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I'm a kind person, I love deep thinking, spirituality, I'm attracted to knowledge, I bear monotonity, I like beling alone, I like classical music, I like artistic music, I have an analitical mind. I tend to got obsessed with a goal until I reach it.

I watched the video. Thanks for help. I love gaming. I stick to gaming. I play Krunker.

Thanks for comments. I talk about hobbies. I don't talk about jobs. So far my hobby is to be good at a certain video game I like and be the best in it. This means putting many hours of playing every day for many years. I'm just not ceartain that this is what I should do. Maybe there are better things to do.

I'm a very introverted person. some minutes ago only 5 girl passed next to me so I approached only 5. All of them were maximum 4 out of ten. I approcahed them with smoothness and improvisation. 2 of them smiled and said they have a boyfriend. 2 of them didn't look at me just laught at me. 1 of them looked angry.

I'm 22 y old. I'm here next to college, sitting in the bench, but ia fear to approach. I will go only for looksmatch (4 out of 10) or below. This is a relativly small town, I fear people will take me as crazy.

Is it true that if somebody is ugly (for example four out of ten look) then he has to be extremely good in something, work really hard to get a normal or even valuable girlfriend? Like if a woman is interested in in a certain hobby then you have to be in the upper 20% of men in that thing. Like if the girl like traveling then you have to travel at the best places, or if the girl is a gamer then you have to be better than 80% of men or if she is into building career then you will be the boss somewhere.

I'm passionate about anything which is about perfecting a skill.

I feel like I should get obsessed with something and be the best in it. What should I choose? But the problem also is that if I really want to be the best by far then I have to commit many years, like being the best in smaller sports or being the best in certain video games or something like that. It is more logical if I would just have smaller goals and get obsessed with them, but this is against my feeling. Also I'm not interested in money, this is why I write in this subforum.

In the past I almost religiously believed that I need earplugs for improved sleep, but now I understand that it's just a distraction for me.

I tried it, but I'm not doing it, because if there is any benefit then that's not noticable, and then it's not worth it. Just try to enjoy your life and time...

I'm not social enough to have conformity, sorry...

It's just a passing feeling, I would not build on it. Or be a vetenary assistant.

I want to have the next and next experiences, as fast as possible🔥 Of course within some boundaries.

You guys don't know what practically schizoprenia is ...