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The world is going to end, so what? It was supposed to from the begining, nothing new here, even the sun will die at some point, what I perceived from your post is the realisation of impermanence, it seems you are deeply realising this world is the world of death, things are born and die in this world and everything and everyone in here will die at some point, be it in a short time frame or a longer one. What can you do about it? Nothing. Just rejoice with the idea of death, rejoice with the idea of the end of the world, dance with it, Love it ! It's all a show anyway and it was always supposed to be that way, ending at some point. Nobody knows when it will end but it will end at some point that's for sure, and there's nothing you can do about it except appreciating Life as it is right now in this very moment. Hope this help and I wish you a good integreation, let the medicine sink and do its work upon you, it's still working

As someone facing the same chanllenges with trauma healing I can say that psychedelics will lighten up your trauma and what you need to work on but they won't do the work for you, so you may experience more of your trauma during the experience or the days after, this is not a bad thing though, you're just getting showed what you need to change, everything about it gets enlightened so you get a better understanding of the mechanism of your trauma, but then it's up to you to take the steps to change it, and it can be good to get some help depending on your issue.

I personally think it's absolutely insane to give a breakthrough dose to people as their first dosage. For me it's like teaching sex to a virgin by directly raping her without cuddling or anything, it can get traumatizing and I would suggest going the slow route instead by geting to know the substance (yourself) and developing that relationship to the point you feel okay to do it (having a breakthrough). These places don't have time to make their clients develop a long lasting relationship with 5meo so they have to go straight to the point, while it can work for some people with good spiritual background, it can be an absolute mess for others who are not ready for it letting them with huge reactivations or terrible states afterward so if you have time, I would definitely advise to work your way up, listen to yourself and go for the breakthrough only when you are ready to fully let go

I like to use 5meo-DMT that way, between 1 to 3mg to process emotional stuff or release energetic knot. I kinda use it as an energetic tool to cleanse and it's very effective. Then I like to use Iboga in microdose to ground the teachings / insights I get from 5meo and restore balance around my receptor, these 2 are my go to and a very good combination

@The Crocodile It's good to see people from this place, I've tried the techniques laid out in the sub for years and I can say it definitely works to some extend but this requires so much effort that I had to let down and find my own way.. The concept laid out are very usefull to understand states of consciousness accurately though, especially the Assemblage Point where sorcerers are able to change state of consiousness at will without the aid of an external substance. Problem is this path felt kinda dark for me, dealing with inorganic beings is not the kind of energy I prefer so I had to find another path with more light

@Yimpa We are not a couple, our relationship is based on soul wounds, I'm pretty sure I attracted this girl to show me what I need to heal inside of me and same for her.. Thing is we both know we need to work on ourselves to form an healthy relationship and we are both willing to do the work but for now all we seem to do is hurt ourselves in the process.. I'm also trying to learn how to really Love myself but it's been years of trying at this point and it seems to be on and off like the Hearth center is a door that open sometimes and closes the rest of the time, looks like it's closed more often for me though @Norbert Somogyi Yeah, I've experienced that, it's like I'm desperatly in need of Love or even friendship, it's been 6 years of being single at this point and I've repeated enough time that I'm alone to actually become alone (thanks Law of attraction lmao) so when I meet someone it's like something huge where I attach lots of importance in my life so yeah, problem might come from there too

This years I've been presented with a very very tough relationship, I've gone through absolute dark times exposing all of my traumas and shit.. I don't usually believe in twin flame type of things but I'm pretty sure I've got a really strong link with that person, I had a strong deja vu when I first met her so it's probably this. Anyway, I've spent months with her dealing with difficult emotional ups and downs to the point of going mad and I finally realised that what I was feeling was not Love but Attachment which are two different things.. In fact, I feel deeply attached to this person to the point it controls how I feel on a daily basis and it's driving me mad I'm starting to understand the concept of Love without attachment from the Buddhist but I'd like to actually be able to achieve that kind of Love if possible.. How can I proceed? I meditate for 1 hour daily, sometimes more for at least 4 years, I've dable with 5meos multiple times, have experience with Iboga and did a lot of personal work, but still, here I am as a complete newbie sentimentally speaking and I'm starting to feel tired of it already

@OBEler The weather is like an unconscious phenomena, you are doing it as God but you are not fully aware of it, same goes for beating your heart, you are the one doing it but unconsciously so I'm not sure if we can take on full responsibility for that but my point was more about different situations you encounter in Life, you are often the One bringing these situations to evolve or understand different things in order to expand

Once you've uncovered the Truth with 5meo-DMT, there's no going back. These non-dual teachings are serious business, you cannot pretend to endure Life anymore after that, you gotta take full responsibility for what is happening to you because you realise you are the One doing it to yourself from the beginning. Sometimes it can be comforting to pretend someone else is at fault, but if you take the 5meo pill this is not an option anymore. The old stories you used to tell to yourself cannot exist anymore, either you accept full on responsiblity for your Life or you pretend you're not in charge.. But sooner or later, when you go back in this non-dual state again, illusion just drop and you remember. I gotta say these are really challenging teachings for me, taking lots of time to fully integrate so be carefull when stepping in this territory because once you open the door of non-duality, you can't just close it behind you and pretend you didn't see it

@OBEler I mean an oven, something to cook things up sorry for typo. As I approached it the thing started to make biping sound but it happened only once or twice, I think one of my friend noticed but didn't pay much attention to it. Then I had to cook a pizza for everyone. On fucking Lsd, without any recipe or balance to weight stuff, shit was wild ngl ahah

I experienced some glitches when approaching an hoven on Lsd, it kept beeping / changing function when I was near. I knew it came from my changed frequency but my sober friends were puzzled about it. An other day I experienced huge meteoric changes on a high dose of shrooms, it literally started to hail hard which feels almost impossible where I live, there was huge hailstones everywhere and I had to go cover the car outside with my dad during that night. The weirdest thing about it is when I asked people who leave nearby the next day, they didn't have that, it seems the phenomenon was located on a 1 - 2km zone around my house..

Yeah kind of but there's still some things you do unconsciously so to speak like the waves of the ocean, the rain falling, the wind blowing etc... Same thing as when you beat your hearth, you are the one doing it but this action is doing itself, same for the climate and the world around you, you are the one doing it but you're not aware of it. Anyway, there's no need to stress too much about that, you'll discover it when you are ready, just don't take it too seriously and make Life a beautifull dream for you

When you become really conscious in a dream, you realise it's just a dream and you become lucid. From that state you can do whatever you want, the dream respond back to you according to some laws and principles. Now the same applies in waking reality, you can become so conscious that you realise it's a dream, you are dreaming all of it right now and if it's a dream guess what...? There's probably ways to become lucid and control it. That's the incentive to further develop spiritualy and keep going

Can you choose to dream whatever you want to dream when you're asleep? Answer is yes if you learn to do so, it is the same in waking reality, if you learn to master the dream then I guess you can choose whatever you want to experience but first there's a long training process

MDMA is a therapy in itself, it allows to understand your trauma on a deep level and increases your emotional inteligence by tenfold. Gives you lots of empathy so much that you really understand deeply the people around you or yourself if you're doing it alone. I would say the bad comedown is worth it but if you want to avoid it just stay below 100mg, you could even end up with an afterglow this way