Fluran

I know it is not the end And language always fails to explain it so

My 17mg rectal dose has brought me some awakening haha 5meodmt is really potent in Enlightenment work Key insight was that 1.Ego death does not exist, i was looking for ego death, but it did not exist. Realising it was my ego death ? 2.enlightenment does not exist 3.God does not exist (because i experience it, because also god is transcendance of being etc) 4.it is not the end as well Last two 5meodmt trip were just constant laughing that it brought me laughter that i never had in my life!! Socially i became able to socialise much better, still weirdly but confidently.

about a week ago i had solid 13mg~15mg 5meodmt and yes it was too intense, it is 5meomalt but much shock and aftermath is also huge haha I loved it but i am also just afraid to do it again. after that I was just laughing and laughing like some of Leo's awakening Maniac videos and just how leo laughes usually there is always intense feeling of nihilism/annihiliation of what it means to be alive, (both on 5meomalt and5meodmt) existential crisis that was difficult to bear, what it means to be human? and being human is, also funny, being human is also, Weird, it felt like the consciousness of bilions years constantly evolving, I felt like i was dying. so i went to swim in the ocean. still i was consciously cautious to not get drown. and i started laughing and laughing, about geniusness of universe that is designed to preserve itself, to protect itself, to love itself and to grow up, including my inner fear and anxiety that are meant to be cautious, i accepted it my way of playing in this world. many people i happen to meet, not everytime people are kind or helpful, still there are plentiful people who are designed towards pro-socially, as myself, i must be quite egoistic, but i am programmed to help others unconditionally. that is love embedded in hardened way like a structure, or a building, (apartment or house itself is also consequence of love as well).

Whenever i happen to have conversation with some people on 5meomalt low dose, they look sometimes so horrified, like existentially horrified, like lovecraft cthulu terror. And wanna leave me alone And i am like oh there you look so horrified, in fear, why do you have such fear?

So yes, idea is simple, dissolve all psychedelics into liquid. Water/vinegar/aloe gel and so on that would not go bad Benefit from storing all psychedelics in water is that it is easier to measure doses, if you had 250 mg 5meodmt dissolved in 10ml watter, each 1ml is 25mg. So if you wanna take half, with 1ml syringe you can take 0.5ml. So it seems very accurate than microspoons This way plugging is possible, snorting is maybe possible(i am not sure) Its been a month i have put 5meomalt in aloe gel, still potent and no problem

Yeah, first time was too easy, stable It just showed me "okay 5meodmt you dont blast me with love, but just fact truth"

So i am on it, and tbh I am just much stable than 5meomalt. Weird ;(? On 5meomalt, even on microdose i am fucked up that i have god realisation Which makes me quite unstable but also holistic But on 5meodmt i am just stable and holistic, good and bad, good that i am stable, bad that it is less potent than 5meomalt. People know 5meodmt as stronger than 5meomalt but in my subject experience it isnt. Hm,, i am tripping, maintaining fair amount of language ability. So i havent dosed maybe enough, need more, i guess. I was too conservative, as god. Half joke.

Okay haha so i should expect ego death that i havent expected Damn i am already experincing handshakes like 5meomalt I havent any yet btw

I have been on 5meomalt, not the 5meodmt :0

I am quite hungry empty stomache enough, gonna eat fruits after. Meditated, gonna meditate more too Rear plugging method, mood quite okay Alone in my room, bed etc. Room status, not super clean. Let me clean up Dose 1 micro spoon conservatively, 10mg. Some nervousness as a respect haha

Ohoh, mixed, lol I just got fresh concrete powder like 5meodmt I am scared to try uh. I have been on 5meomalt Idk whats gonna happen with 5meodmt so.. lul.. any advice?

Alright, i had to know if it was good choice to hangout with them in the first place.

yeah the surrounding environment seemed so not so accepting and actually full of ego i felt, a good realisation there was, it becomes obvious if i am with toxic/unconscious people or not when I take silght dose on it, when i take on 5meomalt and it makes things obvious how much consciousness others around me. ironically, it is a good detector.

Set and setting and how much i dose haha, I did microdose to low dose knowing that i will be fairly controllable.

I want this though, especially psychedelic combination with meditation, exercise, activities are extraordinary.

Yeah.. its risky and against safety protocol but doing psychedelics outside, interacting with people on it actually exposes to more experience that i can not have it alone in my room. I should go psychedelic friendly place tbh

I just wanted to do microdose but it turns out its always intense haha yeah, i did not feel so stable in that trip because it was rather touristic, not so calming.

I havent said anything to her that she looks horrified, i was processing it internally that i perceive her in shock, with love, i let her go, wish her safety journey back.

Ah, right, thats mindfuck point. Am I afraid to exist?

Does anybody have experience with this?

I am not sure how and when it will impact physical products and services; it will impact first online businesses, but also offline businesses that deals with documentations, lowering their costs and providing more services. language is an engine, a tool, a blueprint of a Society, better and more language we have, better clarity and efficiency of subsystems(businesses, religions, Art, Culture, politics and ideologies) manual level task of automation is much easier, service workers will start automating their jobs by playing with chatgpt, a hotel receipt or restaurant owner utilizing automation, most of them will not have any interest but some will do, and they will spread their implied tech to others in their industry. now any kind of person can automate their major task if they spend a week or a month learning how to code.

core assumptions of this post is 1.Language is a Technology that we use in order to build collective Reality. (good example, Bible and chirstian society) 2.in Language we store Culture, identity, perspectives, model/map of reality 3.there are forgotten reality out of Language we are blind of(So, language is a model, it is a system, we lock ourselves into Language in order to function- but it is also limited) 4.Better Linguistic ability we have, better ability we can map and describe our Reality, and better the map is, better the functionality and efficient of our machine(model). not only human language, better programming language, well coded program, much more efficiency there is. 5.so with ChatGPT, we have much more efficiency to paint our reality, If our Lens of our reality was too blurry in past- now, we can see things very clearly like 8K UltraHD Video 6.Problem is… whatever we build, what should we build? it is framing problem it is lack of wisdom, lack of relevance realisation, what matters most? but this Wisdom problem and systems collapse i will not tackle in this post. So with chatgpt, we have immense ability to describe reality clearly, although that does not give us ability to create reality out of scratch, it gives us strength to detail it. It is matter of painting a picture in low resolution, or high resolution. With ChatGPT, with immense amount of Texts and programming codes we generate, now we are able to sail in the Landscape of linguistical virtual reality, an infinitely expanding self-constructed house of god.

I felt so different when i had Magic mushroom

Mh yeah Leo can also be digital nomad In chiang mai it costs just 15percent of what it costs in US

I took 5meomalt that i had, just in my dream, sleeping state that i was myself not aware of As i took 5meomalt powder, not even in liquid form, into my ass, i started tripping haha Phenomenal experience was almost identical to reality, though it felt like it just came in in 5sec. Anyone experienced tripping in sleep state? Brain recreating psychedelic experience?