Schizophonia

Yes. Not a big deal.

Absolute terror.

You have a normal willingness to talk about what I can see from my side.

bruh

You said you could be satisfied with barely speaking to your family.

I don't know, I see a lot of old people who are super socially handicapped. The Internet also allows for socializing. It's mostly the touch that we miss, the carnal proximity. Not only in the sexual sense lol but also on a friendly level.

Yeah but you're not laughing, or you're just putting yourself in a particularly interesting frequency, while surfing on actualize. Well probably not.

Day 15 There are people who are manic enough to impulsively, quickly generate, visualize a new vision of themselves with enough attachment to it to hold on to it with a curious force. This is the case of my mother who after having smoked for several decades suddenly stopped; She had become hysterical for a week or two lol, but she had held on to this new vision of herself as a "non-smoker" and the prospect of smoking again triggered a feeling of shame. I am not like that, I am more like my father (in between the two basically) who lives much more in the present moment. It is a very good psychological disposition to have responsibilities, to manage things that are usually particularly stressful for most people, moreover my father has always been a hard worker and an entrepreneur, and has generally earned a very good living; But here it is, he doesn't want to stop smoking or drinking, even with health problems, because he has little emotional energy that pushes him to move ; It's a bit like "a bull's psyche" As for me, if I just "no fap to see what happens" like during nofap november, I know for sure that I will relapse and wallow in decadence after 24 hours 👺, because my phlegmatism/cynicism will take over again and I will say to myself "oh what's the point, it's useless". I need to visualize, see and feel this future, to put a real effort into it, to tangibly register myself in something tangibly promising; It's really essential , Then when the habit is formed, it will be formed firmly. Seminal retention kills two birds with one stone, if you have the motivation to hold on you will get even more motivation in the medium/long term thanks to the absence of a prolactin peak and the exhaustion of certain neurotransmitters, exhaustion of vital energy in general.

Eheh. I'm waiting for my hidden asian brother's one Dw It's just daydreaming, basically. For the moment my concrete goals are obviously much more humble things and I am satisfied with that.

No, he supports political parties in a democratic process hoping that Europe goes in a better direction. You yourself said in another topic that mass immigration was correlated with crimes.

lol I wonder why they are seriously responding to op, it's just a very fleeting manic delusion of someone who's probably just bored.

It's illegal everywhere in the world or almost.

Day 14 I slept well today 🫨 I will have more energy to manifest a delicious viking foid and 100,000€ cash. Yum I'm not going to go into details today, I really don't have time, I'm really making this post for the sake of regularity But what I really miss the most, jokes aside, is vitality; Not so much in the sense of physical energy but really vibrational. I don't feel bad, not depressed, in fact I've never really had suicidal or dark thoughts in general even in cases of extreme stress, but it seems that I still live overall, most of the time, in a fairly dry and poor frequency to my taste This is the conclusion that I can have here and there when I enter a particularly deep and unusual state of satisfaction, in fact in these states I even happen to feel what seems to be a rise of Kundalini: I can feel a sensation of pleasant heat in the body and more particularly in the lower spine. Not the anus or the sex, not an erogenous zone, but at the level of the coccyx, maybe a little above. Ideally I would be physically overpowered, very courageous, rational, with a lot of libido; And at the same time hyperintuitive, supercreative, with a lot of visions, creativity, and a natural inclination to be .high" I want to become an alien bodybuilder with 300 qi, master of manifestation lol. Maybe in the near future we will see 👺, nevermind.

Then it's not the size that matters, it's how you use it. 🤏 🤏

Tobacco contains a stimulant close to a racetam (nicotine) and even antidepressant compounds (MAOIs)

There is no contradiction. good I also had a bad cold the last time I was in northern Europe eheh. Probably the bacterial/viral strains differ depending on the country. Nevermind.

Thanks. Indeed the reason why you masturbate literally as well as figuratively (cigarette, food, watching videos on youtube, going on the forum very often) is to avoid a feeling of lack/emptiness; This emptiness corresponds to castration. You must accept castration otherwise you will refuse to contemplate that you lack healthy things (money, career, relationships, sport, health...) and that you have work to do. Otherwise you will seek to fill yourself urgently with drugs, undesirable behavior and neurotic behavior in general; Just like a ostrich who puts her head in the sand or a child who shouts "lalalalalala I can't hear" while covering her ears. What I call the symbolic phallus are what are considered as objects of desire (that is to say of power, unconsciously) by a normally constructed psyche (money, career, sport, women, cars...); If we had all fully integrated the supremacy of the symbolic order, there would probably be no one on this forum lol and we would all be working, picking up, and doing the "obvious" things to have more (more phallus). And the imaginary phallus is the one whose constitution is generated by non-acceptance and therefore castration anxiety; Since you refuse to look at the nullity of your life because it is too violent, humiliating, that you are lost etc (=castration) then once again you fall back on stupid objects. Neurosis is a normal and omnipresent process to varying degrees, it is a kind of "temporization". Anxious people, who have been more damaged by life, or simply who have been too accustomed to sources of easy pleasure will be more neurotic. In case it was not clear by "imaginary" I am not talking about the nature of the object, like a car in the imagination would be the imaginary phallus and a car in reality would be a symbolic car; It does not concern the object but the sexual drive, the energy that wants to bring the phallus. What I mean through this dichotomy is that if what is best, a priori, for your ego, is to go rock climbing but you prefer (I am talking about drive again, so if it is because you are handicapped it is another story) to smoke joints all day, the drug represents the imaginary phallus (which gives you a temporary feeling of power, because you are too lazy and/or fearful to choose escalation, = castration anxiety, the real goal, what is really considered the (symbolic) phallus by your ego.)) and the climbing the symbolic phallus (which the ego really would wants, target). I said joins but but maybe a healthy habit like bodybuilding, bodybuilding is sometimes if not often motivated by neurosis (fear of not being attractive enough, = castration anxiety). You want to jerk off imagining a pretty girl in your class because it makes you feel like you have a phallus (=power). So far it's real, you really do have the phallus (=symbolic phallus). But the real question is, wouldn't you rather have a partner or stay chaste for some reason? If the answer is true then the real phallus (the real object of satisfaction) is a woman, like actually making love, and jerking off while imagining fucking is a false phallus (=imaginary phallus) to avoid the pain of not having the "real" one and of having to make an effort. It's all a question of point of view. From this point of view, yes masturbation is rather a neurotic practice. Mea culpa if I repeat myself lol 😅, it's my habit.

Disease is the key to an energy equation. From the smallest wrinkle to generalized cancer through mental illnesses. Joe Dispenza manages to reverse phenomena that are supposed to be irreversible (brain damage following a stroke, terminal cancer, disability...) by making his patients change their sense of self; There are tons of positive testimonials in his youtube channel.

What do you suffer from if you don't mind ?

Princess Arabia's fantasies 😄

You can operate the law of attraction in an orthodox way by following Neville's advice, the law works the same way whether you understand, are aware of its operation or not. I think that an average but intelligent and healthy person could master and accept this new paradigm with the implications, I also think that a spiritual person could completely fail to obtain a greater creative power because it would threaten one's ego, in particular those who come from the blue stage spirituality (typically Abrahamic religions) or even worse (shamanism). These people will never really accept living in a simulation and this will block awareness. I have no problem with hopium ahah, the goal is of course still selfish even if paradoxically it requires a higher degree of detachment because you have to understand that you don't have something because you pretend to want it, and have something because it's what you really want at some point. I see it everywhere and in everyone now, it's blatant, even if I'm not yet conscious enough to observe the phenomenon from a less superficial level. I see it as an evolution of the basic human game that we (me and most of my mirrors) play. Now we play (are conscious) essentially the game of Newtonian physics, of distance, of having or not having, and by extension of the downstream minigames, in fractal models, like the big psycho-social minigame of the hero and the victim; I see the human experience as a fractal of play (= selfish experiences). We will switch to a game of greater oppulence, which btw corresponds with the arrival of technological singularity ; That of quantum physics, the goal will be awakening. The goal will be more to have or not 100,000€ or a girlfriend with flowers in hairs and a big buttocks👺 , but to understand that it is a projection in a game of self-discovery. This is also what Bashar Daryl says about alien civilizations, even if I don't have an opinion on this character it seems logical to me. Hoping that I did not answer beside eheh.

Day 13 I barely slept today despite being tired, maybe about 2 to 4 hours in total to give a fairly wide range? I still have here and there difficulties dissociating myself enough to fall asleep, the line is fine, it only takes a little too much vigilance to switch from a potential normal night of 6 to 8 hours to no sleep at all or almost; To be able to fall asleep, or even simply be more amnesic, you have to be able to suppress your attention, dilute it: Switch to thoughts of lesser importance with what I could call the technique of ("let it go, it's not important") lol, slow down the speed of mental speech in general, suppress sleep anxiety by totally accepting the possibility of not sleeping and the consequences (which is actually the easiest, from my point of view). With insomnia and other problems that I have had, I have learned to be much more detached, but sometimes it is not enough and this kind of thing happens, the important thing is that it sometimes goes in the right direction. The one who inspired me to make this journal, even if he talks mostly about seminal retention and some kind of personal development topics, suffers from ADHD and explained that he resorts here and there to sleeping pills or melatonin to be able to fall asleep, he also admitted to being on light doses of risperidone to calm his hyperactivity.

You are all answering wrongly actually. 😂 Nevermind.

What does this mean? You enjoy your family normally and eventually you can talk about this topic with them. It's like with any topic.

Day 12 Short post for today, i'm tired for some reasons. I often watch videos of Joe Dispensa, who often talks about manifestation, synchronicities, but it is not the hobby horse of his work. Neville Goddard is probably the biggest thinker, even if oddly he does not seem very well known even in the world of spirituality, of the theory of the law of attraction; He is in fact aware of solipsism and very much in agreement with the statements of Leo Gura. To summarize his thinking a little, the maya works like an echo chamber between what is unconsciously projected (i.e. matter) and what is consciously projected (mental discourse, the concept of self and what is by extension conceived to be accepted as true in general). We do not have power over the unconscious part (automatically) but we have it more or less over the conscious part; So to manifest something we simply have to remove thoughts, including and especially of an emotional nature, mental visualizations, imaginative, in general that assume the non-reality of what is desired, and on the contrary produce some that assume its reality. Wanting to eat an orange will manifest the experience of... wanting to eat an orange, but not having it! To manifest an orange, you must reconfigure your sense of self through visualizations assuming that you regularly eat oranges; This can be regularly sitting down and imagining, especially before sleeping where the mind is most suggestive, eating an orange: Feeling the taste of the orange, visualizing it in your hands, the smell, the sugar sticking to your fingers, and other pieces of the scenario like someone you know delivering this orange to you. Neville goggard would also say to do exercises like sticking up signs like "I'm not going to eat an orange" lol all over your apartment to condition the conscious to imagine this experience and cause the manifestation. I have manifested things or people, but it was never a conscious effort; Most of the time it came from simple little thoughts without effort, from "light" daydreaming. I think that's the difficulty, wanting to manifest something tacitly declares "I don't have this thing" and moves you to this frequency; Manifestation requires being selfless, but the line is fine, it is a particularly refined process and this is probably the reason why a conscious manifestation requires at least several days of effort, according to Neville Goddard or his predecessors. There are many videos of Neville Goddard on YouTube, but also of some of his followers including a certain O Locker and especially his grandson O Locker Junior who regularly spreads propaganda on YouTube. I will definitely make other posts on my journal to go into more detail about this. If the creative process starts to be able to be mastered to this point, then the whole game of this maya changes; it is not about passing the license, exams, buying a house, having a child or this kind of human NPC event lol, but about moving to a level where everything goes much faster.