Schizophonia

Not yet experienced to be aware of/understand this. 😅 I say this because I asked a YouTuber I know who has consumed it several times, and compared the experience to being "like totally dead to the point where the notion of being alive no longer made sense" and that it felt like there were thousands of years between each breath. Of course it was a big dose vaped. I visualize. During my last experience, I felt a unique sense of warmth and intimacy, with typical psychedelic visions, but darker and more "masculine," if that means anything, than other psychedelics. What do you mean by that ? I had this panic attack during my first trip with a huge dose. All I remember was a big white light in my imagination, and me fidgeting around, remembering my identity while paradoxically nothing was happening.

I have to try again. But I should smoke it, to get through the barrier as quickly as possible. I heard that the concept of time is distorted and that the trip can seem to last for years or something like that. Is that exaggerated?

Sometimes when I come out of a hypnagogic state, especially after having almost gone into a lucid dream/sleep paralysis, I feel like I have entered a super state of intelligence and unlocked the mysteries of the universe lol.

No you already manifest all your life; It’s about being more conscient of how you do it. Life is basically like non-newtonian fluid (like when you put corn starch in water, if you hit hit quickly/strongly it becomes hard); The more you react to something the more it becomes real and vice versa. Something is made conscious, and generates, unconsciously takes a denser form that we call reality. If you find all this strange, you can simply take it all as some kind of personal development advice.

Based.

Like with everything you wish; Living in the desired state. Everything else is irrelevant, it's just wading through the shifting sands of the Maya.

Do you like your dad

I mean there wasn't a single moment when we were "perfect," because how could something perfect suddenly not be perfect anymore? So I guess we've always been egos in some form or another. It was smart. I'm still agree a priori. Obviously

Yep. It seems impossible that something perfect, infinite, could "suddenly" produce an ego, a limited and evolving experience; It’s the story of the big bang, there would be "nothing", nothing since "always", and then all of a sudden BOOM an evolving universe in a temporal dimension of dual and relative structures. The most obvious would therefore be that absolute unity does not really exist, is an illusion, and that we are fundamentally "trapped" in an infinite cycle of reincarnation, the « samsara wheel ». I remember you had made a topic on the same or similar reasoning which made you doubt the Buddhist possibility of the end of reincarnations. I don't know 😂 It was a funny theory I read. The idea is that for reasons of quantum logic, if you are conscious it is because ultimate is in the version of your ego that will survive infinitely. You are not going to commit suicide, you are not going to choke on blood pudding, you are not going to get thunderbolts, and you will surely find a solution (transhumanism, medications...) to basically become immortal; Maybe you will evolve until you forget this current form, but there will never be a "death" as a "quantum leap".

@Razard86

Everything that is limited is a relative true. Then if the question is whether there is potentially another scenario than reincarnation in infinity, well that would mean that something that has no beginning can have an end, which is a bit of an aberration a priori. I saw a theory that if you're conscious, then you're in a "quantum immortality" scenario; Meaning you're a version of Sugarcoat that's never going to "die" for some reason. I think that was a troll lol but it's still fun to imagine that.

Don't overdo it either lol, there are plenty of other problems that cause anxiety, intellectual performance problems etc well before cannabis. You have to have been a heavy consumer over a long period of time to develop these kinds of problems. You will also recover after withdrawal, unless as you said it was a dormant schizophrenia.

It would piss me off to be fetishized like that because it means that the love I have is extremely conditional. Black fetishes are very racist and a defect in Protestant countries; I live in a region where the male culture is quite bawdy, and there are a lot of big (white) rugby players who are more androgenic than average. I've never seen women with a fetish for black people, very probably because in their subconscious there isn't that much difference in injections when it comes to behavior between black and white men. If what I'm saying makes sense.

Gay 🐋

So, i was supposed to shoot a video and posting it but I actually had to do at Toulouse with my family; I wasn’t supposed to. So it will be for the 20th. 🐋

If gender dysphoria develops during the phallic phase, then people will feel as if they have "always been like this."

Clairvoyance increases ego.

Second grand schism between us eheh. I’m more of a small or medium-sized city person; If I were to live in a city, I would be in my apartment most of the time. When I was little I loved the abundance of people, I even said that "the forests should be cut down to make houses and factories" lol; But for some reason it's gone and now I prefer nature. And yet I still have a large ego that prevents me from fully enjoying the little things in life; I'm working on it. I thought the Croatian government was very right-wing. Croatia should protect its people.

Lol. I like Markus but it’s a nutrinazi.

Me too, but it’s because I add too much sriracha sauce in my sandwich, mhh.., Jk.

You are functional,continued to work and exercise while suffering from derealization, many people turn into vegetables for much less than that; Pat yourself on the shoulder. And people generally hide their suffering.

🤔 My mentor, Franck Lopvet, believes there's a big difference between what people think they are and how they actually look. This is especially true in countries where people are very polite and reluctant to give feedback, such as those in Central, Northern, and Far Eastern Europe. 1) What energy do you consciously want to release? 2) Do you suspect that you emit energies involuntarily, but that others don't dare or don't think to tell you? 3) Would you like others to give you feedback? Even if it's violent?