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It's because you are stuffed with suppressed emotions, and you had to create unnatural masks to hide them. When you stop they start to come up as they normally would, but the system is going: 'uhh, no, no no, bad bad bad, avoid!' which pulls you back and forth. So yeah, it's a sign of progress. You can diagnose how much you carry around and see that this is the case by scanning the spine for chronically tense muscles that hurt when you press them, this can also be used therapeutically. Things that I find especially helpful, aside from just going within and carefully observing and owning what you have, are learning to feel really compassionate/sorry for yourself and being in places where you are not afraid to cry or make sound.

I used to use weed 2 times a week, for doing deeper meditations and as an easy feel good. I used it as a crutch and I have no regrets having done so. As apposed to psychedelics I never felt likereally having to integrate it, maybe for new users that's different but it's really not such a hard substance imo. Oh by the way, the natural state of the body mind is perfect: Fear is just there to protect you and feels just fine if it's not suppressed and defined as wrong. Sadness is beautiful as well if it can flow (seriously) if it's not suppressed and defined as wrong. Anger is great too, it's passionate righteousness , if.. Envy is fine too, a passion for improvement, if... But we are told that our natural feelings are wrong, that we can't cry, be mad, etc. and then we suppress ourselves + create a fake unnatural identity with it and that's when the shitshow starts.

Ye, true nature is not scary. But (negative) ego structure, probably decades old that you came to identify with, that was created as a small child to censor your emotionality from your parents/surrounding, can carry deep fears with it that you are used to listening to.

Psychedelics can be fun and games, some people trip for many times and just have their fun trippyness, and you can do so if you are somewhat mature and mentaly healthy. But definitely at some point life might say: 'Oh, hey nice ego structure you've created around your traumatic emotionally suppressed youth, I'm going to break that apart by looping your ego patterns a 1000x, I'm sorry, ur saying 'NOOOOOO, NO, NOOOOO'? , too bad '

Ye, 'I don't have these suppressed feelings because I am not even real' is a common trick I think, it certainly was for me.

Going out on a bit of a limb here but what ever. Anyone here in Holland or even Europe who is mature and who has ranch or land to safely experience God and make purging sounds without being bothered? PM me and let's make a chat on skype.

From what I also understand it tends to go deeper than we tend to think, I just watched this, seems relevant

It will be only showing the agony that was already there, which is a relief unless you resist it, which is what we are learned to used to do often, but there need not be any.

Not every coming down has to be suffering. OP, understand this: "As a child you probably remember having been open emotionally, happy and free to be yourself to a high degree, this was because you were closer to the natural state which is peace/joy. You were hurt by brute people and were repeatedly taught not to express (some of) your emotions (anger, fear, sadness and passion or love). To hide these emotions from others and yourself you created masks (to appear tougher, smaller or a mixture of the two). You also created distracting (thinking) habits keep the emotions from surfacing. Your natural self had to be censored and pushed down, this created the suffering you now experience (i.e. depression, anxiety, frustration, confusion). The emotions are still trapped in the body/mind and can all be found starting at different points along the spine in chronically tight muscles that hurt when pressed upon (example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uyvhPpk04s) You can heal yourself by simply being willing to be emotional again and you can specifically go into stillness, stopping the avoidance patterns and let the emotions come up naturally faster (meditation), cultivate awareness of your self through being mindful and use tools mindfully to get deeper into your body/life, like: ((de-armoring) massage, eye gazing, being with a master, talking honestly, exercise, love etc.). Eventually you open up to life/yourself completely, you let go into stillness completely and you learn to embody your true nature of pure unconditional love and then you live as a liberated authentic being."

He mentioned it. The first pose can be done also with legs more to the front and with a cushion under the but. Doing some easy 1/2min sun salutation-yoga poses before your meditations (which is really nice to do in any case) will probably have you be able to sit in that position like she does, or close to it, after a 3-12 months (?), which is more comfortable than legs to the front. And of course, sitting a chair is bilateral.

Ramana Maharshi: 'The intricate maze of philosophy of the various schools is said to clarify matters and to reveal the Truth, but in fact it creates confusion where none need exist. To understand anything there must be the Self. The Self is obvious, so why not remain as the Self? What need to explain the non-self? And of himself he adds: I was indeed fortunate that I never took to it (i.e. philosophy). Had I taken to it I would probably be nowhere; but my inherent tendencies led me directly to inquire ‘Who am I?’ How fortunate!'

If you belief it's impossible then you won't really try and then it will seem impossible. Ignorant + arrogant spiritual teachers are the worst. Enlightenment simply is admitting to and untying all the deep emotional knots so you can be fully let go, realize the Self and be in love. You can't be here now fully, be authentic self fully and be free as long as you have suppressed unconscious emotions (in the body). But most people don't want to admit to their deep pains and they get stuck in an idea of entrapment because they think they are beyond crying like a little boy/girl because the emotions were beat out of them and all their lives they have learned to feel fake/'strong' about themselves.

I don't see a difference, every time dissolving/expansion happens, fears/emotions come up. Edit: Well, before I did used to dismiss them and did not progress so much, so having an open attitude is important.

Thinking you'll find it outside your body, trying to skip over suppressed emotions. A common trap because the foundation of the negative ego structure was created at a young ego specifically to act as if one is beyond the sensitive emotional self.

Based on the fact Leo recently said this? I could only find this case: In December 2004, we received an unconfirmed report of a death related to the ingestion of 200 mg of 5-MeO-DMT with some amount of "yage"' So it's rather unbased it seems, again..

That's how an emotionally closed system feels like, the true self is suppressed and you have no real self to express. Learn to get in touch with your emotions (/your body).

God is ever present but it's easier visible through certain conduits. See what it does when you connect with the gaze of Ramana Maharshi, generally considered the most realized saint of our time who lived a truly extraordinarily life in every way and who made popular the self-inquiry technique. See what happens what you look into his eyes. Can you keep at it, can you see the love? Does it make you uncomfortable? I often have both and it's easy to bring me to tears this way, peace.

Everything's amazing dude. Just gotta learn to be in life again (meaning healing the contractions you took up as a child).

Masks because the forgetting of the true nature (looking for love outside) + emotional suppression causes authenticity, 'being crazy' can be authentic (being psychic/different) or inauthentic (paranoid/delusional ego)

A pro at work

I am so excited I found this technique. As many of you probably know fears/suppressed emotions come from negative conditioning/experiences (that form the foundation for the negative ego), and they are all stored within your body. I knew muscle stretching and massage could help you face them and release them sometimes (which is almost never focused on in massages ), as can happen in healing sessions sometimes, and during darshan ((eye contact) transmission from an awakened human). But this technique completely nails getting deep emotions out properly consistently, it's quite simple and can be done with anyone that's somewhat open, sensitive and not stupid. The technique: -Scan the back for tense points, most people should have plenty, the muscles along the spine are usually targeted by this practitioner, but it can be done on any muscle (just be careful when pressing down hard on the front of the body in some areas or sensitive rotational areas,), but just using the back seems to be enough. -Push/massage the muscles over the bone rather harshly, obviously talk with the partner as to what is right/endurable. The one lying down does their best to stay with the sensation and the emotion related to it, by feeling it and by taking deep breathes. - Comfort the person by laying your loving hand on the used area.. Go with your feelings/institution. That's it. Optional is doing inner child therapy as described as shown in the videos. Try at your own risk (though there shouldn't be any).