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@Tistepiste This is good advice. Ego won't give up easily. It will create whatever is needed to get back into control. You can read about it here.

Yes I agree with what you are saying but how does that help the OP?

@MarkusSweden In each moment focus more on your senses than your mind. Make triggers in your daily life that remind you to be more mindful, like a doorway trigger. There are a bunch of Mindfulness techniques you can use that will help you stop listening to your thoughts, so I recommend you do some research about it.

@Cortex Yes enjoy life! It's meant to be enjoyed. Just don't fall into the trap of avoiding lifes hardships because they will cause you to grow.

@MiracleMan All these conclusions are from the mind. The question to ask moment to moment is: Is there identification to the body-mind. Belief in thought. Belief in being the body, the person? As you wrote. There isn't anything you can 'do'. It's futile. But do you really see that? Because if you do you STOP. And STOPPING isn't anything you do. If you don't see the futility you continue to 'do' as you always have.

Two fingers pointing to the same moon, do they really matter?

@David Turcot great questions! Contemplating about the absolute can be quite a hard task though. Have you ever tried going the other way in your contemplations? Contemplating about the basics of your experience? What is a tree? What makes it a tree? Where does it start and end? What is the limitations of the word tree?

Could you improve without blaming yourself for past mistakes? If yes, then what purpose does the blame serve? Could it be that being so hard on yourself makes you fearful of doing these new things, because what if you make a mistake then it would have been all for nothing? It's hard for me to answer obviously since I don't know you so you have to answer this yourself but to be honest you sound like a perfectionist. And perfectionists have a hard time making mistakes and trying new things since they can't do something perfect the first time they do it. How do I know? I've been one myself. You know what? It's ok to make mistakes. It's ok to not be good at certain stuff and still do them. You don't have to be perfect. I recommend you do a 15 minute affirmation practice each day. Preferably for first thing in the morning and last thing at the evening before you sleep Listen to this video and repeat what he says out loud. It's going to feel silly, weird, wrong to do this but do it anyways. It's going to change your life.

So search for this entity within your own experience. Can you find it? How does that feel to blame yourself? What purpose does it serve? Where does this "blame" come from?

Do you think these thoughts or do they spontaneously arise? There is nothing wrong with the thoughts, any thoughts, because they are just thoughts. The suffering comes from believing/identifying with the thoughts. So when you see that you are caught in the thought stories focus on the sensations instead.

@Puppet Master Great! I'll see you there. ?

The mind likes to conclude these things. So yes If you look at every experience as not being special sure there is nothing wrong with that. However the opposite is also true, that every experience special. You will never have the same experience twice so everything is special. Which perspective will bring you the most enjoyment?

@Puppet Master sounds awesome. Sign me up to the masterclass pls.

@Solace could you link that study?

As long as you listen to people and without judgment people are going to enjoy your company. Because most people don't care about you but of themselves and if you pay attention to them you are going to make there day. But these feelings of being uninteresting and boring, maybe you should look into that?

Here is the answer. It's not what he was seeking but the realization that seeking is futile.

Except there is no "we". ?

Your free to do anything you want. Do what feels true for you.

The book goes up and falls down. You can SEE that it does. Then a THOUGHT arises labelling it as gravity. Does the THOUGHT have any impact at all or is it only an addition to what is happening? Do you believe that the THOUGHT is true? Then it's a belief, identification with the THOUGHT. Is the book really a book? What makes it so?

And what's the point of living your normal life if it's all illusion? Better just give up that too and watch some TV and eat some cheetos, except what's the point of that? Can you see that this is a non-issue because you can use the belief about determinism to take or not take action? So someone told you about determinism and you believed it right. But what can you conclude from your own experience? Do you feel that you have free will or not? Should you trust what someone else tells you or your own experience?

Your welcome.

If you want to go deeper start living your life in the way that was realized. Embody the realizatio. I.e Without fulfilling peoples expectations of being the ego. Without doing that your realization will start to fade away until it's just a vague memory.

@Shakazulu that is going to interrupt the contemplation process. Is it really necessary? The main thing is that you understand what you mean, not for anybody else to understand your realizations.

@captainamerica For people that procrastinate the hardest thing is to start so set a supereasy goal like doing whatever needs doing for 1 minute. If you feel like it you can continue otherwise you can do something else.