Eskilon

Thanks for this compilation!

Yeah its this, the weirdness its beautiful but scary The whole work is to overcome resistance to greatness. Conciousness is like = "Why are you resisting profound love, you fool!"

I understand. I will go as far as to say that Spirituality is a battle against fear. To understand reality is to beat fear. Truth will test you a thousandfold, if you are honest, brave enough then it reveals itself to you. Thanks a lot for your tips, will try it.

Yes, I was at the brink of something big in my last trip on shrooms. I even perceived that it "offered" me a breakthrough and... I couldn't take it/continuing going deep. Like you said fear. If I did accept the offer, I intuit very deeply that I didn't know how "I" or reality would be after. It was crazy, but I also sensed that it was gonna be awesome, I wasnt ready to that degree of awesomeness lol. Its crazy scary. I still love the world somewhat, I couldn't let go of this very limited world. Suffering from greatness, can you believe this shit? LMAO I guess I am not ready to let go fully of my personhood and go into Brahmanhood. I was beginning to actually understand and feel that there's NO difference whatsoever between you and any other thing. And this wasnt something light, its not on an intellectual level, its not like you read somewhere and get it. But a new dimension of understanding, I guess its Being. It was really intense, and I am glad the medicine didnt force me and was gentle enough for allowing me to back it off. Something like 5-meo wouldn't allow it as I understand it. Currently I am washed. I can stay in being without thoughts. Eyes closed or open. I am so grateful for this. I also feel a hotness inside of me since that day, in the heart area, its pleasant. I agree that gounding methods are essential, and should be practiced, I will try them for sure. Honestly, hats off to all of you who do this work, you guys are BRAVE as fuck! I am proud of everyone here.

I agree with you, suffering and fear are the two gatekeepers to God.

I know I just need to accept it, but its too profound. Accepting is the key, it's simple, it's profound, it's greatness. But my little self is afraid, at least for now. Oh well, more work for me to do.

Sure, until you drastically change your state and this doesnt mean much.

I guess that's one way to frame it. But this doesn't help.

I see, I would say I am already pretty healthy mentally, emotionally and etc. I am silent. But there's still fear. I don't know about spiritual development without suffering. Buddha, prior to being Buddha suffered alot, Jesus, I think its fundamental to the path. It is beautiful too, I takes a great soul and bravery to pursue this work, that's why nobody does it.

So you do a lot of physical activities to stay grounded, that is good. But what I am saying is when you in the middle of a spiritual practice, be it meditation or psychedelics, fear will pop up, and sometimes a very intense fear -- your sense of self is being severly challenged. I know you can say, accept everything, let go etc etc, but is not that simple I am afraid. At that moment, what do you personally do?

You guys that are serious into this work can probably relate. There comes a point where fear and especially the fear of losing one's mind is very real. And many people say that fear is the biggest scam there is in this work, but really at the same time it is very difficult to overcome it. You guys that have gone deep know this. How is your attitude to fear and insanity in this work? And especially those who did not awake yet(like me), if awakening implies insanity, are you ready for that? Is there really a line where awakening is possible and you can maintain your sanity? Should one really do this work only if there's nothing more one hold dear in life? I am starting to understand the cost of understanding. Truth is a very serious matter.

Well, anecdotally too, people report that ETs have control of visibility of UFOS, so if you see one, they know you are seeing them and they are allowing you to see them, and chances are that only you or a handfull of people are seeing them. There are many accounts of people getting close to UFOs and nothing significantly happening to them. If any thing physiological and psychological effects happens more on onboard experiences. Not saying any of this is true beyond a shadow of doubt, but yeah. All in all, I wouldn't touch it that's for sure.

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