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To me the heightening consciousness feels like pushing a 1000 tonne train on a level set of train tracks. You have to push really hard and you will not feel how it get heightened moment by moment, it slowly builds momentum after months and years of practice. When you really get it going it will keep its momentum for a while and gradually goes down. I did a lot of meditation years ago i felt like my consciousness was like a stream of projected images cast on an invisible sphere, and every moment was created, born, dreamt right before me out of nothing. I needed to focus on other things and my consciousness slowly went back to where it were but cognitively the way i look at the world have been re-contextualized.

This might be a interesting read, its a list of trans personal effects of psychedelics. The author comes from an materialist worldview tho. https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Transpersonal_effects

Did not watch the linked video. But there was a hoax in the 60s that bananas contained psychedelic bananadine: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bananadine However on the topic psychedelic foods there is a "psychedelic" dream fish. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hallucinogenic_fish Hamilton Morris tries eating them on one of his episodes of his show that you can find

Weed makes me smile and laugh. Psychs puts me more into a serous contemplative and focused mood. However my mind often feel less rigid afterwards and its easier to get perspective on things and take stuff less serious.

True. When i'm around people that seem too "normal" i get anxious, like they cant be trusted lol.

Probably you have poor social calibration and instead off cool you come across as unhinged or creepy. Lets say you approach a woman in a casual place like in a store or cafe, how exactly does this I don't care energy manifest?

This is my fave Alex Grey painting, the way everything is translucent reminds me of how everything can feel illusory. Made out of pure consciousness out of nowhere from nothing, at high states of consciousness.

True. I bet he will loose most of his online fame and disappear in one or two years like Andrew Tate.

I think he dabbled in psychedelics or self inquiry and it made him very uncomfortable, he even called emergency services on himself if i recall correctly its been a while since i listened to his podcast.

Has anyone read it through, how does it compare to the book of not knowing?

The beauty of my visual field. No mater what happens there will at least be a sunset to look at.

"Once upon a time, I dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was myself. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man." -Zhuangzi (Its a gold mine )

If you're unsure you can start with observing how you feel and your thoughts. Things might come up, maybe something feels off or inspiring etc. Maybe certain ideas, concepts or memories come up. If something is particularity meaningful focus on that. Use your intuition.

Here are my wishes as someone that have watched all videos several times and read through basically the entire blog. A lot of these are obvious. Try to be succinct and to the point sometimes you use to many examples. You often explain things by giving examples of instances of the subject it and you often go to far like giving 15 examples of what love or unity looks like. Do not make references to current popular culture. Don't make crude jokes or edgy examples like "abuse is love", Its distasteful. Saying something like "absolutely everything is love" is more effective at leading people to truth because its less triggering and distracting with its bombast. Don't go on epic rants against Atheists, religious people, MAGA people, normies etc. Don't beat a dead horse, only clever and insightful arguments against these things. Don't talk about yourself like "I have accessed a level of conspicuousness where... " Instead make it about consciousness itself, like: "Consciousness is capable reach a level where..." What THIS present consciousness is, its potential, its nature etc. This is more true, tasteful and effective form of communication and inspiration imo. Take the insights you got from first person, remove yourself completely from it and make it about consciousness instead. There is almost no need to even mention yourself or use words like "me" and "I" at all when talking about the absolute, epistemology, metaphysics. You have a bad habit of talking and making things about yourself to the point that i am embarrassed to share your work to other people. Like when you said that your YT music playlist is worth 1000 dollars. Thanks.

Find a group of people with common interests were you will get recurring contact with the same people. Super easy to find these groups on the internet. If you have problems connecting with people on a deeper level than just being acquaintances there is books out there for you to read. Simple. Seems to me that you are to caught up in negative thinking.