities so they dont feel bad. Seems the only way to deal with these girls will be to explain my self logically somewhat even if that costs some attraction so they can chill. Aside from what I mentioned, add Chad looks, deepness, humbleness, empathic/compassionate, style, skills, mystery, knowledge, exquisite tastes, street smart, music, etc. See, I dont wanna sound psycho or arrogant in this aspect, but its my case. Maybe I just need to find the same type of girls in the planet. I think scandinavian/ rich euro countries could do the trick. Or maybe I should meet your friend? PS: Just had a Dejavu out of typing this.

@Eyowey Nice. Yeah, they misinterpret me as a crazy psycho without getting to know me fully. Thats what im trying them to do, to know me so they can chill tf off. Im the chillest guy on earth, lol. The part they fear is deep connection and intimacy. Which is what I want. And this goes way beyond women... People in general just start to envy, hate for being a healthy open being. Thats why I had to close my self up. I couldnt know who to trust because everyone wanted to be near me. I was in innocence loving them, while they were trying to figure me out to dump me down, lol. Good luck. Love is God.

@amanen Yeh, im referring to spiritual incarnated aspects. Theres no coincidence that my real name is(https://bugmeyer.artstation.com/projects/VgQl6g) combined with all the logistics and crazy shit in my life. Im embodying him.

Nvm this ?. Spiritual Mysticism can get so crazy and nonsensical (fairy) that explaining it will just sound dumb, cheesy and cap. When I get a better sense of it I will come to it.