Sincerity

1) Of course You aren't always in a high state. Yeah, so? Even if You fall back, You still retain some (depends on You how much) of the wisdom, clarity and all the good stuff from the period in which You were in a high state. As the saying goes, a mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions. Again, that doesn't mean You're not gonna fall back to "sleep". But something always changes. I can say many things from experience. One example is that after a profound awakening over 3 weeks ago all of my addictions have been eradicated. I'm controlled much MUCH less by desire. This You will interesting, no-fap enthusiast: now I have almost no need to masturbate, simply because I'm not enchanted by desire. It's totally effortless to do no fap. But I still masturbate once a week out of "necessity", because I feel like my body needs to let it out so to say. Not to porn - I've cut it out completely. I didn't put any deliberate effort into quitting porn. Awakening/God-realization solved the "problem" for me (I didn't even consider it a problem, I was okay with it). And I'm not saying the addictions will NEVER come back, but You know, they haven't been there for almost a month and that's SOMETHING! That's a step! I have an "experience" which I won't ever forget, it's always gonna stay with me to a degree. 2) I didn't mean COMPLETELY fearless. In my view that's impossible (because fear goes to infinity). I meant more fearless, enough that You can feel truly free and satisfied in life. 3) No one disagrees with the importance of engagement with life. You can know You are God and handle relationship "issues", doing the dishes, learning a new skill, whatever. You will learn about life from everything. I found out how beautiful doing the daily chores is because of awakening. I mean, yeah, like with any pursuit. Though awakening/God-realization still helps with these, I would suggest. You're talking about egotism and misapplying human teachings, not God-realization itself. Btw, I don't consider myself awake. And I don't recognize Myself right now.

This "I am God" "nonsense" is what You ARE. Sounds like You just haven't realized You are God if You treat it that way. Now You can do anything! When You realize You are God You are so free, so whole, there is such clarity and fearlessness that You can pursue anything You want without inhibition. And any of this is "guaranteed" by what, exactly? God-realization enchances all of these points. ALL OF THEM. I can speak from experience. In fact with many of these pursuits God-realization (or awakening in general) is the surest way to bring You there. Mindfulness, goodness, wholeness, wisdom, love, benevolence, creativity, communication and maturity are all profoundly magnified by realizing what You truly are. No one disagrees with the importance of embodiment. You can embody the recognition that You are God and live from that place, aligned with the highest values. YOUR values. It'll be heaven on earth.

Since Gesundheit has been confirmed to be safe, I'm locking the thread now. We're glad You're okay, @Gesundheit2

Damn. Haven't seen a bait as good as this one in a really long time.

My results --> 0% hostile, 3% benevolent.

I'm not getting into these conversations with You. No point.

"Introspect." "Actually, it's feminism that is biased! Men and women are not equal! This forum doesn't get it!!!" ?‍♂️

I would be very careful with making such a statement, if I were You. Be honest with yourself at least. You posts contain a strong anti-feminist bias and yet You're acting like "this is just how reality is!". You don't have to make it an enemy. Examining it and looking for its source wouldn't hurt tho. Maybe these battles of yours would cease.

Since I enjoy sharing understanding with You, here is a report of My insanely profound awakening to what I Am. [ EDIT 2023-06-28: Removed file. Some irresponsible stuff inside. Please be careful on your journey & good luck. ] Comprehending this should bring You closer to awakening. This is what You ARE. Try to really understand it in your experience! Obligatory I am not done, my understanding is subject to change, I can be wrong with some things. My direct consciousness was pretty clear, however, so I'm not doubting myself too much. There are some contradictory insights in the report (stuff from the beginning may contradict later stuff) and this is because 1) there is inevitable paradox in Reality and B) my understanding progressed along with the awakening. I recognize right now that I Am God and You are only part of My Dream. And even though only I can be awake because it's just Me, I still hope You awaken to this understanding. I Love You. I welcome your questions and everything else.

@mr_engineer Too much anti-feminist media consumption bro. ?‍♂️ Very unbiased.

Yup, we figured it out.

Well, I find that to go deep I need to be more still and concetrated. Also I'm more of a visual person and I like to see what I've written, think and then proceed onwards. And I like expressing my thoughts as eloquently as possible. I find that I can achieve that by writing and moreover I think that when doing it in such a "quality" and thoughtful way, the quality of my introspection increases. During these voice journalling walks I'm mostly chattering in a less focused way. Throwing stuff out. I find it valuable to do sometimes and I've done it over a hundred times already (literally). There's a place for everything. But yeah, to go deeper I usually go for contemplation with a journal. I haven't tried voice journalling while being still. Maybe there'd be some value to that, I dunno.

I've been doing that for a long time. Basically going on a walk and talking out loud about stuff while recording it, for about 30-60 minutes. I do it to get things off my chest. After I do it I never listen to the recording, I could as well delete all of them or not record at all. But I like to feel like I'm talking to someone. Also people are not weirded out because they think I'm talking to a friend over the phone. I recommend You try it. You can also use it to get better at talking, projecting your voice, etc. However I find that for "deeper thought", a written journal is much better.

That's what Intuition is for. "You" don't need to figure anything out. Just notice where Intuition is leading You and do that. It takes practice and genuine "spiritual work" tho. At first You can't easily distinguish Intuition from thoughts, emotions, fears and all the bullshit. And even when You distinguish it it's too frightening to follow up on it. But it gets easier. You can surrender so profoundly that Intuition is the sole decision-making force in your life. You just do stuff. Things happen. No effort required. No knowing of "what", "why" and "how" necessary... ...and not even possible. Reality is Incomprehensible (and any "part" of it too) and all You think You "know" is bullshit, basically. Still useful often times though. It's good You're feeling overwhelmed. Notice it. And SURRENDER to it!

@D2sage There are so many definitions of solipsism flying here that I'm not comfortable anymore using this word. You are all there is. You are Alone.

Ah, thank You God. Today I met with my fellow friend (God) and we had a nice cup of coffee (God). The talking was smooth, deep and authentic. It was marvellous, let me tell You! My relationships have never been more satisfying.

Believing such would be a huge misunderstanding of Aloneness. There are no NPCs. All is Infinite Intelligence. All is Beauty. All is God. Both that and Aloneness can be true. Aloneness is not limiting in any way. It's just that Experience is all there is. Yeah, You can Imagine "another" and that's in fact how most "humans" see things (in the Dream ). God can be any state, which includes states where "other" is perceived and states where all is one. Still, it's always Oneness = God. And as it turns out, You ARE that Oneness. You are God. And no, I'm not pointing to the "you" as in a "local being". There is no "you". You are God = God is God = God IS = GOD. That's my 2 cents. I like your posts. Nice writing style.

Sorry, I couldn't restrain myself. Yes, it's a Dream.

I only know what happened to me. I don't know how it will look like for You. Most likely, yes.

I'm forgetting more and more with each day. I know it's natural, it's like the exhale part of the breath while the period of growth and expansion is the inhale. I see that I can focus on different things in this autopilot state that I'm starting to feel attracted to currently and I'm excited by that. Also I can't wait to see what the future brings. How am I going to feel when the inhale part comes back again in like 4 months or so? What is the state going to be like? And yet it hurts me a bit that I don't remember anymore. Yes, it hurts. I am being honest. From a "lower" state like this things are harder to accept. I'm still attempting it of course, that's what I feel like my work is about. And that's what I care about in life. But man... I don't know, I'm just sad right now. There's something beautiful in this too... ? I have a lot of insights about how this entire cycle works, why it is the way it is, what the value of this exhale/autopilot/conservatism phase is. But I'll mention it some other time maybe. I had a GREAT day today... and I'm tired. Please forgive me for whatever I do.. when I don't remember You... ??

Exactly. @Chives99 Trip wisely, my dude. Do the necessary research.

Since You're off MDMA now I assume, I'm gonna make a reminder that it is advised to take 2-3 month long breaks between MDMA trips. I'm saying this because I remember You posting on MDMA a week ago. Please be safe dude! And try to restrain yourself from posting while high!

What does E Y E S spell

Nah, but various muscles in my body twitch a lot when I meditate. Nice!

The fun is exactly in figuring this out for yourself. Have faith that You're going to do it. And work for it.