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  1. @Javfly33 Nevermind, I must have misinterpreted what you wrote beforehand. Would rather not go down that useless rabbit hole again anyway
  2. @nistake hahahaha facts my dude, he's my favourite right now
  3. You've clearly had some horrible relationship experiences, so I'm sorry about that. Moral of the story: Men and Women are cunts. Finding peace within oneself will engender a kind of giving that's not excessive and needy; the idea of this being true love is a Disney style lie. Men don't like it, and women CERTAINLY don't like it either, understandably so. Like all things in life, it's about balance.
  4. @Javfly33 I share your distaste for solipsism, doesn't match up with my experiences at all.
  5. Oh I'm certain there are women who won't give a fuck no matter how much the man loves them. Women do this to men all the time, "I gave them everything I could" sounds extremely needy and neurotic, people can't handle that kind of energy. No offence. Yea see most people would associate that with some clinical form of narcissism possibly stemming from a personality disorder, not just being an asshole. And from that description hearing you say you gave everything to a narcissist sounds like a codependent-narcissist relationship, if one doesn't fix that within themselves they will always attract these same destructive characters into their lives whether they realise it or not. It's a vicious cycle.
  6. I think narcissist fits that definition better, in my eyes an asshole is simply a dominant man who also speaks very bluntly and doesn't really give a fuck about the response, if you constantly cared about not offending anyone you'd just turn into a timid pussy, which is what most "nice" guys are. A lot of the time the nice guy act is just a facade stemming from selfishness with insecure overtones, which is why they are the most in denial about their selfishness; the "asshole" who just blurts it out usually has a lot less to hide; they can embrace the shitty side we all have instead of suppressing it. Just from my experience.
  7. @Snt_lk Don't focus so much on dissolving "others" without having first dissolved the one who is having experience. Once you awaken to your true self as this boundless empty infinite consciousness you will see this very same essence/soul in everything you experience, thus the belief in "others", "self", "objects" and "matter" is realised to be nothing more than this singular consciousness; the relativistic world is seen as merely a dream conjured up by it. I like to think of this illusory splitting into dualities as a means of the universe knowing itself; God is Love and Love can be seen as a shared dance. There's really nothing more to it than that other than to experience this directly for oneself; let go of all the stories you tell yourself, all thoughts and concepts will pull you further away from this ineffable Truth. “Never forget that the universe is a single living organism possessed of one substance and one soul, holding all things suspended in a single consciousness and creating all things with a single purpose that they might work together spinning and weaving and knotting whatever comes to pass.” Marcus Aurelius. I probably overly promote Adya's work in this forum but post my LSD awakenings this has been the best means to return to this eternal state, so it may work for you.
  8. Ketamine can cause powerful ego death, but if you have an addictive personality be careful in that regard. That being said it's psychologically easier than most psychedelics so you shouldn't have to worry about freaking out and traumatising yourself. It can be hedonistic in lower doses (although better that than alcohol imo) but the higher ego dissolving doses I wouldn't consider so hedonistic.
  9. "Most of what we call adults are actually just grown up children." Fucking facts, that statement is probably more relevant today than ever before.
  10. Mushrooms are amazing, my last trip took me out of my head and into my gut where these spirits came over basically doing soul surgery on me, radiating this healing energy towards that area that I now realise was a lot of stuck energy I was holding onto due to trauma, and opened that wound to healing that made me feel much more open. A lot of stuff came up and I was able to face it all; very cathartic. Coming out of the experience I felt brave, cleansed, open, present and deeply connected with nature.
  11. hahahaha damn, haven't had 5 meo yet... although I did go into a white light on LSD. Haven't been the same since (thank God....literally )
  12. You sure that isn't just mania? I guess everyone's idea of what that baseline state looks like is different. I'm sure there is much more healthy expressions of a different baseline state.
  13. I was more so replying to Bipolar Growth's suggestion.
  14. Seems like according to this forum having fun is no longer ok
  15. Edibles can be psychedelic as fuck, similar feeling to mushrooms without so much visual stuff going on. Good integration tool imo. Ketamine can be both therapeutic and a pretty reliable means to ego death, and MDMA healed my trauma. Who are you to declare what drug can have benefits and what can't, just because it isn't classically psychedelic? Many people react terribly to classic psychedelics and these can be alternatives for them.
  16. That's a symptom of prohibition. Sounds like you just have an addictive personality my dude. Pretty biased opinion.
  17. I'm not your Dad but personally I don't think it's worth the risk and would most likely lead to a serious burnout of the highest degree; tripping is absolutely exhausting (which is why I'm currently on break). It very well could lead to a permanent change, but a positive one? I wish, I've seen people go overboard with acid and it literally never has benefits the way responsible use does, they just look absolutely cooked and out of touch with reality. That being said the idea of their being some hardcore vipassana style retreat that would also include spaced out responsible use of psychedelics would be fucking awesome. THAT I could get on board with.
  18. Really?!? I'm curious about these non dual artists aha, can you tell me some?
  19. I think he should exclusively devote the book to his porn collection, nothing else. Could b huge
  20. True, Never said it can't be, but the idea that it's that way for everyone is just not true either; personally I've experienced both sides of the spectrum, being addicted (which was ultimately my fault) to using occasionally quite easily after seeing the cons. But anyone who's been heavily addicted to something is naturally going to be biased against the idea of it having any pros as a means to protect themselves. From an addiction standpoint I can see where you're coming from, but as a case by case basis it's kinda ridiculous to think smoking 5 meo has less risk than weed; if that were the case you should have no issue smoking 5meo in the city and going about your day. I mean people can get seriously traumatised from single experiences in a way that simply doesn't happen with weed (or at least nowhere near as much and even if it does happen it's not even on the same level of traumatised). The best example would be one such person in this forum I'm sure you're aware of who got very messed up off a single dose, the only way that could happen with weed is if you were schizophrenic. But on the flip side the dangers are certainly underestimated in many stoners (for obvious reasons of overcoming prohibition). IMO weed has too many benefits to be shrugged off, not that it's for everyone. Seeing people on this forum advocate for consistent use of psychedelics than criticise weed makes me laugh. Agreed. I mean you don't have to ahahaha
  21. Not from my experience, whilst alcohol gives me anxiety upon withdrawing weed's relaxation lingers post use. Plenty of people can smoke once every few weeks with no deleterious effects whatsoever, but of course doing it anymore than that is a bad idea. Do you have this stance regarding frequency of use with powerfully mind altering psychedelics?