Sincerity

Easy? Anyone could do that? Nah, bro. Of course You must decide that You want to know Truth. But that doesn't exclude using 5-MeO or other substances as tools. I feel like You've got some misguided ideas about psychedelics. I suggest You investigate these beliefs (which You probably got from other people). That's part of what I consider embodiment to be. What I call groundwork You call "deep subtle work". In practice effort is required, because You are not yet capable of effortlessness. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * It all depends how much You want to understand. I'd say that without psychedelics You're missing out.

Hmm. Sounds like my friends might inhabit this stage.

You're only now learning about tier 3? Bruh I myself am comfortably in tier 4 and approaching tier 5 ??

Okay so I just reread my extensive notes on the Susan Cook's EDT model I made over 3 years ago and I'd more or less assess myself like this: I feel like my center of gravity is the Individualist. It resonates with me the most. Still, I have a lot of stuff to do & integrate in the previous stages, especially the Achiever. I haven't achieved nearly enough and I feel like I really need to be more active in the world to further my development. Make shit happen, take much more action and integrate the Achiever's mindset, this way of looking at the world - that's what I feel I'm lacking. My father is basically the Expert and it's a part of me too. Gotta integrate that more and work through that stage's "problems" more. My mom is basically the Diplomat. There's plenty of conformism for me to work through as well. In the past month I sense I've kinda gone forward with my development and licked the more advanced stages. Basically when I read the issues related to these later stages they reminded me of what I've been dealing with lately. But I'm nowhere near integrating them or even knowing what they're really about. I'm happy with my growth. I'm doing good, even though it's hard for me to handle shit quite often.

@BlessedLion @Tyler Robinson

Each day is such a rollercoaster. Every day it's something different. I look at this journal and it doesn't reflect at all what I'm experiencing. Only tiny slivers. But it's okay! It's still fun and I really like what I post here. [link removed] A spontaneous video of myself right now To remind the people who read this shit who's behind the account. You know, being honest. And to put myself more in my journal Nice to see my face hahaha. "Myself"? "My" journal? "My" face? Just reminding myself that I am lost in selfhood. I wonder how much of this forum's population is young men. Like 1/3? It's certainly the most common demographic group here. I'm proud of myself how much contemplation I've done in the past weeks. Even though shit has been difficult I've been introspecting fairly regularly and really diving into how I work. It's satisfying to do this. I enjoy confronting myself, even when it's uncomfortable. Of course I have my limits and I feel a strong need to distract myself (which I'm falling for often) but I'm still going. Today I was at the gym listening to Leo's How to Fall in Love with Life video. Great stuff. I'd like to embody the mindset he has described there. I notice that change is really difficult. Of course theoretically I knew this but like... when I look at everything I've been going through (especially in 2022) and how much suffering, resistance and backlash I've encountered along the way... I have a greater appreciation for this. Change is fucking difficult. So to really embody what Leo has said in that video I'm gonna have to go through a LOT more pain, probably. I asked myself today: Am I willing to change? No, really. Am I seriously willing to change? To be honest, by looking at my experience I find that I would rather stay the same. I am afraid of ACTUAL change. My mom just barged in my room and showed me some album of when I was born and my early years. The illusion is so convincing! Hahahaha! I lost my train of thought completely. Well, whatever. I'll end with this: Lately I've noticed that some things, some videos, some words stick in my mind that I wouldn't expect. One example is the video above. I watched it like a month ago, I've been thinking about it here and there and yesterday at the end of a 3 hour long deep contemplation session it came back to me... and tears poured from my eyes.

Feel into it and accept it? It's not complicated but it is difficult. The paradox is that when You accept yourself, You change.

It's gonna be much harder. But not impossible. (btw, define enlightened) I guess You could say it's like this: psychedelics provide understanding and groundwork provides embodiment. It's kind of theory (but experienced directly) vs practice. Both are important. Psychedelics are AMAZING for showing You what's possible, states You would never be able to access with traditional methods. Also they help open You up, help You temporarily go beyond your fears and attachments, bring stuff to the surface, all that. Without psychedelics your groundwork might be wrong, misguided, uninspired. Without groundwork You are, well, ungrounded. The theory doesn't stick in your mind and make a difference for your everyday life. It doesn't change You on a deep level. In theory You don't need psychedelics but in practice I think You do. If You want to go really far.

Great practical, life-changing insights. Good work! Right now I'm using your mind, thinking about your deepest insights from this trip which are inspiring me and making sense to me. Thanks for bringing your wisdom here my man! Other people's trip reports are fucking goldmines of insight and wisdom, of both practical and existential nature.

Ok, thanks. I'm going to investigate this.

I don't know. "Behind my head" seems like only imagination and concepts. Lately I've confronted my false belief that I as the Source am somewhere behind my eyes. Then I realized I am everywhere (and nowhere in particular). I'm saying this because your example of "perception behind my head" reminds me of my own thinking that I am behind my eyes. That there is something I don't see. I don't think that's the case. I see everything

Oh wow. Okay. Don't know what to tell Ya. Good luck confronting the fear!

How do You know there can be consciousness with no content? From experience, theory or what? I have no stance on this. I don't know.

Investing in yourself, more basic practical stuff like that. But also I'd love to hear Leo talk about his new awakenings, what he changed his mind about regarding spirituality and what his new teachings are. If someone isn't on the forum, they most likely have no idea how drastically Leo's perspective is changing, with the alien intelligence stuff and all. We basically learn about that only from his replies and occasional posts like this one.

Damn, what a beautiful post. You could make some poem out of this. Thank You! Truly.

Ok, muchas gracias! God is Soup. I love it haha

Hey Leo, I'm curious what's your take on this. Does God remember all "previous" lives and experiences? Does omniscience entail "the past" even though the now is all there is? Or maybe everything is just infinite possibilities in God's Mind and the concept of "past" or "experienced" doesn't even hold? I've been contemplating this lately but haven't done psychedelics with this question in mind or anything so I have no clue.

?? Omg I can't. Bro, You can't just believe Leo's words to the point that it's gonna destroy your life. As of now this stuff is literally only theory for You, just that, and You have no way of knowing whether it's right (and me neither). Focus on actuality, don't let your life be fucking ruined by what a talking head says on an internet forum. You know @Leo Gura You should really start to put these poison pills in your teachings. Maybe it's for the better.

Okay, good. Probably no ego enjoys disappearing The root problem is "you" that is still there. Your aversion, ignorance, all that stuff. You said You have a guy that's your most hated person. Consider that hatred automatically creates a duality (you vs the hated), and so your solipsism collapses because now there is you and someone else. The same thing with jealousy. Rationalizing that actually these people aren't real isn't a solution, it's avoiding feeling your emotions. Avoidance (combined with deluding yourself with theory You don't ACTUALLY embody) is a dark path, that's all I'm saying. BUT if You're really happier than ever and You're genuinely purely existing, then that's good and I probably misunderstood. In the end You gotta be wise and be able to assess whether You're truly conscious of this in direct experience or You're feeding yourself theory and bypassing. I dunno. If You're really awake, then it's fine.

I prefer the more general question "Why is reality the way it is?". Or "Why this particular experience?". Both point to the same. The question "Why am I me and not you?" implies a me and you. Which is wrong assumptions from the get-go. BUT the starting curiosity/intuition is good! It's nice that You've had inquiries like this since a young age. There's certainly a spark in You "Your conclusions" is not the name of the game. It's Godhood. You're not awake, but You can be.

Ok, we're talking about two different illusions. The dream as in "physical reality" like your house or hand will not (and can not) be destroyed when You awaken, because it is Absolute and perfect. The illusion that it is real, solid, material, external, that there is a you in here, that you have control and you're localized in time and space and you're gonna die can be shattered - which is the result of awakening. In one sense this illusion (maya, ignorance) is perfect but also what's perfect is the shattering of it. You can absolutely see through if You want to. It's just You realizing what You are - there is no one stopping You from You but you One is Reality, the other is thoughts and ignorance. (Of course thoughts are Reality too)

Be careful not to go down a dark path. Even though what You're saying is technically true, You're deluding yourself with this kind of coping. Also, You know, with reasoning like this You could do some really bad things which You're gonna regret. "I can just murder this guy because he's only a dream character!" The problem is that You are THINKING your way into this! If You understood truly, You wouldn't do anything harmful like I mentioned above and most of all You wouldn't need to cope at all. Instead of coping, try accepting fully. You're not gonna dissolve hatred or jealousy with bypassing like this. You're not solving the root problem and it's gonna come back to bite You in the ass again and again. You're avoiding short-term pain, You're getting a quick relief, but be careful because You're gonna have to pay back, it's gonna be harder and harder to escape the hole of delusion and it's going to haunt You. It's not worth it my guy.

Consider that the illusion/dream is not dumb but infinitely intelligent and perfect, and so you're not gonna see a black hole one day in the place where your house was for years. There won't be any glitches like this, there's no room for accidents or imperfection. I'd say You're not appreciating how convincing and perfect the illusion can be (and is). Most people when they think of illusions they get kinda cocky and think that they'd be able to see through them. Well, no. The way to prove solipsism (for yourself) is to directly awaken, which You can do. Also the many illusions of the dream (like time, control, selfhood, etc.) can be deconstructed and seen through with deep contemplation but You're gonna need some "divine clarity" for that Having "past" spiritual experiences helps.

My personal opinion is of utmost importance so I will come out and say this bluntly: I feel very strongly about this and I am downright outraged The guy did the thing and I am angery Lollll