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  1. Posted

    54 minutes ago, Nilsi said:

    Watch it with the stimulants. The same thing happened to a buddy of mine once when we snorted way too much MDMA. His heart felt like jumping out of his chest. I'm sorry you are in pain, and I don't really know how to help you, but be fucking careful with stimulants, especially when your have a family history of heart problems.

    Yeah.. Let's just say I'm not going to be drinking coffee in the near future.. nor taking any other stimulants for that matter. This gave me a proper scare.

    11 minutes ago, Michael569 said:

    Could it be related to anxiety? Anxiety attack feels similar to chest tightness

    GERD is definitely a possibility l. You could take some antacid when it occurs and if they help you will know that's what it is.

    Also costochondritis may feel similar when the ligaments between sternum and ribs are inflamed. There may also be bacterial infection of sternum. You could locate the source of the pain by pressing on these regions and they will hurt the most when taking the deepest breath 

    Cardiac problems are statistically less common in young people when it comes to clotting and atherosclerosis issues. Rare occurences include things like patent foramen ovale - no idea how common that is and i believe those are not painful.

    Based on what they investigated it is probably not heart related but keep exploring 

    I guess it could be related to anxiety. But my pulse and breathing is normal even when the pains occur so if it is anxiety it's at such a deep level that I can't tell. Being that it starts off with a physical pain sensation and me being calm for 5 hours until it finally starts to get to me. I felt more anxious at the ER than at home but the symptoms didn't appear at the ER. Hmm..

    I tried antacids and they seemed to offer no relief

    Costochondritis is certainly a possibility, being that I worked out pretty hard for the first time in a while a couple of days prior. But I felt no pain or discomfort 3 days following the workout. Maybe the coffee "OD" could have made it worse somehow..? But, I seem to have no painful regions of the chest when I'm applying pressure to it. Also I can do a pushup with no pain. Also the pain seems to come and go unrelated to the breath, I can take a deep breath in with no symptoms, the pain comes and goes seemingly randomly.

    I guess my biggest fear is that it is just that, some sort of blood clot. Since that's what my dad had in his lungs. But he had it when he was 50+ years old and I'm 26 years old so statistically I'm in the green.. 

     

  2. Posted

    5 hours ago, puporing said:

    I would get a blood oxygen, blood pressure and pulse monitor if in your ability to do, so you can check yourself when it's not an emergency but you want some reassurance.

    Are you experiencing stress? Like psychologically? Sometimes it's tied and if you can minimize the psychological stress, it might minimize the cardiac stress.

    I will see if I can get my hand on these things today. It seems like a good idea to me because when I was at the ER the pain seized so I felt a bit uneasy considering blood pressure etc could easily be wack when the pain is present and then they'd missed it.

    It certainly seems stress is triggering more of the pain. Tonight I had to focus on my breath and listen to meditation music to calm myself down to the point where the pain seemed to become less frequent and then I was able to sleep. If I'm just lying there focusing on the pain with no distraction it seems to make the pain more frequent and the left arm starts stinging too.

  3. Posted

    I'm not sure where to post this thread or if its even allowed but I am in a state of desperation. Remove thread if you want.

    Three days ago I drank 5 cups of coffee and stayed up late at a friends place watching movies. All fine until I got home and started experiencing chest pains where my heart is located in the ribcage. I didn't think much of it until it didn't go away and I got a bit spooked. I figured I'd fall asleep and it'd be gone by the time I woke up.

    Annoyingly enough, the following day the pain was still there. One second long dull aches, sometimes minutes apart and sometimes multiple ones with only seconds apart. My problem solving survival brain kicked into action, I figured it could be gastritis or some other stomach issue and so I went to the store and got antacids, but they offered no relief. Then I figured maybe I sprained my chest muscles on the workout a couple of days prior. But I did a pushup, no pain.

    Weirdly enough the pain seemed to become less frequent when I was up and walking, and the worst when I lay down. I prayed to god it would be gone after I went to sleep again. Then yesterday morning I woke up, pain still present. So I pulled the trigger and went to the ER. They performed some tests on me like EKG scan, checked my blood pressure, breathing, pulse, oxygen %, touched the area of the chest where I'm having pain so see if I'm sensitive there, which I'm not.

    Everything came back good. But they didn't have blood tests available there though, which I found a bit strange. I got recommend to take anti-inflammatory painkillers and wait 5 days. If it doesn't get better within 5 days I'm supposed to go back there. But I've now had almost constant pain that feels like it's coming from my heart and I started researching online about EKG and it seems it's far from heart attack proof. Now I'm kind of annoyed they could not take a blood test because that seems to be more reliable.

    Cardiac issues run in my family, my dad almost died to a blood clot in his lungs. Now I'm having trouble sleeping, daydreaming about horrific scenarios this could end up in, with me dead or paralyzed by a stroke. After contemplating possible outcomes my left arm started stinging and radiating pain occasionally. Could this be Kundalini or is that wishfull thinking? Should I follow the advice I was given and wait 5 days? I really have an uneasy feeling about this, like they missed something at the ER. Should I dial 911 or am I overreacting to the situation and should just wait? I know all of you are not medically licensed professionals but I'm not sure what to do and scared of the outcome.

  6. Posted

    43 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    @Cireeric I try reading serious books, but every time I get a few pages or a chapter into it, I'm like: "This is dumb. Why am I wasting my time listening this human who has no clue what's going on?"

    Sounds arrogant, but honestly when you reach my level of understanding it's gonna be a waste of your time listening to people explain reality to you. Books on philosophy, spirituality, and the like are simply pointless to read now. Other kinds of books can still be worthwhile, like if I need some narrow technical or practical knowledge. But books that attempt to explain something profound? Waste of time.

    What about poetic stuff and fiction? Books as an art and entertainment rather than a source of insight?

  9. Posted · Edited by Asayake

    1 hour ago, Holykael said:

    What happened to Connor Murphy?

    You can watch through the videos on his YouTube channel from 1 year or so back. There are some deleted ones that are hard to find now like when he talked with his parents and tried to get them to realize they're God. Allegedly he took DMT daily. He admitted himself to a psych ward to try to reenact the resurrection of Christ. He wrote a book about the incidents there. He also started making sexual yoga videos and had an OnlyFans where you could pay for NSFW content. He was posting really weird videos and videos where he was predicting he would win the US Open Golf tournament. He also made videos where he was hinting that he was going to kill himself. A lot of weird stuff.

    8 minutes ago, BenG said:

    None of you have any idea. I’ve met him in real life.

    Holy cow! How did this happen and is there anything you can share with us?

  12. Posted

    Just got back to the gym, I've had 1 month off the gym because I fell on a steel ladder with my hand when I was at the beach and scraped off all the skin on my pinky. That ladder was like a cheese grater. Anytime I bent my finger it would hurt so I couldn't grab onto anything which made strength training difficult to say the least..

    However now I'm back and I'm more motivated than ever. Other members on this forum as well as irl friends of mine have been making good gym progress which has been a good inspiration for me. But I've realized I need to structure my training more and improve my tracking and not just do whatever I feel like to make more consistent progress.

    Today I used notepad on my phone as I've done a few times before, just writing down what exercise I'm doing by hand, the number of sets & reps. But I realize there's dozens of apps out there that makes this tracking & planning of workouts easier. The questions is which ones are really good? I don't mind if it's a paid app, I just want something that works well. I don't necessarily need meal planning and this sort of stuff. To start I just want an app where you can enter what you did so it keeps track of your progress and where you can create workout plans for yourself to check off, that sort of thing. Maybe scheduling as well but not super important.

    Does anyone here have experience with workout tracking/programming apps, which is the best one out there for my needs?

  13. Posted

    Twin Peaks is my favorite series. I haven't seen a lot of TV-Series to be honest, but I've seen more movies. If you enjoyed Twin Peaks you should check out David Lynch's movies at some point if you haven't already. Wild At Heart & Blue Velvet are two favorites :). 

    But as far as series goes:

    1. Twin Peaks

    2. Breaking Bad

    3. SpongeBob SquarePants

    4. Game Of Thrones

    5. Friends

    6. Prison Break but not the last 2 seasons

  14. Posted · Edited by Asayake

    I have to vouch a bit for duality compatability since one of my best friends is ESTJ and I am an INFP.

    He's a good musician, not all sensors are robots, actually he's one of the smartest and most deep people I know. It's just what he finds value pursuing in life is quite a bit different. it seems to me we share many interests but our reasons for liking said interests seem to differ. I'm much more curious and explorative in my nature while he's more grind oriented/focused on what's to gain/outcomes. I think our views balance eachother.

    We work well together and the first 7 or so years we knew eachother we talked very often. It's true there are many things I'm into that he's not into, like spirituality, or Lynch movies for example. But despite the fact that our taste differs in many ways I feel he's a very important friend for me, not only do we have fun together but he's influenced me into working on some of my weaker traits, which happen to be his stronger traits. I think in turn I help him refrain from becoming too stubborn and I encourage him to try his own path in life. He lets me do the same which works well because we both value freedom highly. He also helps ground me more in normal life stuff. I think if I had no friends like him I might have gone haywire into spirituality, but he's helping me keep in touch with 'sane' reality, maybe simply because his perspective on life is more rigid than mine, talking with him is like returning to a familiar way to approach the world. Just the kinds of discussions we have return me to reality sometimes. 

    Anyways, we do understand eachother well. In some ways he seems to understand me deeper than some of my intuitive type friends. I don't know if he's aware of it himself tbh, but he sure does make me feel understood somehow. Eventhough we look at things very differently and our discussions are not at the most meta level, the discussions will be deep for the level they're at and I often find his views on things to be smarter/deeper than they seem at a first glance.

     

  16. Posted

    I think the risk of this approach is that consuming art ends up being a task you're checking off from a task list.

    But I would say, I think most great artists are also great consumers of art. Atleast that's certainly the case in music. You'll struggle to find a good jazz musician for example, who hasn't listened to 1000s of jazz songs, and they've likely heard and played most of the classics. I know many good jazz musicians irl and it's hard to find something in the jazz category that they haven't heard, or even played before. In the same way I think you'll struggle to find a pop artist who hasn't listened to their fair share of pop music. In the same sense it's going to be very difficult to succeed in pop music if all you've listened to is jazz music and vice versa.

    Art is a language and consuming is one of the best ways to learn the language, just make sure not to mindlessly consume or make it into a task. Quality over quantity for sure. But you can't tell what's quality or not if you haven't consumed a lot of art. Because what's quality is based on your taste as a listener and a lot of music and art is referencing other art which you need to have consumed before to really get what the art your consuming is doing. The only way to develop a fine tuned taste seems to me to be to have consumed a lot of art. So I think your approach is not completely misguided. It's just that when you structure it in that way, making a list of all the essential stuff you have to check off to become cultured it seems more like a task. I think it should be more of a spontaneous exploration so you don't fall into mindlessly consuming tons of art for the sake of it. That could be a waste of time. 

    For example, you could start going by the top 250 imdb list for movies. But when you find a movie you especially liked you could depart from the top 250 list and dive deeper into that director. Or dive deeper into that cinematographer/actor/whatever. Then maybe you'll discover some similar movies to that which you also like and suddenly you discover a subgenre of film you weren't aware of that is vastly underrated. There is truth to the fact that the top 250 movies on imdb is not going to be the top 250 best movies. Many of the very best pieces of art will have something that some people hate but others love. For example the first Pusher movie by Nicolas Winding Refn is only rated slightly above 7 on imdb. When you look at the reviews you'll quickly discover people who don't like brutal violence in movies are giving the movie 1/10, which lovers its rating when in my opinion the movie is a 9/10. Many of the movies in the top 250 are just not bold enough to give the audience something they can hate. Just look at David Lynch's movies, most are highly underrated because they're too abstract for the mainstream who will go in and vote 1/10 because they don't get it. In reality David Lynch's movies are fking amazing pieces of art, in my opinion.

    For music it's even worse, if you only listen  to the toplists in music you'll only get to hear the most commercial least deep music there is. And you'll miss out on 99% of genres available. But I do think you're on the right track in the sense that consuming a lot of culture can actually make you more cultured.

  21. Posted

    I'm INFP and I get along really well with ENTJ. Although it's a thinking type I seem to bring out the emotion of him and I think my Ne feeds his Ni and he enjoys it. We can have very interesting discussions and share some interests.

    I also get along pretty well with other types with Fi in first or second slot, so I agree with Loba there. Feeling types and I understand eachother, even if we don't agree on everything. I also get along pretty well with some Fe types like INFJ, ISFJ, ENFJ. Types which show empathy, I find beautiful.

    ENTP is also a kind of good match, we see some things very differently but we both like to explore things in a similar Ne way so we look at some things similarly. I think they can be funny in the way they joke with others and more smooth with it than the ST types who seem more likely to be insensitive and hurtful without realising it. Instead ENTP will challenge you in a more clever way so that it feels motivated and fun, and you can see the childlike explorative nature behind their schemes and it makes it feel pure in a sense. They will also be pretty individualistic which is something I like. I prefer when I feel like I'm talking to an original person who is a free soul, not governed by schedules and habits.

    INTJ can also work but seems a bit more one sided in the sense that I think the INTJ likes talking with me more than vice versa. He is very introverted which forces me to talk a lot and drive the conversation and I prefer when someone talks a bit more so I don't have to do all the talking all of the time. But he finds my ideas interesting and is understanding.

    I think some of the worst matches for an INFP, from my experience, is ISTJ, ESTP, ISTP.

    ESTJ seems logical to be a bad match but one of my best friends is an ESTJ and we get along well. It's just we don't often connect emotionally. But he helps me with tips regarding practical things and improving productivity, and gives me gifts. He's one of those friends who helps bring some order to my life but he is probably more healthy than most ESTJs in the sense that he shows respect for my emotions and is open to listen to my ideas, even if he doesn't agree with what I say he doesn't try to change what I'm doing unless I ask him for advice. It's likely I won't get along super with every ESTJ though..

     

     

     

     

  22. Posted

    Has anyone else seen this movie? I just watched it with my family and it's a beautiful movie to watch with your family unless your family can't tolerate the mentioning of 'God'.

    I found the movie to be very beautiful in many ways. Both symbolically, visually and story-wise. It also had beautiful music and a beautiful message. I almost cried a couple of times during, and my mother did cry. Great movie!

    Highly recommended, especially for watching with your family!

  23. Posted

    Yeah I also thought it might be better to watch Better Call Saul first, atleast Better Call Saul will likely be a better, more exciting show like this. But it might be the case Breaking Bad is a bit more exciting if you don't know anything about Saul, Mike, etc. before watching Breaking Bad. 

    So personally I would probably prefer watching Breaking Bad first just because I love that show so godamn much that I want the best experience of it, as it was originally intended. Breaking Bad is my second favourite show of all time, only surpassed by Twin Peaks.

    I love Better Call Saul too. But I do agree it's a bit boring at times, imo it's not quite in the same league as Breaking Bad. But it's still very much a worthwhile watch, it is a great show and it's peak moments are really high. Fun to see more people enjoying these series on here.

  24. Posted

    A lot of people telling you not to do this lol, I find that a bit funny. I don't know why this would be such a big deal. 50$ investment and trying something new isn't going to hurt your soul from my point of view, it could make you grow as a person. Even if it's a dumb idea more can be learnt by executing a dumb idea than by labeling everything as a scam and not trying anything. Who knows where this will lead you next, that's how I look at it. This can be seen as another life experience, good or bad, who can really tell? Maybe both :)

    Many people label Leo as a charlatan but we're all here despite the fact and I think for most people it's for the better. Even those who Leo's teachings and the forum isn't suited for can learn just that about themselves, that it's not for them. Many people here already dislike Tate and HU likely isn't for them because they would go into it with the mindset that it's overvalued trash/a scam/whatever. But who's to tell if it's right for YOU. I think you're doing the right thing by trying stuff out. That's a great way to grow as a person.

  25. Posted

    I think what he is doing here is giving his more superstitious/open minded followers a routine that they can base on their superstition. The routine of meditating at that specific time every day will bring more stability to these people who are probably more prone to living unorganized lives. Also, his reasoning will resonate with people who would benefit from this habit the most. And, it would force them to go to bed earlier as well, and these kind of people might be more prone to stay up late at night. 

    Just some ideas that came to mind. There could be more reasons for this than he gives in his explanation. But for more superstitious/open minded people, giving a more logical and detailed explanation is not always the best way to make things stick. These kind of people enjoy when things are left out, it makes it seem a bit more exciting and magical to believe in. And if you can keep that magical, mysterious vibe in your life at the same time as having structure and routine in your life you've cheated the system a bit. Many times I feel scientific explanation and routines etc can take the excitement out of life and make it into a mechanical process. This could be Sadghuru bringing his followers structure, routine, stability, without taking away the mystery and magic of life 

    That's just what I think.