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I had my third 5-MeO trip the other day. The previous two trips were very low doses. The first was 5mg and the second 10mg. Neither trips were particularly exciting, as you might have guessed, so I won’t go into all the details. I wanted to take this process slowly and do it super carefully, so starting off with really low doses was necessary. The first two doses were snorted, which is a really really unpleasant experience. And it also meant that around 20% of the dose went down my throat so really they were even smaller doses. The only interesting aspect of the second trip was when I had what I think was a ‘touch’ of non-duality. I closed my eyes and I could not differentiate my body sensations and the sounds going on around me. It was like the sounds were sensations, and the sensations were sounds. There was no difference between the two. That’s about as far as that went though. For my third dose, which was 20mg, I used the rectal administration method of dissolving the substance in water etc. It was a little awkward getting things in place, but overall a much more pleasant experience than snorting. The come up was much much quicker (around 3-5 minutes) and a lot smoother. Prior to the trip I made the usual preparations of cleaning my room and making sure I had a empty bucket (in case I threw up), fresh towels and tissues etc. The experience itself was quite underwhelming, despite it being 20mg. It’s difficult to know whether I have a high tolerance to psychedelics (I don’t to stimulants) or whether the substance I have is not the best quality. It looks like what HCl should look like, and I did test it with the Ehrlich test kit so there’s a good chance it contains 5-MeO, but you can’t be sure of course. I had the same issue with mushrooms, in that I took 3.5g (which is considered a pretty big dose) and had a fairly big emotional release, but no mystical insights or experiences. So i’m inclined to think I have a high tolerance. Anyway, as I said the experience wasn’t all that interesting. I was completely lucid throughout the whole experience, which lasted around 45 minutes. I could have got up and walked around if I needed to. There was no heavy heart pounding, anxiety or fear. Most importantly though, I didn’t have any insights whatsover. The most noticeable effect of the trip was that I went into a natural and quite effortless contemplation/inquiry. It was almost like the inquiry was just happening by itself. There was no desire to think about anything else. I was mainly drawn to the question What is aware? as I had a sense that experience was just being itself, it was just existing and that there was no thing being aware of it but itself. But this was quite vague and I couldn’t quite work out what I was experiencing. The other noticeable effect was a quite clear sense of timelessness. I got a sense that there was no time, and that everything stood completely still in the present moment. But again, this didn’t lead to any insights and it wasn’t all that powerfull. So I guess my next dose will be 25mg. If nothing comes of that, then i’d be wary of going any higher. Not sure if I want to do 30mg.

I appreciate the words of encouragement...

Sure, I can see those being important factors. Although with something as powerfull as 5-MeO, my assumption would be that it would override those factors to some degree. I don't really know though to be honest, maybe not. Anyway, I will continue experimenting. I plan on taking 25mg at some point, along with some other substances, so I will report back if anything comes of that. Appreciate the feedback as always!

@Leo Gura Yea it was definitely not anything like what you have described in the past. I would be surprised if my tolerance was that high that 20mg doesn't have much effect. So my guess is that the batch I got was either poor quality or mixed with something else, unfortunately.

@Outer My bad, it was 20mg. The scale read 0.02g. I've corrected my post. Thanks!

@Truth I think meditation, self-inquiry etc is just as important as psychedelics. They compliment and support each other. Both are important for your growth. Just please download and use a VPN before doing any 'research'!

@Shakazulu What he said is rubbish. No discussion or debate necessary. It's possible to awaken your Kundalini in a matter of days or even hours. Unlikely, but possible.

Start doing self-inquiry now, don't wait until you have a year off to do it. It's very easy and also quite satisfying to imagine yourself taking a year off and pursuing consciousness work full time. But in reality, will you be able to do this? When it comes to sitting down for hours on end, will you be able to do it? Don't underestimate the power of the ego and resistance to this work. I'm not discouraging you from doing it. Quite the opposite in fact. But try to set realistic expectations.

@herghly Get the app Insight Timer and you can set custom time interval bells. Might be what you're looking for.

@AleksM Dude put some sub-headings in so it's easier to navigate. @Serotoninluv Did you even read what Leo wrote?..

add in some retreats, some well-prepared psychedelic trips, and a hint of good luck and you're sorted.

@VadsterLobster If you haven't seen Leo's blog this is the article about a typical Dark Room retreat: https://hridaya-yoga.com/reflections-on-a-40-day-dark-retreat/ This can't be done at home with the blinds closed or a blindfold haha! Just use some common sense. In most cases it needs to be done at a dark room retreat centre, where they have specifically designed rooms. You don't want to be cooking for yourself during a dark retreat, for obvious reasons.

@Leo Gura Leo you've got some serious flexibility! Or i've just got really really bad flexibility haha. After watching your recent Blog video I gave the posture a go but couldn't get anywhere near it. My legs are not flexible enough, so they end up being raised up off the ground quite a lot.

In most cases, crying is an act of maturity. Children cry out of immaturity, but crying out of compassion for other being's suffering, or as Leo said, the beauty of reality, is a genuine expression that should embraced at every opportunity. For years I resisted and rejected crying because I thought is was immature and 'un-manly'. How wrong I have been.

I guess try to be proactive after work on weekdays and make the most of what you have. Have certain goals for what you want to achieve on a day-to-day basis, as well as long term goals that you're slowly working towards. Maybe it's something super simple like reading for 30 minutes. Try to be organised and break up what time you have into focused periods of activity. Personally I find dedicating specific amounts of time to certain activities helps make the most of the time I have. This doesn't apply to everything you do, but things like reading, as I said, meditation, exercise work well in time 'chunks'. Setting aside certain amounts of time for certain activities really puts you into the present, and brings all your attention to that activity.

@Charlotte I know in the US MDMA has recently been announced as a breakthrough therapy for PTSD. Not sure how accessible the treatment is in the UK though. Definitely worth reading up of that if you're not familiar already. Even though he might not be willing to meditate, it's worth mentioning that increasing self-awareness through mindfulness meditation would probably help. Might take some time, and its difficult to say how effective it would be, but my guess is that it would help in the long run.

You can turn them back on in the settings.

So now the real contemplation starts. Who are you really then?

@Jackthelad I see awakening and comedy as very compatible. If there are a lot of damaged or broken people in the job, then it would be a good opportunity to help spread higher consciousness. There's nothing like genuine laughter to raise the energy in a room and make people feel at ease, relaxed, and in a higher consciousness state. No, not at all, quite the opposite most likely.

@Jamesc Are you saying 'can i be enlightened and just have a normal job?'. Of course! You can do whatever you want, whether you're enlightened or not.

As I mentioned in my previous post, some teachers advocate labelling, some don't. You need to try out different techniques and see which ones work best for you. The Do Nothing technique is Vipassana, but that obviously doesn't involve labelling. My understanding is that within the Goenka Vipassana tradition, no labels are used. So if you go on a traditional Vipassana retreat I don't think you will be using labels. But within the Mahasi Sayadaw tradition, on the other hand, labelling is a central aspect to the techniques. And i'm sure it varies in many other traditions too. I went on a Mahasi-style Vipassana retreat last year and I was labelling 24/7! In my opinion, labelling is very effective in reducing the chances of getting lost in monkey mind as Shinzen points out in this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StBTuX0tqU8. I'm not sure why @eskwire is being so assertive about his way of doing things. It's just factually wrong to say that labels are not part of Vipassana. Leo has also advocated labelling for a long time now. Also check out this video on using spoken labels: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cRPfi_Bw1pQ&t=4s

1) Well i'd say as long as you notice both the thought and the feeling it doesn't matter. The noticing or acknowledging part is what is important, rather than examining it. Labelling is optional, but obviously helps reinforce the noticing, and keeps you focused and concentrated. You also want to be labelling both the thought and the feeling. They are separate experiences. In terms of the actual words used, you can use either simple words like 'feeling', or you can get more specific and use words like 'fear', 'dread', etc, as you say. Different teachers advise different approaches. Don't get too caught up in the label though. The majority of your focus should go into noticing experience. In response to one of the other comments here, you absolutely can actually whisper the label physically, as opposed to just saying it in your mind. Shinzen Young advocates this if you find your concentration is low. I find it's very effective and usually start out by quietly whispering the labels with my mouth. If you've got good concentration though you can just say them mentally. 2) Not sure on this one. You want to be focused and alert when you're meditating so i'm not sure that doing it right before bed is the best idea. But if it works for you then go for it. My guess is that it wouldn't affect your day time meditation, but can't say for sure. 3) You can fix your posture, thats fine. But it's important to be mindful of the whole process. Note the sensation pain, note the thoughts that arise with that, note the desire to move or the aversion to the discomfort (basically the same thing) this is very important, note any resistance to the discomfort, note the intention to move, note the sensations of moving, note the emotional state of reducing the pain etc.

Check out the episodes on this podcast https://thethirdwave.co/psychedelic-podcast/. Plenty of people on there who are into psychedelics and entrepreneurship in some form. Another good psychedelic website which might spark some business ideas/directions to head in http://www.evolveandascend.com/

Stumbled across this nice little video whilst procrastinating. Thought it was worth sharing.

I bought the course last year and finished it. I didn't end up with a crystal clear life purpose, but I learnt a huge amount about myself and the theories/concepts taught in the course. At the end of the course I basically had a bunch of possible directions to go in, which was great because I could take action It gave me some direction and focus, but as I said, I was still left a bit aimless and confused. I don't see it as wasted money though, partly because it's so damn cheap compared to most courses these days (you really get your moneys worth), but also because at the time it was what I really needed. I'm sure it's had lasting effects on the way I think about my life purpose. I'll be an ongoing process of for many years to come.