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@Joseph Maynor What you said is going over my head. What do you mean?

Curious. Is this coming from a place of having tested 5meo and others, or a similar feeling of not knowing if you need them?

I often wonder what percentage of people on the forum believe they understand God but conform to Leo's experience as a higher authority. Taking it on as truth without direct experience because, after listening or reading what Leo has to say for hundreds of hours, it "just makes sense" Then they start to see the world in a similar light to Leo, without ever getting there themselves. Note: I am not the exception I bring this up because although I have had enlightenment experiences and awakenings, including a solipsism awakening (I am happy to dive into what chain of events led to all of that, but that's not the main point of this post), I have NEVER taken a psychedelic. I don't know how much deeper there is to go, but another part of me feels as though I don't need to go any deeper. I know Peter Ralston does not use psychedelics. I don't follow his work deeply atm. I will dive into him deeper, but I feel as though I have had more of a Ralston experience so far, rather than what Leo talks about specifically. However, through my own experience combined with Leo's information, it's as though my perspective on things leans more towards Leo than purely how Ralston sees things. I don't see Leo as the ultimate Authority of my mind, but I can't help but admire his commitment to this path and all of the deep information he shares in contrast to others. What amount of this is conforming vs. contemplation and direct experience? I guess only I am to know. However, if I had a true God awakening, then I don't think I would occasionally put myself under such doubt... but then again, maybe this doubt is healthy. Maybe I only doubt because I take Leo seriously, so I would like to experience 5meo to see what that is like, vs. what I have had... It's like everything in me is saying, "You get it :)" because I really feel as though I do... but then a little voice says, "Do you really?"

@Natasha Tori Maru I like it when women are nice, but not nice in a way where they are being fake. I would rather someone be able to express how they feel and not conform to what I think, without ever letting themselves have a voice. I try to give everyone a voice, but I have known some women who like me enough to the point that they shove down what they think and conform to me...

@Olaf I can't tell if you are serious

Proud stage purple here

@Yimpa Thanks

@Davino Wow, nice video

What is really interesting about this is his stage blue, Christian parents, and family. They acted like he was Satanic and were trying to force him into a "Normal Life." There is more to the video than this. Let me know if you find it interesting. Obviously, you don't have to watch the entire thing unless you want to.

Is that based on the subreddit you were in, or ALL of Reddit?

I think the biggest thing is that I feel like those 4 years or so could be spent deepening my knowledge in other helpful ways. 4 years down the drain feels like a bit of a waste now.

On another note, even after watching that video, I am not sure if I should go to college for a psychology or neuroscience kinda of degree or not. I am 24, and I would like to help others with deep emotional intelligence from an enlightenment angle, kind of like Joe Hudson or Byron Katie, but in my own way. Do I need a degree to be supported in this? I don't think I do; I have done some college and know how to use an academic mind when needed. At the same time, maybe having their general baseline knowledge and the credentials could help... It's interesting, at least. I mean, it's all so fuzzy right now. I will just start saving up money while I figure it out. Any thoughts from those here?

This dude made a video that might help you. https://www.actualized.org/articles/should-you-go-to-college

@Yimpa

Why should I care where I go after I die? If the basis of my sense of self is illusory, then all of the worries about going to one place or another don't matter much. In death, I might be a bit scared if I am not fully egoless in that moment, but as I am now, the parts after it don't matter much. Whatever is, already is. I just want to keep on growing myself consciously while I am here, understanding reality deeply, fully loving, mastering survival, and enjoying this dream. Worrying about what happens next? Why should I? It will happen. There will come a time. That's fine. Knowing I will die helps me appreciate living that much more. It's like Leo says: We invented death. I cry blissful tears at the beauty of reality. The beauty of God. Edit: This doesn't directly address your concerns, but I don't know if I can engage with them in a way that might satisfy you. I just wanted to write about my own experience instead. Maybe you will take something from it? If not, no worries.