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I'll a little late adding to your post but....holy shit... I have done this several times and it feels great to hear someone having the same experience. First, I have to say, this particular post - one has either done this or not. It is not like other things. I've done long meditations, psychedelics, etc. This is not that at all. It's unique to itself. I have no advice for you, but you describe it exactly as I have experienced it. I'm very curious to hear back from you if you go further. I don't experience resistant thoughts anymore at all, I can non-think at will from twenty some years of meditation, I love boxing - the rougher the better, I meditate in the middle of the woods, in the middle of the night -- -- -- but I did the mirror thing for 5-10 minutes - and it's scared the fuck outta me! It's sort of like around 6 or 7 minutes you've just forced away or something...right? Saying it's fear is in the ballpark but it's something more than just fear. I have only experienced that from the mirror. PEOPLES - if you have not done this, alone, for 5-10 minutes, please please do it and comment back on your experience. I know this may sound silly, but I don't think a mirror is like other 'stuff'. Something is going on with mirrors and our'self' or 'higher self' or something. Is there a breakthrough, maybe if someone can get though like 30 minutes??? Ultimately, I have the same question as you - it's like some force is penetrating every fiber of your being, but is there a breakthrough to be had?

All the usage of the word infinite has a lovely ring to it, but, isn't all of that bitching? What are you going to do?

@BeginnerActualizer right on. I was tryin to be funny. But, ya, those motivations are very useful imo.

There is no "one's self". Who or what is that reference actually to? Just be you.

Don't pursue superficial challenges by focusing elsewhere... OR What are the real challenges behind the mask? Personally, I have found that those in the superficial challenges don't accelerate or make as much money as the people pursuing the challenges within. It's as simple as - which one would people naturally follow?

I use it in life. I own a company and I have delegated all the functions. I do the PD for the team. It's a been a wonderful symbiosis for many years.

@BeginnerActualizer Isn't any positive motivation useful? Also, I think if you look into the original intended writing of "survival of the "fittest"', you will be pleasantly surprised. Good luck with the sex.

@Kimasxi The pay off is, you get to be socially lazy. You don't have to do anything that involves other people - networking, sales, group study's, presentations, social events, etc. Another payoff is that when you are wrong, or someone else has a better idea, or when you stand to learn from someone else - you do the ego block / not worthy thing and feel superior. Another is that when you lie to someone and it later gets revealed, you can just play the same old 'I'm not worthy' card as a ploy for their sympathy so that you never have to address your underlying issue of self dishonesty.

@Shin I had some words to remind me engraved on the inside of my wedding ring. It works well.

Until I accept it, I hold resistant thought which hinders my progress.

@aryberry what are you eating, excercise, and meditation practices like? Most clarity, intuition and connection comes through these. Making it easier to see what you've been missing.

@Mrkvn8 it's more likely what you're eating.

@bazera If you read this whole thread, you might see that you are thinking what you're thinking because you're repeating it. Got to pick some new better feeling stuff to repeat. Life does suck sometimes. It's 90% attitude though IMO. Are there other things you could do for yourself? (Excercise, eat healthier, meditate, daily affirmations) I know this probably hurts to read, but, it's not subconscious, because you are aware of it. You need to stick to healthy habits and GIVE IT TIME. There is nothing permanent about your attitude. It's the result of your past. Start healthy habits now and over time, that will be your past, and you'll be a product of that. Continuing to rehash these issues, is repeating it. It's procrastination. All roads lead to you deciding, when you're ready. It is this way for all of us. I'm happy to support and help. Feel free to pm any time or continue the convo, but please, for your own good, steer it towards well being and you will eventually have what you want and feel how you want to feel. IT TAKES TIME AND REPITITION to change.

@bazera Affirmation could resolve this for you if you can see that you have been doing affirmations all along. For someone to be concerned with what other people think of them, requires that a person repeated think about what other people are thinking. Instead of continuing to do that, buy, print, or write out some affirmations and read them several times a day. After a while, that will become what you are thinking in general. You won't remember when you used to think the way you are now.

@egoeimai ?

@Pursue That works for me also. It seems like accepting it releases us from focusing on it, and focusing on it is what brings more of it.

@retardedhorse1 the self help section would probably be more beneficial considering where you are, than self actualization. Eventually, you might appreciate the deep dives.

@Loreena you are a tea pot.

A cardboard box weighs 50 tons, is made of legos and strawberries and smells like coconuts and tulips.

@username Felt great to read. Thank you Username.

@Loreena You are a chair.

@Revolutionary Think When you let go of the desire to change people, you will literally make that speech. Your connection will be such that you will have all the right words, for you.

@Arkandeus That sounds like a great, happy, fulfilling path you are on. It may serve you well down the road, to keep in mind, that it is one of an infinite number of paths, that are equally happy and fulfilling.

@Loreena may I ask, what is it you are not receiving, that you wish you were receiving?

@username if you enjoy hopefulness, I hope you're listening to a variety of materials, rather than just this.