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@Bazooka Jesus ?? ??

Awareness is directly aware of the thoughts; paradigm, and solipsistic. In direct experience, what’s a “there”?

@SoonHei ???

That one’s kind of a word play situation. In being aware of the thought / word / expression... “what”, it can be noticed “what” is experience / experienced, and is not outside of or prior to experience such that any answer would be, anything other than, experience. Here is an existential explanation of actuality, or experience as a whole if interested. That is one of the greatest questions possible imo. Given the duality of language, to communicate or ‘point’, I say “put feeling first”. In more inspection, it can be readily seen that this is impossible as far as something one could ‘do’, because feeling is already, and is always, first. So to answer in regard to the previous comment... one is already feeling the reaction. Consider the reaction of a high five. Something fun or celebratory happens, and someone holds up their hand for the high five, and one reacts by holding up their hand as well, and, high fiving. That could be said to be a reaction, and it highlights that a reaction in and of itself is not a ‘problem’ (suffering / discord) per se. Then consider a different experience of reaction, and I’m picking something extreme to draw out the difference.... Imagine someone says to me “you’re a total fucking pompous arrogant asshole”. It might be that I feel the reaction of the body tensing, and thoughts arise, and in this example let’s say that I react and say “fuck you, you don’t know me, you’re an asshole”. My saying that to the person didn’t feel good, but, it seems justified, because them saying that to me didn’t feel good. BUT... them saying that to me does not equal or cause, how I felt. Me holding beliefs about myself, being pompous, arrogant, and or an asshole....that is what I felt. So conversely... again, an extreme example to draw out the distinction....a response....which includes “checking in with” or “putting feeling first” might be.... taking a few seconds before reacting / replying / responding, before saying anything, and first noticing that I resonated with the comment / insult...recognizing I don’t like how I feel, because either I’m holding these thoughts / beliefs about myself and that is resonating...or because I am actually aware my behavior is pompous, arrogant, or assholeish... (again, extreme example here).... my response, in taking a minute to check in with feeling first, might be... “thank you”. Why right? For the opportunity to notice and be aware of, my reacting. Why would I want to become more aware of my reactions? Because it is causation. It is the duality of thought running the show. It is essentially me believing & operating / being as if I am a thing in this world (only), and I am not creating my experience consciously, but am basically like a domino, a pinball in a pinball machine, experiencing at the whim of whatever happens, whatever people say to me, what my situation or circumstances is, etc, vs consciously creating my experience, situation, circumstances. In short: feel the reaction, be aware of the thought which arises, and the bodily reaction and or verbal reaction....but....just be aware of it - don’t do or say the reaction....let it fizzle out....and then respond how you truly want to, in a way you might say is in accordance with your conscience, your true nature, or simply, how you’d love for someone to respond to you...even if you are having a shit day, and are being a pompous arrogant asshole. Still though...why? Cause life is too short not to be yourself, to truly live. The more life throws at you, the more you respond rather than react, the more you know ‘who’ you really are.

It’s normal as in it happens, people experience this. It’s a reaction between mind & body, to a yet distilled belief, most likely self referential. It’s not per se ‘automatic’ in regard to well being, aka flow state or stream entry... the difference being reacting (a ‘same old’ pattern) vs creatively responding with a new approach / perspective. The thing to inspect imo is the corresponding thought when the tension occurs. One way to think of this, is when the thought arises, the relaxed meditative body is tensing which is the experience of the ‘holding onto’ that has been going on.. the holding onto of thought ‘ perspective, or belief / interpretation which is of discord. The way to release the ‘holding’ of it, is to relax the body again, and while relaxed breath into the tensing area of the body. It is as if you are breathing well being into that area, more & more deeply relaxing it, and bringing awareness ? attention and well being to it / into it. Analogously (for the muscle which is tensing, not you) you might think of how a little kid brings a troubling matter to a parent, wanting resolve. One resolve, is for the parent to think logically and offer a solution, which will often suffice. A ‘deeper’ resolution would be for the parent not to provide a solution, but to give their full attention to the kid... and though to the kid, this power of this receiving of attention is unknown cognitively, the experience of it transpires nonetheless, as an untangling of the tension and the kid ‘looks’ deeper into it, thus bringing the light of awareness to the matter, which is always ample. If... the present situation is such that “...but I’m not experiencing that ‘corresponding’ thought though!?’.... nonetheless, in allowing the body to relax and breathing into the area of tension... the thought will arise and ‘reveal’ itself.

I’ve worked with people who’ve ended up in this place in specific regards as well, as in specific roles in relationships and even in regard to sexuality. What arose as relief & liberation, is the inspection of how they ‘got there’. ‘There’ being a certain lens, an idea of a fictitious relationship, which ‘exists’ solely in mind, a means of psyche protection based on fundamental misidentification, which has become the ideal, such that ‘actual relating’ pales in comparison, and more specifically, falsely “feels unsafe”. (Engrained misinterpretation of that feeling due to the misidentification and protection of it being furthered instead of uncovered and received). If there is a ‘high note’ thought or insight of the relief, it is the recognition of momentum. To see how one got here is the empowerment to see how can get where one now desires to be and experience from more so. If there is a ‘low note’, or what can be painful to purify of, it is what was suppressed or bypassing in the first place. Most practical advice (will be initially disregarded, deflected and projected, and that is perfectly fine) is no longer operating blindly, as in by thoughts, and getting what is presently most wanted in front of one, such as with a dreamboard. We tend to really fear the very relief of the up and out, because it’s like barfing up something that didn’t taste good when we ate in the first place. A point of suffering comes in which the lessor of two evils is barfing, expunging. Analogously you might think of someone getting so sick & tired, of being sick & tired, that they choose well being over how anything tastes. We come to an expanded place of understanding though, and just like taste buds, perspectives change. What was very much interpreted and believed to be pungent or even grotesque, reveals it’s true ineffable beauty. If there is a ‘last floor uncovered’ fulcrum in the letting go of such a matter, it is judgement of oneself. Why it’s confusing, is the pain & suffering upon innocence did not know, but the clues begin to add up, pointing to something missed nonetheless. Most simply said perhaps, one feels as one does at the whim of others, but these clues point to one is choosing how one feels in every moment. If there’s a key, it’s understanding how one is doing so. Post realization of this, as an example... whereas before it seemed true, that ‘just trying to be social sucks’...compounded upon that belief, is the secondary belief, or the attributing of this feeling of discord, to something other than one’s own perspective...such as ‘they already shot me down before I start engaging with them’. With scrutiny, it is seen that isn’t actually possible for you to know, and it brings up the unaddressed discord. It touches on arrogance and pride of “knowing” or “being right” being chosen, over feeling amazing. More truly of course, notions of pride & arrogance are just a facade, a cover up, a smokescreen, just like the ideal relationship in mind which veiled the psyche from it’s true nature of unconditional love, ineffable beauty, and wholeness. With proper inspection and realization, the facade is willingly discarded like an umbrella when the sun comes out.

@intotheblack Fear, imo, not trauma. More deeply, identification as a changing thing, and aiming via reactionary thinking, to prevent change. If the trauma perspective intuitively persists, look for a change in childhood which parents wanted, but kid did not. Changing towns, schools, and perhaps most significantly the intensity of the change of environments. A child moved from urban to rural or vice versa. A “way to control change”, is never to again.

@benjhenry Not. Two. ?

@SM-OConnor Sure hope you take this in the great feeling relieving sense felt & intended, but you got some existential things wrong and are feeling that. Ideally, let it go entirely...and or scrutinize the thoughts and recognize the discord to liberate of the suffering. Much love, wish ya only the best. ?

You.

Reaction in and of itself. To Re-act. To think, do, be, behave the same way repetitiously - rather than putting how you feel first and responding to experience.

Movement has never actually occurred. It’s as it appears. A “thought”, and not even.

@SamueLSD “You think that’s “gravity” you’re feeling?”

@Pablogamalielm Wise words here from @DefinitelyNotARobot but you kinda...blew em off. That’s understandable, who hasn’t been there. There’s something you’re holding in mind to be ‘big’, and the ‘big’ feeling of discord is being interpreted as ‘because it’s true about me’. The feeling is telling you it’s not. The dreams are telling you it’s not. Mind is misunderstanding emotions. Allow the dream within you to be expressed in the physical, slowly, easily, a moment at a time, at your pace, for the purpose of enjoying the experience of it. A dreamboard is the easiest simplest way. Stop playing the games of discord with your ‘’self’ ?? and start playing this game with your Self, listening to your Self ?? . ? By simplest, I mean, had you made a post asking “how do I build a small wooden boat”, there’d be a link with a list of materials, tools, and some instructions. What doesn’t feel right, isn’t. Trust feeling or not, listen or not...feeling nonetheless. Wise to listen, and live the greatest life you can dream up. Your source is at the ready, evidenced in feeling. ??

@IAmReallyImportant Point taken. ??

Awareness is curative. Be willing to be aware of your own thoughts of judgement. Likely stems from an unresolved sentiment towards someone. Relaxation is the wisdom you seek, and this is why you’re never finding it... you’re preoccupied with judging yourself and others. “I’m a loser” doesn’t feel off because it’s true and you need to do or prove something. It feels off because it’s not true. It’s just opinion, judgement. In the Bible, God put a flaming sword (sword=truth, of, flaming=suffering) in front of the tree of the “knowledge” (the illusion of duality ‘in’ thoughts) of good & bad (judgement) pointing to the tree of life (focusing on creating what you desire to experience). Seems like good advice to me. Don’t judge this book by it’s cover. Give it a watch. .... https://www.actualized.org/articles/how-to-exploit-people-to-grow-yourself Pain is a ‘physical’ sensation that you can point to on the body. Suffering is focusing on the same thoughts of discord over and over, aka, a belief.

@Strangeloop Ya. Think in terms of light (and illuminate) and frequency (be aware of your, and yours with another, and their, vibration).

Listen to Cat Steven’s. You’ll be right as rain. Contrary to thoughts, love arises within you. It is love - reality itself - which is intoxicating & infatuating. The instant this is recognized, infatuation with thought ends, and experience of her expands ten fold. As if seeing her for the first time, strings-less, unconditionally, freed.

Two cents... If using psychedelics, word will spread very quickly. Take a look at Colorado and Oregon. 100 acres is too much imo. One house can be secluded in wooded area in as little as 2 or 3 acres. Add a buffer of a few acres for seclusion, and expansion, and you’re still not even close to 50 acres. I’d shift that spend to the beautification of the place and advertising nationally, and look for a geographical balance of land location between view (lake, hilltop, mountain, etc) and nearest airport. Easy to do btw in those two states as every inch is gorgeous. Over an hour drive from airport to ‘compound’ is a turn off for many imo. Keep in mind while they will leave not so, they’re coming to you pretentious. I’d really contemplate people staying a week to two at a time, vs anyone living there, and thus developing a community. If you delegate the operation, don’t pick a Sheila. Make a pros and cons list for the community factor, and remove personal sentiment for a minute to see it as objectively as possible too. From what I’ve looked into the abodes as shown in the pictures (w solar, wood paneled, etc) are closer to 20k, which is the same as 28K to most contractors, half way into the build. Network people with YouTube channels, yoga studios, etc. Get a high resolution quad-copter. Film a 1 minute showing, to be shared on YouTube channels. Makers of channels care about well being, and it’s a benefit to their subscribers to have you on an episode. If this guy is future useful, he loves traveling, helping, the outdoors, sharing, and meeting new people. Congrats on the windfall btw and best of luck!

Let the believed need to be validated by others, over the guidance of feeling within, go.

Who exactly are you willfully allowing to tell you what is possible? Just do it.

It is the habit, the pattern of reaction of believing of the thought “I” which is surrendered. It is the believing in the thought ”I” which is the ‘lost it in a way’. Appreciate paradox, energetically less is more. Believed I thoughts are like blockages. There wasn’t anything lost, identification with thought was added, making it seem as if the true nature was lost...as if “I” lost something. Daily morning meditation is ample. There are no mistakes per se. You are the signs, and you are the awareness of the signs. When a sign is synchronistic, serendipitous, and resonates intuition and feeling, indeed, follow the sign.

Drop that belief. The resistance felt in feeling is with the thoughts, not the actions, nor the perception or experience. With that one belief you create the resistance in experience across the board. There is no such things as resistance. Believe that. Be the One you are.

Sharing experience, you might get a different perspective, insights, ideas, new questions, etc... before I opened a franchise, I interviewed 22 current owners, worked at one of them for two years, and helped voluntarily in addition to that at 7. I took notes, wrote out the most efficient best practices. I learned how and what kind of leadership employees responded to. Of 38 said franchises in the district I opened mine in, by the end of the first year our sales were nearly double the next highest location, and my team members made nearly double the average of the team members in the district. I had no money, and no knowledge of the products or how the business operated prior to this. But I was as flexible as water and as humble as a mute. I led myself by learning what I responded to as well. Six figures in three years. @flowboy Is spitting pure truth here. ??

When you say “I”... who are you talking about? Who is this conditional one, which can not live, which sees something to complain about, which is fed up, which must muster strength? Perhaps these are thoughts identified with, and thus repeating, even though these thoughts don’t resonate. Appreciation. While in college full time I had a full time job (also in retail, and I had a blast) and two part time jobs (delivering pizza’s for two different places, and I had a blast), and I was happy. I saw that it was headed to what I wanted more. Make a dreamboard. Know, see, feel where you’re headed, feel what you’re focused on & creating... feel the alignedment & discord with thoughts & what’s on your dreamboard... the interpretation of your current job and situation changes, such that it is seen to be that unfolding as this, now. Better feeling will never be in a future. Better feeling is here now. Care enough about how you feel, to align those thoughts, about yourself. Tell the wanted, resonating story, about you. Watch reality change. You’re blessed, fortunate, and made of the very energy you believe you lack. It is the identification with unaligned thought & interpretation that is taxing. “...using my love of creative self expression to inspire others to discover their unique gifts.” That can never be experienced in a future. That is done now, or not at all.