amberlight

True. When i'm around people that seem too "normal" i get anxious, like they cant be trusted lol.

Probably you have poor social calibration and instead off cool you come across as unhinged or creepy. Lets say you approach a woman in a casual place like in a store or cafe, how exactly does this I don't care energy manifest?

This is my fave Alex Grey painting, the way everything is translucent reminds me of how everything can feel illusory. Made out of pure consciousness out of nowhere from nothing, at high states of consciousness.

True. I bet he will loose most of his online fame and disappear in one or two years like Andrew Tate.

I think he dabbled in psychedelics or self inquiry and it made him very uncomfortable, he even called emergency services on himself if i recall correctly its been a while since i listened to his podcast.

Has anyone read it through, how does it compare to the book of not knowing?

The beauty of my visual field. No mater what happens there will at least be a sunset to look at.

"Once upon a time, I dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was myself. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man." -Zhuangzi (Its a gold mine )

If you're unsure you can start with observing how you feel and your thoughts. Things might come up, maybe something feels off or inspiring etc. Maybe certain ideas, concepts or memories come up. If something is particularity meaningful focus on that. Use your intuition.

Here are my wishes as someone that have watched all videos several times and read through basically the entire blog. A lot of these are obvious. Try to be succinct and to the point sometimes you use to many examples. You often explain things by giving examples of instances of the subject it and you often go to far like giving 15 examples of what love or unity looks like. Do not make references to current popular culture. Don't make crude jokes or edgy examples like "abuse is love", Its distasteful. Saying something like "absolutely everything is love" is more effective at leading people to truth because its less triggering and distracting with its bombast. Don't go on epic rants against Atheists, religious people, MAGA people, normies etc. Don't beat a dead horse, only clever and insightful arguments against these things. Don't talk about yourself like "I have accessed a level of conspicuousness where... " Instead make it about consciousness itself, like: "Consciousness is capable reach a level where..." What THIS present consciousness is, its potential, its nature etc. This is more true, tasteful and effective form of communication and inspiration imo. Take the insights you got from first person, remove yourself completely from it and make it about consciousness instead. There is almost no need to even mention yourself or use words like "me" and "I" at all when talking about the absolute, epistemology, metaphysics. You have a bad habit of talking and making things about yourself to the point that i am embarrassed to share your work to other people. Like when you said that your YT music playlist is worth 1000 dollars. Thanks.

Find a group of people with common interests were you will get recurring contact with the same people. Super easy to find these groups on the internet. If you have problems connecting with people on a deeper level than just being acquaintances there is books out there for you to read. Simple. Seems to me that you are to caught up in negative thinking.

@Leo Gura Whats your thoughts and experience with this law of attraction type stuff? I guess it gives one confidence and audacity, a positive mindset. But is it really more than that?

Of course take responsibility for your health. But in the end worrying about is a loosing game, your body is slowly disintegrating every day and what is going to happen to your body i at large not under you control. You should spend a day at a nursing home, what happens to the body and mind at 85+ years is horrifying. Its a fact of life. But you are using you mind wrong if you ruminate about it. Are you living healthily right now or working towards being able to afford a healthy lifestyle? Is your health failing right now? Why worry about it? Do your best to live your best live. At 22 you will probably live a long and healthy life as long as you don't get into a car accident, overdose or commit suicide. If you work hard one day you might transcend your fear of death and have a more free mind. And even if you don't its fine everything is equal after death.