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When something appears from nothingness, you call it thinking when it disappears forever into nothingness, you call it forgetfulness And I guess not knowing you're god and all is rather a self-deception than a you forgetting something. It's like the ego has locked a door with deception to the realization, so you have to somehow do stuff to open the door and see what's beyond by unlocking the deception. I think working on a realization is just identifying the deceptions blocking your sight of that realization and eliminating them(well identifying itself eliminates them), either through intense bodily experiences from psychedelics or kriya yoga or other means, or through contemplation and meditation, etc. But you need to identify a path around the obstacles cuz usually you just come back from the realization back into deception out of habit, if you a path back to that realization established, you can go back as much as you want until you are comfortable enough to settle there. This as you know is called integrating your realizations

Thanks for everyone replies! I am already about a week into NoFap. I don't even want to call it NoFap or anything, I was originally just practice letting go, but I guess I'll let go fapping for real. What I have seen is that it is less waste of a time. And also,, my dick feels new lmao. As far as the 'not fapping while i can' thing goes, I think I can achieve same (even greater ofc) bliss thorugh meditation and all that spiritual work. How I know this? Cuz I have been there done that before. It's better than sexual orgasm, so maybe I should just quit being such a slave to survival (always am, but I want to atleats quit some gross manifestation of that survival insitinct). I'll stop counting from now on, counting will only keep my focus on it.

I don't know much about all that, but what I have experienced is that when I go really deep (deep for me), or have a really mind fucking insight, during that experience, the area on my forehead where the third eye is supposed to be, really starts pressurizing, and to say it is pressured isn't even correct. It's like it is pulled in like there is vacuum in my head. Also during all this, i feel pleasure in the head.

I haven't done it but certainly gotten pretty close. If you can induce sleep paralysis consciously, you can then later move on to astral projection when you are hallucinating big time. How to induce sleep paralysis? Well really I don't know. See, I did it 3 times but it happened when I was focusing on my thought without realizing i was focusing, Suddenly by thought grow loud and i 'fall'. Vibrations all throughout the body and I start hallucinating in all of my senses. So from my experience all I can really say is try to sleep by meditating. Which is observing your thoughts. It always happened when I woke up at 3 am (went to sleep around 11 pm), then stayed awake for a while, maybe 30 mins to 2 hours. Then I when i went back to sleep, it is very easy. See I know this much, but the last time i did that was months ago, and i have been trying (not intensely tho), to do it again. No luck yet. So my information here isn't much to go by.

Not asking you to hurt yourself, that was just an extreme example to get the point across.

The first time I ever noticed what I was when I was sitting in silence during the evening. I wasn't expecting any insight. I wasn't even trying meditate. I just meditate on my own without realizing sometimes. And suddenly, I realized I was the awareness that fills all. And the mind, body and world is part of it. I think you have to let go of all your conceptions, Leo's latest video on realizing God helps a bunch in that. If you can burn all your conceptions, you may see that awareness that fills all. Why I say all is because the direct experience is all there is. No conceptions. Once you can see this, it's very easy to identify that me-ness anywhere, because no you are not identified with it. Since you have gone meta to self, self is easily seen. An easy way to identify this realization is if it feels as both "I am everything" and "I am nothing". Feeling "I am everywhere" and at the same time "I am nowhere". "All is me" and "There is no me". So in my opinion, you can realize in this order to make it easy. Realize that awareness (by making a distinction between thoughts and consciousness, is pretty hard to see at first) > then see that it is you (usually it happens automatically when you realize that awareness, but if it doesn't happen, try to see it's you.) > then notice the ego/me/self(it's always a feeling in your heart) > try to let that go > then notice the feeling in your heart which denotes 'the world' > let that go > then notice the feeling of 'other' > let that go > then notice the feeling of "ALL" > let that go > then notice the feeling of "I am everything/nothing, everywhere/nowhere, etc." > and let that go > then notice all your linguistics in your mind > and let that go well you get the idea. Basically be how a baby is. with this practice, you'll develop the spiritual muscle of noticing these feelings in your heart and letting them go. So let's say you put your hand in a fire. You'll then be able to notice that you wanting to pull your hand out is itself a feeling, and you are trying to resist that pain and heat. And you can let that go. Takes a lot of practice lol.

I had an ego backlash but, now I am feeling great tho. I have integrated at least 10% of what I felt during the exercise in my baseline consciousness. And I am working throughout the day to bump it back up and up. By that mean be more conscious. Just sitting is feels great man. During the exercise I felt the same in my head as during an orgasm's peak. I know it goes deeper and more intense, but first let me be able to reach their easily as well. Everything Leo said in the video which would previously make 0 sense to me made 100% sense. And it still does. Just wow. I had a similar experience 2 weeks back, I even posted about it. This was the same, but it was bunch more intense.

You can watch Leo's video on letting go. He gives a few exercises. For me, I masturbated, so I started letting that go. This is effective because after some days the urge is really strong, and if you can let that go too, it's very good training. Youvan do this while your body is feeling pain. When you are frustrated, angry, sad, excited, happy. Just try letting it go and flow instantaneously. Also be sure to identify yourself as an illusion and let that go as well. Letting yourself or "me" go is very helpful into having a flowing mind that is unsticky. Once you let it go, the flow suddenly goes 50 fold.

@Lyubov I don't know about there being different POV's or not, but I think the video focused more on getting you into your direct experience and shatter all your concepts. So you can identify that this right here is god. Because in your direct experience there is no other POV. There is also no you.

Since I am mostly on PC, I use uBlockOrigin adblocker extension. It's not like I can pay for Youtube premium and all. And If I am getting a real good experience without paying why not? If I was rich then yeah I would buy Youtube Premium since it will also extend to my phone. By right now ads aren't even a problem for me. And it's not like I need Youtube Music and all that. And I don't know why despise ads so much? I honestly don't care if Google or any big corporations get money. I have better things to do(self-actualization) than give fucks about hating ads and demonizing corporation.

Saiyans be like

I kind of did it accidently one night when I was staring at an ant. I could feel myself becoming the ant. I was flickering between it and me. I didnt do it properly but I was flickering for a minute or two. It was very different then what I had imagined such a mergence to be beforehand.

I was doing Hatha Yoga, I was doing shavasan as I was done with my practice for the day. I suddenly let go to the silence. And I realized that I could let myself go into the silence of reality and I finally found out, at least to some degree, what it means to trust the universe. You don't have to leave everything or stop aiming for stuff. You just have to focus on the mind, all of it, and surrender it completely to the silence of reality. Such that you dont even remember yourself anymore. Don't try to register it in your memory once you do it, it'll only bring you out of it.

New Delhi, India

How do I embody love and intensify it. I wanna start off by experiencing really intense love, then slowly embodying those states and making it baseline.

Ofcourse the classic:

Imo if it's wrong then eventually you'll just grow out of it. I am also stuck on this lol. Just like how one comes into spirituality for personal purposes, but ultimately ends up the most impersonal.

Right now in this moment. I can't be grateful of anything. I don't exist, neither does any other thing. Gratefulness is me and I am everything. All is one. This Thank you is for all there is and this Thank you IS all there is. This Thank you is to me, and this Thank you IS me. Thank you.

In Law of One it talks about us graduating to another octave (universe) once we reach 8TH Density (Dissolve into infinite consciousness). Sounds very much like a level up lol Leo also talks about how he saw this "second set" of awakenings when he was experiencing almost doing Maha Samdahi. And that there were infinite such lines or sets.

That's fascinating.

Oh I see. That's very interesting. I think people with Dementia in the last stages have no sense of self remaining.

holy shit

Basically dont waste your time on all that shit and work towards realization

could be you sleep walking and all

I am really thankful for the beingness. or we can say "Being" same thing